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| ISBN-13: | 9781463418878 |
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| Publisher: | AuthorHouse |
| Publication date: | 07/11/2011 |
| Pages: | 28 |
| Product dimensions: | 8.50(w) x 8.50(h) x 0.07(d) |
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You're Not Alone On This Journey
By Judith A. Roderick
AuthorHouse
Copyright © 2011 Judith A RoderickAll right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4634-1887-8
Chapter One
It made my heart as cold as could be
My hopes and dreams were taken away
While trudging on to this job everyday
No signs of life for my spirit inside
For over and over it was lie upon lie
For on October 13 two thousand and ten
Was the very 1st
day I started living again
Though mixed with emotions and tears galore
I stepped out of winter and walked out that door
While days will pass and winter will fade
I know something better is headed my way
For my spirit inside is coming awake
And I thank God for each step that I take
That job was a necessity for me to get here
For I know it has been made perfectly clear
Trust in your Source that He knows what's best
Keep praying for guidance and He'll do the rest
This cutting board is like my soul
It has been damaged with all it holds
The hurt, betrayal and all of the lies
From "so called" friends my spirit dies
With all that is precious that God has made
I know in my heart my soul can be saved
With trust and with love for my energy Source
God will direct me back onto His course
THE DAMAGE CANNOT BE UNDONE-BUT THE HEALING CAN
BEGIN WITH FAITH AND LOVE
TRUST IN THE UNIVERSE
Though it took a few weeks, the feeling of betrayal started to dissipate and the feeling of "HURT" gladly took its place. I had many days where I would bounce back and forth from hurt to betrayal. Why couldn't I just accept it?
It didn't help that my husband also works for the same company. I would never be able to sever the ties. I would have to find a way to deal with my situation and at the same time support my husband.
I would wake up each day and feel like I had no purpose. My husband had a job to go to and my children had school. What was my purpose? At least when I had a job I felt like that was my purpose. To help the employees when they had problems or questions.
Some days the feeling of hurt comes flooding in. As I think back to all the times I was led to believe some of my coworkers were really my friends, the feeling of betrayal seeps back into my soul.
I still wonder each day if anyone even thinks about me. Or, has everyone just moved on and forgotten about me. From what I hear, someone has already taken over my space. I was devastated when I heard that. But not surprised.
With praying and loving my spirit will grow
Like buds on this branch ready to open
For spiritual awareness is what I am hoping
The next emotion I found working its way inside of me was "ANGER". I am sure this anger was all a part of the betrayal and hurt I felt. I never realized I could have so many emotions all at one time. I realized that I couldn't sort through them.
All the feelings I was having were all entwined together like the branches of a tree. The betrayal, the hurt, and the anger - all negative feelings eating away at me from the inside.
What I needed to do was to focus on trying to get to a better and more peaceful place emotionally. These negative feelings were draining the life out of me. How was I going to do this? Being more spiritual was going to be the answer for me.
Being spiritual doesn't mean you have to belong to any religious organization. It means you find your own way to connect directly with God. You don't need a church or an organized religion to be the middleman between you and God. What you need to do is to speak directly to God from your heart. He knows what you are going through – He knew before it even happened and He already knows how it will work out. He has a plan for all of us and if you walk in faith knowing this, He will make sure His favor wraps around you like your favorite blanket. Always keep your faith flowing even when everything looks dark. Remember light always follows darkness.
In order for me to continue to rise to the challenge of being more spiritual and victorious, the first thing I needed to do was to forgive the people that betrayed and hurt me and let God do His job in their lives.
I understand a little better now that God will always use the ones who push you down to lift you higher. If it weren't for the betrayal of my peers I would never have discovered what kind of person I really am. I have learned that I am more creative and spiritual than I ever thought possible.
Like the roads of our life they do wind
Touching in ways we cannot see
We are all connected to the "humanity" tree
For good or for bad our lives will touch
With feelings of envy, jealousy and such
To live together and know this to be true
Branches Alone - not much can they do
I have been doing a lot of praying, spiritual reading, and I am even beginning to learn to meditate. I have found that my heart is more peaceful after I have done this.
What the readings have taught me is that we all have to go through the losses, upsets, and trials in our lives or we will never fulfill our true destiny. If you think back to all the nasty, negative, lying, two-faced hypocrites you have had to endure, you will realize it was all necessary in order for you to be where you are today.
Though we don't want to admit it, it is necessary to deal with unpleasant people. Everyone that crosses our path was meant to, either for our sake or for his or her sake.
I have realized that the universe tends to unfold just as God intended. If I hadn't gone through the fires, then I never would have realized how important it is to trust in God and trust in the Universe.
This doesn't mean you can't be disappointed, hurt, angry or sad when you go through your trials and losses. It means that once the shock is over, take a moment and find a reason to be thankful. Embrace the change you are about to face.
With people like the sand
Some are soft, some are warm
Some as hard as land
In order to get to God's ocean
Across the beach we travel
With people as course as wet sand
We will not unravel
They are but a drop of water
In God's sea of love
We always must bow our heads
And remember its God we Love
I know it is easier said than done, but you need to believe that there are better opportunities ahead of you. This I truly believe. God knows what is best for us. We may not agree with Him at the time we are going through our battles but this is when our faith is put to the test.
As we go through life, we will be faced with many difficult trials and tests. Some of these tests God gives us in order to help us become better people that are more caring with more patience. When we are stuck in traffic - it may be God's way of teaching us to be more patient.
Take these tests in stride and always try to be positive without complaining. Complaining is a low energy activity which I have come to realize through my readings and meditation. All things are made up of energy and they vibrate at different levels. Negative thoughts, words, and actions vibrate at a very low level and create negative energy in your space.
On the other hand, happiness, joy, love, kindness, and positive thoughts and words vibrate at a higher level and create a positive energy. Who wouldn't choose to have a positive energy around them instead of a negative energy? Wouldn't you choose to be happy instead of sad? Happiness is a decision that we all can make. It can be very difficult some days and everyone stumbles now and again. The only thing we can do is start each new day with a positive thought and try to be a better person than we were the day before. The only perfect person is God! God will see us stumble and He will reach out His hand to us – all we have to do is take His hand and He will help guide us back onto His course.
Just close your eyes and ask for guidance and understanding from your "Source".
Like trials and tests God puts us through
To help us and change us these ripples we face
In order to get us to a much better place
Look at these tests with love and a smile
A different perception will take us that mile
The way we answer these tests we are given
Is a true testimony of the life we are living
I have found myself getting closer to my Source - God- as a result of the spiritual readings and meditating I have been doing. I recently read that when a student is ready the teacher will appear.
I would like to thank my brother for being that teacher and helping me realize that my job was just that. A JOB. A job does not define who you really are or what kind of person you are. How you treat people, what you give of yourself, and the time spent talking directly to your Source defines whom you truly are.
I am more content now than I have ever been. I find myself not worrying about things like I did when I had a job. Isn't that bizarre? Worry more when you have a job than when you don't. I believe the negative environment that I was in only fueled my worry and anxiety.
Sometimes you can be standing in the middle of a toxic situation and not even know it. We all need to step back and reevaluate our lives. Do we contribute to that toxic situation? Can we live with ourselves knowing that we are creating hardship for others? Are we being true to who our Source wants us to be? Some people are blind to the fact that they are caught up in a toxic mess. I was one of those people. I never realized how negative I was when I was right in the middle of it. People will deny what they do based on the fact that "it is just business"- it isn't who I am. However, how you treat others and what you do to others defines who you truly are.
The contentment that I now have is a result of traveling on this journey to my Source. The fact that I am no longer in that negative environment only adds to the wonder. I am now in a very peaceful place. My husband and children have been very supportive and they have noticed a big change in my attitude. I am becoming the person that my Source wants me to be.
Inside of my heart the peace there will be
With God by my side with his favor and graces
Taking me to the most beautiful places
My mind as clear as this stream you can see
Knowing that God is a part of me
Letting the fear flow down and away
Having the faith to get up every day
My kitty makes a happy sound that is pure purr-fection
That is how I feel when I make my spiritual connection
That purr-fect sound of contentment and happiness inside
Is the feeling that I get knowing God is by my side
Happiness, contentment along with joy and love
Knowing that I am being guided by my Source above
I now find myself smiling more at others when I pass them in a store, in a bank, or on the street. I actually go out of my way to help strangers if I see they may need a hand. I make an effort to say hello to others. These are little acts of kindness that I find myself performing. It makes me feel good to do these simple acts of humanity for others.
Just a smile or a hello can make someone's not so pleasant day a little more pleasant. Isn't this what life is all about? I was so caught up in myself in the past and all my worries that I never took the time to look at others.
I have realized that I am too blessed to be stressed, worried or upset. I am trying each day to stay focused on moving forward and leaving my past like a trail behind.
Take that extra minute to make a difference in someone's day. You don't realize what an effect it could have on them. It may be just what they need to help them to keep moving forward on their path.
No matter where you do it it lights a person's way
Its definition is the same no matter where you are
It's such a simple gesture that will bring you far
As God looks down upon this earth He is smiling too
Knowing that your act of kindness cheered up someone blue
So keep the smiles coming with each and every day
And maybe another person will one day light your way
What I did realize through this job loss is that when people say "its just business" they don't want to be held accountable for decisions they stand behind. It is their way of washing their hands of the situation so they won't feel responsible for another person's hardship. Someone needs to take that responsibility.
I don't ever want to be part of a group of people who have no regard for what they are doing to others. How can you sleep at night knowing you brought hardship to others? Is it just business??
We should all strive to obtain a job that will allow us to sleep peacefully at night knowing that we have helped others in some small way.
Though my days aren't always positive ones, I need to keep reminding myself that my happiness is my decision and worrying just brings negative energies into my space.
Though I have to find a job in order to help my family financially, it would be with great despair that I would have to choose a job working for a company that doesn't care about their employees - it's just business to them. That road, as far as I am concerned, has too many potholes and ruts to sleep peacefully at night.
I know I am a very different person now that I travel on my journey to my "Source". A spiritual guide reminded me that no matter what job I end up with, it would be the right job. God knows better than I do what needs to happen. I have surrendered to His will. The spiritual guide has also reminded me that because I am a different person spiritually I will be able to see the negative people right away and not allow myself to be dragged down that road again. I just need to keep reminding myself that I am on my God given path and each person is on his or her own path.
As the previous night says its good-byes
The warmth and sunshine to us will it give
Knowing without it nothing can live
God gives us each day without any rest
Making us aware of how we are blessed
With family and friends and sometimes with "FOE"
God knows what he is doing so on we must go
With all that is good and all that is blessed
There is no time that we should be stressed
Being thankful everyday is how we thank our Source
For all the good that He has done in keeping us on course
So wake up with a thank you and say good night that way
And be good to one another each and every day
For love and kindness is an act the Lord shows favor for
He will bless you abundantly - you will need no more..
I now go to bed at night thankful for all that God has given me. My family, a few true friends, my faith, and for all his graces that he has bestowed upon us.
I continue to ask for guidance in each step I take so that my destiny to help others in a positive way will be answered.
I will continue to pray for all the people whose paths that I have crossed so that they may realize the negative effects certain jobs can have on the heart of a person.
Some may say I take things too personally, but how else can I take it? I am a person - a divine creation of my Source.
We all should be in the "business" of love and kindness so that when you do something for someone else you can say with happiness.....
ITS JUST BUSINESS
As you can see, my journey is off to a great start. I try every day to eliminate all negative thoughts, feelings, and any resistance that will hinder my connection with God. I know I will have setbacks but I also know that with every setback comes a promise from God that everything will be okay. On this spiritual journey my only hope is to find my true purpose in this life.
KEEP IN FAITH - TRUST IN GOD - TRUST IN THE UNIVERSE KNOW IN YOUR HEART THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE
(Continues...)
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