The Ultimate Betrayal: A Psychotherapy Journal of a Tortuous Childhood and Survival

by Maria Stolz

Overview

The Ultimate Betrayal is a unique inside look and view into the private realm of a therapist’s office during seven intensive years of psychotherapy. Ms. Stolz is an adult survivor of terrifying and horrifying childhood battery and violence. In June 1996, suffering from severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), the author became a patient who kept an extensive journal of the conversations and emails that occurred between her and the therapist. This is a testament to all adult survivors who live as ghosts burdened with secrets of the family crucible. It is hoped that the book will welcome them back among the living by showing them how to heal—-that it is possible to find joy in living and thrive in their lives.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9780989726801
Publisher:	Maria Stolz
Publication date:	09/30/2013
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	178
File size:	880 KB

About the Author

Maria Stolz is a former Californian living in Minnesota. She and her husband Howard have been married for nearly 40 years and they have three grown children: Moana Lua, Asher, and Liliapua (Lily) and three grandchildren: Destiny, Brayden and Bryce. She writes a column called "Musings of a Transplant" for a local newspaper and is a soprano "road warrior" musician for three groups. She is also a nationally renowned stained glass artist of churches and synagogues including one window which graces the Vatican. She is currently pursuing a master’s degree in Marriage Family Therapy and wants to conduct a specialty practice for seniors as a licensed therapist.

Table of Contents

Foreword 9

Preface 11

It Began With a Gall 15

Night Sweats 18

The Hard Work Begins-Getting to Know Each Other 21

Ramming Speed 28

Still Dreaming 34

Defcon I 37

Fall Out 42

Dreaming Awake 47

Back to the Present 55

Twenty-something 59

Wild Girl-Child 64

More Work to Do 71

More Dreamwork 81

Aftermath 88

Still Climbing 97

Casting Stones 104

Breaking the Cycle of Violence 105

Falling Again 111

The Trigger 118

New Year's Resolutions 122

Watershed 130

Deprivations 139

The Deer 144

My Life-script 149

The Third Party 153

What We Care to Know 156

Feelings 162

Saying Goodbye 167

Afterword 172

Appendix 174

What People are Saying About This

William Tregaskis

It is a very powerful book taking one through two painful experiences [living it and recovering] in a journey to find ones self...The process of being is a never-ending process...the premise of narrative therapy [helps you] discover...how you intuitively apply it to your own healing. (William Tregaskis, Ph.D., LP, Buffalo Coordinator of Central Minnesota Mental Health Center)

Eliana Gil

It was incredibly compelling, powerful, moving and well-written. It is realistic view of how painful the experience can be and also the possibilities that can occur with dedicated work and good support...I think it would be very worthwhile for people to read...the book is amazing. (Eliana Gil, Ph.D, Gill Center for Healing and Play, Fairfax, VA)

Editorial Reviews

"It was an incredibly compelling, powerful, moving and well-written. It is a realistic view of how painful the experience can be and also the possibilities that can occur with dedicated work and good support...I think it would be very worthwhile for people to read...the book is amazing." Eliana Gil, PhD "Top shelf for students of psychology. This impassioned work left me awed and humbled by the author's strength in surviving, healing from, and recounting her years of physical, emotional and psychological devastation. Don't miss."

-- HP Zieler, Las Vegas, NV

"It is a very powerful book, taking one through two painful experiences, [living it and recovering] in a journey to find ones self...The process of being is a never ending process...the premise of narrative therapy [helps you] discover...how you intuitively apply it to your own healing." William Tregaskis, PhD "A must read! From the first paragraph, I couldn't stop reading. This well-written and very intense book left me shocked and sobered. It was unimaginable what the author endured as a child...The author's road out of her misery to health and healing is a glorious testament to the human spirit and good therapy. I would encourage this to be required reading in any psychology class."

-- Anonymous, Barnes & Noble website

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