The New Disciples: A Novel

The New Disciples: A Novel

by Anthony B. Pinn
The New Disciples: A Novel

The New Disciples: A Novel

by Anthony B. Pinn

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Confessions, communions, sermons, and community service—Father Ford did it all. Although he never fully understood what led him to the priesthood and at times just went through the motions as best he could, he managed to avoid the conflicts and dilemmas that so often destroyed the careers of fellow clergy—no sexual misconduct of any kind, no stealing, nothing that would bring disgrace to the Church. But when the Church forces the closure of his low-income congregation and assigns him to a new church in a rich part of town, a hotbed of sin, he begins to question whether the Church establishment is truly honoring God's will. Challenged by a troubled parishioner who reminds him that violence and murder have long been a vital story within the saga of human salvation, Father Ford starts to understand that God has sent this messenger for a reason. He comes to the realization that perhaps his true calling is to do whatever is necessary to purify all who sin through extreme penance. In the sanctuary of the confessional, Father Ford and his unlikely partner commit to doing the work of Christ that the Church can't or won't do . . . bloody work—a divine charge to cleanse the congregation and safeguard the body of Christ from sinners. Together, in order to save, they resolve to kill.

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ISBN-13: 9781634310109
Publisher: Pitchstone Publishing
Publication date: 05/01/2015
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: eBook
Pages: 272
File size: 1 MB

About the Author

Anthony B. Pinn is the Agnes Cullen Arnold Professor of Humanities and director of the Center for Engaged Research and Collaborative Learning at Rice University. He is the author of numerous books, including The End of God-Talk: An African-American Humanist Theology and Writing God's Obituary: How a Good Methodist Became a Better Atheist and the coeditor of the collection Life Sentences: Short Stories. He lives in Houston.

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The New Disciples

A Novel


By Anthony B. Pinn

Pitchstone Publishing

Copyright © 2015 Anthony B. Pinn
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-63431-010-9


CHAPTER 1

It had never been completely clear to James Ford how he ended up in the priesthood. Perhaps he felt something that people would say was a calling from God, or perhaps it was simply an easy career option that smacked him in the face. He'd always been comfortable in the church, enjoyed the services, and admired the robes worn by the priests. Maybe that feeling of comfort — the feeling this stuff is sufficient to mark a good life — constituted a calling?

The reason might be mundane, but he always had a question in the back of his mind. Why not a more spectacular something, a more fantastic push into ministry? He'd read the Bible on his own and as part of his church education, and he couldn't help wishing for the same type of connection to God — some marker of him being special. At times he found himself wondering why he didn't experience something like the vision Moses had with the burning bush and the booming voice in the wilderness. He could ask these questions and have this wish, but ultimately there was no way around it.

His entrance into ministry wasn't very dramatic; in fact, it was rather pedestrian and somewhat boring. He'd been an altar boy — and he'd relished the responsibilities that had gone along with that title. He knew he was an essential part of the service, and his role was key to the development of mass each Sunday. He felt a little important, useful, noticed, and maybe it was a desire to maintain that feeling that pulled him into the ministry.

Ford's family had always placed importance in the Roman Catholic Church, and had expressed deep regard for and obedience to the priests encountered over the years. His mother admired the priests because they were committed and well spoken; they expressed a certain type of stability, a presence that was sure and steady. His father had a healthy respect for authority — and who could trump the guys who work for God? So there was no surprise that Ford's parents were pleased when one morning he awoke and at breakfast told them he wanted to be a priest. He'd never seen his mother or father so happy with him, or at least a bit relieved that their son would make something of his life.

They kept these thoughts quiet, but at times they wondered what would become of him. He wasn't as intellectually gifted as his sister, and didn't have the self-assured presence of his older brother. In fact, he followed the lead of his brother and sister, and it didn't strike his parents that he did this simply because he was younger. There was more to it than that, although they couldn't quite articulate what they had in mind.

Even at a young age James seemed to them one in search of something — a mission and purpose — that would give life meaning and importance, and perhaps the priesthood would offer exactly that. And they hoped that something once he found it would give him the strength and the insight necessary to accomplish great things. His parents expressed these thoughts and their relief with smiles and hugs. And their smiles made him happy and he thought maybe life in the priesthood would give him that same feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment over and over again.

Encouraged by his parents — his siblings gave his announcement little thought — he told the priest in charge of the parish his desire to devote himself to the work of Christ. The priest wasn't as excited by the announcement as he assumed (or hoped) he might be, but Ford did begin to receive some attention and new opportunities to learn informally what it meant to be a priest.

Some of what he observed seemed uninspired, just a bunch of guys in black who went through a range of motions. Other times, Ford believed he felt a spiritual connection to something greater than the men in black suits. Ford paid careful attention to his responsibilities at the church. After this informal training and the first few phases of his education, Ford entered seminary where he encountered other young men like him, who'd also told parents and priests of their desire to serve.

He studied hard, and met with modest approval from his professors who spoke of him in a general way — as they would of any student — although they were not particularly impressed with his intellectual abilities. Many of them thought of him as unspectacular; he wouldn't become a leader of the universal Church; but, they'd seen worse and, after all, the Church needed priests. And the number of volunteers had decreased over the years.

Although it was not said during those moments of conversation and evaluation, the professors understood that many priests in training were like Ford. One professor was fond of calling Ford the Church's equivalent of white rice — a useful staple, but rather bland and unimpressive on its own. A few thought more highly of Ford, believing that a strong push, a certain type of opportunity might just change him and result in him doing for the Church things of which no one thought him capable. Yet, even in this belief there was an assumption Ford's best accomplishments would be modest when compared to those of others. Still, for them, the more encouraging professors, there was something — in class papers and in his conversations with other students and with faculty — about Ford's reaction to sin and punishment that marked him as different. This response to the dark side of humanity was a rare sensitivity in young men who entered this seminary.

Just one member of the faculty put more thought into Ford than this, and he believed there might be something dangerous for the Church in this reaction to sin. If this were actually the case, he prayed nothing would happen to bring this wicked potential to Ford's conscious mind and make manifest a problem hard to control.

Ford sensed at times his odd relationship to his training, to the Church, and to its leaders. But his sense of marginality didn't end with Church related persons and activities — at least all of this church-related business existed within the context of the familiar known as religious devotion. He also recognized his odd relationship to the outside world. He'd entered training for ministry early and never experienced life as those his age typically did ... when not seeking ordination.

Ford was no wiser concerning the workings of the world as a result of his education; in fact little of what he learned had anything to do with what it meant to be a flawed human with desires, wants, and fears. But he did learn prayers, theology, rituals, some philosophy, and the general workings of the Roman Catholic Church.

After graduating from seminary, Ford was assigned without much explanation a series of unimpressive (and modest) parishes, all within urban areas of major cities. His stays were long enough to learn some of the workings of ministry — how to engage community service opportunities, how to interact with his people. But, these assignments, often a matter of months rather than years, didn't last long enough to foster deep connections on a personal level with members of the various congregations.

Ford knew other priests who had great friendships with members of their congregations, and friendships with people beyond the Church — but not him so much. He'd get together socially with some members, share a laugh with some, and develop relationships with a few that resembled friendships. He went to dinner in homes when invited, and worked to make pleasant conversation about things of which he knew little — politics, the economy, and relationships. He cursed on occasion, and drank particularly when he was anxious, but that didn't seem to bother his parishioners. And he certainly wasn't the only priest with these weaknesses. He had the occasional cup of coffee when the offer was made, and learned something about the everyday concerns and experiences of those trusting him with their spiritual well-being. Ford avoided the conflicts and dilemmas that destroyed the career of many — no sexual misconduct of any kind, no stealing, nothing that would bring disgrace.

Ford, during times of contact with those outside the priesthood, always knew in the back of his mind that he could say little of real substance to them because they lived in a world he hadn't really experienced firsthand.

He was pretty much alone, without deep connections and too far from family to maintain good relations with them. In each case the diocese had limited expectations for those parishes, but simply needed to keep them open for the time being. Ford did his best to meet the needs of those in his charge. Baptisms, communions, sermons, counseling sessions, and community service — he did it all, and the people around him seemed to appreciate it (or at least expect this work).

Many days he made an effort to enjoy his work — not as much as he'd imagined when he sat with his bowl of cereal and told his parents about his calling. But he struggled to feel at peace with his ministry, although at times it was far from satisfying. Even the people — the real Church — held, although he'd never say it, only limited appeal for him. He went through the motions as best he could, despite the moments of doubt and regardless of the loneliness.

One Monday, at one of these many churches, he'd been in his office going over the typical Monday stuff — schedule of counseling sessions, thoughts that might form his next sermon, recovering from the demands of the previous day.

The boredom was broken by a knock on his door. It was Cristina Gomez. She and her husband were members of the church and had been active — attending services and special events, and giving an offering each service they attended — and they made certain to bring their small children along. Cristina made it clear she hoped her son would become a priest, that at least would take him away from the dangers of their neighborhood and maybe their daughter would become a nun — although she was really smart and both her parents hoped they could somehow get her through public school and into a good college.

She needed to speak with Ford about her family. After taking her seat, she told him about her husband's increasing use of alcohol. He'd lost his job, and they would soon lose their home. She wanted help, any type of assistance — at least some way to make sense of it all.

"Is God punishing us, father? Did we do something wrong, commit some type of sin?"

Ford listened to her questions, and studied her face. He wanted to admit ignorance, but he knew he had to come up with answers. Drawing from his school days and set of stock responses to such questions, Ford smiled and told her, "Sometimes God tests us, Cristina. Think about Job ... he committed no sin. He was good, and God allowed him to be tested. Perhaps you are being tested. Stay strong and prayerful."

She seemed comforted by this, but Ford felt a bit numbed by it all. On some level, he realized this type of conversation was a part of his responsibilities, and he would handle those moments. Even then, he didn't see himself as being any closer to Cristina or the others who came with similar problems. At times, as he talked to them, it was almost as if he hovered above his body, watching and listening as he spoke. He'd wonder if this was all there was to ministry. Should it even be called ministry?

It was assumed this limited and uninspired ministry would also mark his time at his new parish — St. Barbara, where, unlike earlier assignments, he'd spend a good number of years.

Ford tried harder at this new parish. In fact, he came to think highly of many of the determined and gentle people he taught, coached, and counseled.

The people at St. Barbara worked as best they could, but with little chance for financial traction, or security really of any kind. Parents pressed to keep their children safe, and an opportunity to advance beyond high school to college was a rare gift. One face, one story, above all others made this real for Ford.

Black mother and Hispanic father, Joan Douglass marked the best of what the United States had to offer. Her bright, brown eyes seemed so hopeful whenever Ford saw her, and Joan's light brown face, wide smile, and small frame seemed somewhat unflustered by the grit of her neighborhood. She was a stand out, and he thought as much from the day of her christening forward. Her family, like many families in the neighborhood, had its trials — including an uncle who had a dangerous interest in his young niece. The uncle was jailed, and Joan got over the physical trauma. Ford and her counselor provided by the state worked to help her address the spiritual, emotional, and mental damage.

Joan was special. In spite of the brutal moments in her life constituting experiences from which many would not bounce back, Joan kept her faith, did well in school, and stayed out of trouble and determined to go beyond high school to college. She wanted to be an attorney — corporate law because she said she had to understand what made the world work in order to change it. Joan was going to fix her country from the inside out.

He could close his eyes and hear Joan sitting in his office explaining to him the outline of her future. Ford smiled and thought, "Boy was she determined, and when she got going ... it was hard not to share her enthusiasm. She'd make a dynamite attorney."

She'd picked her schools — small liberal arts colleges because she wanted to be out of the city, have the attention of her instructors, and learn networks generations of "legacy" students could provide. Her grades were good enough for college, her letters of recommendation coming from teachers and community leaders, including Ford, were outstanding. Joan was accepted at four of her six schools — her top four picks — and she decided to attend Williams College.

It was a long way from the city she called home, far away from the noise, the confusion, and she assumed from the challenges. Everyone, including Ford, was so proud of Joan. There was a party before she packed her stuff to go. Small gifts and big wishes for success were given to her. And she was on her way.

Joan loved Williams College, the safe feeling of Williamstown, the history of the area, and the green space. She could walk for what seemed miles without confronting a speeding car, without rude words from lowlifes on street corners.

The first year went well. Her bills were covered. She was making friends, doing well in her classes, and growing. Joan stayed on campus that summer because she remembered what her neighborhood was like during the hot months. She got a job at the local Your Food Groceries, and took a class in first-level French. Joan planned to travel someday. She'd need the language skills and money — so she'd not waste her paycheck on prepared foods at the store because even with the discount they were expensive. Instant noodles — four packages for $1.50 would do. She'd call home every Saturday morning to report on the week, and to share all the wonders of life in Williamstown. Her parents were proud, and her siblings anxious to have the experience she described. The family didn't have much to share with her, but they'd send letters expressing pride and offering a few dollars to help out.

Joan financed her education through fellowships, work-study, and federal loans. But that second year there were issues with her family finances that made completing all the required forms problematic: her mother had to take a different job, working at a drycleaners "under the table" — no W-2 forms and income that couldn't really be reported. The school financial aid officer asked questions and the federal government had regulations.

During registration, Joan was called to the financial aid office, and told her federal loan application had been rejected. Between the tears, Joan tried to find out why — but nothing the stone-faced officer said made any sense to her. All she knew was that without the loans she couldn't enter her sophomore year. Joan asked about additional support from Williams, maybe more work-study. Nothing could be arranged, even her state support couldn't be increased enough to make up for the loss. Her formal appeal of the decision amounted to nothing more than a rehearsal of school and federal government regulations.


(Continues...)

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