Table of Contents
Poison Ivy Handjob 1
Part I
Family Portrait with Cadillac Engulfed in Flames 7
17 10
The Warning 11
July 13
Clitoral 14
Portrait of Boy Preserved in Chlorine 16
You Say I Look Happy in a Photograph from When We Were Apart and I Think 18
Nikki Lyn 20
First Love 23
Love Letter to Myself at Sixteen 25
The World 27
G-Spot 30
Postlapsarian 31
Heaven 32
Part II
Thrift Store Fur 35
OX Hunger Essay 37
Nightly Detonation 42
The Bulimic Soul Says to the Bulimic Body 44
Dark Spring 45
January Relapse 46
Young 48
Cape May Church Retreat: Thirteen 50
Lobby of the Philadelphia Animal Shelter 51
Telling Your Best Friend 52
Part III
First Memory 57
Long Lonely 58
Part IV
The Kittens 67
My Love 68
My Love 69
On Recovery 71
Homage 73
7 A.M., Philly, 31°F 74
Theremin 78
Morning Phantom 80
Surfer 81
Long Distance 83
Wider Than a Mile 85
Thanksgiving 88
Ode to Pomegranates 90
Imaginary Dream 92
Aubade XV 95
Epilogue
In Flux: 25 99
Acknowledgments 102