Table of Contents
Introduction 6
Prologue 12
Chapter 1 The New Road 20
Chapter 2 Newcomer 24
Chapter 3 Learning to Dance 36
Chapter 4 Spiritual Limbo 41
Chapter 5 Road to Ceremony 44
Chapter 6 Spiritual Deconstruction 60
Chapter 7 Medicine Dreams 66
Chapter 8 Welcome to Ceremony 71
Chapter 9 Two Separate Circles 87
Chapter 10 Digging My Own Grave 92
Chapter 11 Calm Before the Ceremony 104
Chapter 12 Victoria's Ceremony- Holding the Space 107
Chapter 13 Dancing with Energy 119
Chapter 14 Lowerworld 125
Chapter 15 Two Days In The Hole 139
Chapter 16 The Four Enemies 159
Chapter 17 Building a Circle 176
Chapter 18 The First Lodge 180
Chapter 19 The Four Enemies: Part Two 187
Chapter 20 The Downward Spiral 199
Chapter 21 Three Days of Death 202
Chapter 22 Institution Time 218
Chapter 23 Desperate Measures 224
Chapter 24 Sundance 228
Chapter 25 Sundance: Taking the Tree 233
Chapter 26 Sundance: Day One 242
Chapter 27 Sundance: Day Two 248
Chapter 28 Sundance: Final Day 255
Chapter 29 Miracle Season 260
Chapter 30 The Road Goes On 265