Table of Contents
Introduction: A Shining Example of a Man xi
1 Chasing an Ideal 1
The Hemingway man drew me in, as no transformative rite of passage can begin until you see the archetype you want to be, but he was altogether more than expected.
2 The Terror and the Confusion 33
Fighting bulls were the rite's terror and confusion. Whatever the rituals in a true rite of passage bring, they are there to rip away the walls around your ego and ready you for what's next.
3 The Guides 57
My guide was Juan Macho, a veteran bull runner and a Hemingway scholar. In any rite of passage, a sensei, drill sergeant, coach, or teacher will confront you. If a guide isn't apparent, one must be sought, as no rite of passage is real without enforcers and mythmakers. (Beware: a poor guide can ruin a grunt, student, or plebe.)
4 The Gauntlets 93
Now came the trials of running with bulls. The gauntlets in a rite of passage can be as ghastly as gloves filled with bullet ants, as grueling as boot camp, or as heart-pounding as running in a packed Spanish street with bulls; but whatever it requires, its challenges are there to prepare you for a metamorphosis that will only come if you endure the tests of mind, body, and spirit.
5 The Codes 107
All real rites of passage have moral codes as their foundations, because without them the change isn't lasting. Perhaps this is why Hemingway was obsessed with his code. Whatever the case, the basis of Hemingway's code is surprising.
6 The Reckoning 123
As you struggle and endure, you'll get the first taste of being what you've been pursuing. If you accept this, you'll be forever changed, still yourself but purified in a manly role.
7 The Way 141
If you pass the tests, you will be accepted among men of honor in a unit, team, company, firehouse, dojo, or, in my case, a peña. You are in a guarded society, a fraternity of men. But you also know the archetype you're trying to live up to will abandon you if you break the code, that to be all you can be, you must live up to something other than yourself. Of course it is much more than this, but that is why this is a book.
Appendix: Codes of Honor 149
Use these codes to write your own.
About the Author 173