Top To Bottom: A Memoir and Personal Guide Through Phalloplasty

by Finlay Games

Overview

'Radical, honest and timely' FOX FISHER
'Fascinating' ASH PALMISCIANO
'A cracking read' MEG-JOHN BARKER

"This book is about my penis. This is my story of going through lower surgery, specifically phalloplasty, and the adventures I have with my changing genitals along the way. Welcome to my journey."

After coming out as trans, Finlay Games was adamant lower surgery would not be a part of his transition, but as the years went by, and his gender dysphoria increased, he decided to explore surgical options. Detailing the emotional and physical journey of phalloplasty, this book takes the reader through Finlay's experiences, from the initial decision-making through each stage of the surgery to its completion, recovery and after-care. Describing how he had to relearn his body, sexuality and his relationships, Finlay shares his wealth of advice and tips on donor site options, different types of surgery, the referral process, essential items and resources, and looking after your mental health.

Part memoir, part self-help guide, this insightful, witty and deeply honest book highlights the life-changing impact surgery can have for trans people and provides hope to those on a similar journey.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781787755888
Publisher:	Kingsley, Jessica Publishers
Publication date:	04/21/2021
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	288
File size:	455 KB

About the Author

Finlay Games is an LGBTQ+ and mental health blogger, writer and video creator. He has been sharing his transition story since 2011 via his YouTube channel, and has written for various publications about his transition. Top To Bottom is his first book.

Table of Contents

Acknowledgements 9

Preface 12

Ch 1 Awakening to the Absence of My Penis 17

Ch 2 Finding the Right Penis 28

Exploring Lower Surgery Options

Ch 3 Making Sacrifices for a Penis 43

Weighing Up the Losses and Gains in Phalloplasty

Ch 4 Preparing for a Penis 53

The Official Referral and a Long Wait

Ch 5 The Arrival of My Penis 70

Stage One Phalloplasty

Ch 6 Adjusting at Home and the Early Recovery Phase 90

Ch 7 The Long Recovery 111

Two to Six Months Post-Op

Ch 8 The Freedom of Standing to Pee 129

Stage Two Phalloplasty

Ch 9 A Failed Attempt at Stage Three and a Giant Step Backwards 148

Ch 10 An Unexpected Sexual Awakening 164

Ch 11 Peeing Freely Again 181

Rehook-Up Success

Ch 12 The Gay Experiment 195

Ch 13 We Have Lift-Off 206

Stage Three Success

Ch 14 Final Healing and Reflections on My Journey 223

Appendix A Phalloplasty Surgery Essentials 234

Appendix B Additional Resources 238

Editorial Reviews

Finn has given us a gift. A timely companion on the journey to advocate for ones own pleasure, hone the hoop jumping skills needed to medically affirm ones gender, and to nurture the community needed to raise a penis!

Dr. Liam “Captain” Snowdon

An engrossing testimony to transformation and learning to love your body...told with warmth and insight.

Gscene

Top to Bottom is a wonderful trans memoir and a greatly needed resource for anyone considering phalloplasty. Much more than that though, Finlay's book is a human story of the move towards authenticity and belonging. Told with great warmth, humour, and self awareness, it's a cracking read for anybody.

Meg-John Barker

The insightful, witty and deeply honest book that so many of us on a similar path have been hungry for.

Phallo.net

The tongue in cheek phrase 'top to Bottom' explores openly, honestly and candidly, one individual's journey from sexual shame and gender dysphoria, to gender and sexual autonomy. This uncompromising tale inspires and challenges us. As a trans man myself, Finn has always encouraged and motivated me. For helping to dispel fear and those accompanying ghost stories, thankyou can never convey enough! A must read for anyone considering Lower Surgery and those who support us.

Dr. Wenn B. Lawson (PhD) CPsychol AFBPsS MAPs

Top to Bottom - a story you've never heard before but a story that needs to be told. This memoir is universally written, acting as an outstanding guide to any trans man about to embark on this journey but also a fascinating insight into the complexity of being human. Finn is an extraordinary writer, his tone is warm, painfully honest, profound and humorous. I'll be highly recommending this book for years to come.

Ash Palmisciano

A grippingly in-depth and honest account of a process that's rarely been told so openly before. Radical, honest and timely.

Fox Fisher - Artist

An engrossing testimony to transformation and learning to love your body...told with warmth and insight.

Scene

Finn has given us a gift. A timely companion on the journey to advocate for ones own pleasure, hone the hoop jumping skills needed to medically affirm ones gender, and to nurture the community needed to raise a penis!

Dr. Liam “Captain” Snowdon