The Guru of Love

The Guru of Love

by Samrat Upadhyay


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Writing of Samrat Upadhyay’s story collection, critics raved: “like a Buddhist Chekhov . . . speak[s] to common truths . . . startlingly good” (San Francisco Chronicle) and “subtle and spiritually complex” (New York Times). Upadhyay’s novel showcases his finest writing and his signature themes. The Guru of Love is a moving and important story—important for what it illuminates about the human need to love as well as lust, and for the light it shines on the political situation in Nepal and elsewhere.

Ramchandra is a math teacher earning a low wage and living in a small apartment with his wife and two children. Moonlighting as a tutor, he engages in an illicit affair with one of his tutees, Malati, a beautiful, impoverished young woman who is also a new mother. She provides for him what his wife, who comes from a privileged background, does not: desire, mystery, and a simpler life. Complicating matters are various political concerns and a small city bursting with the conflicts of modernization, a static government, and a changing population. Just as the city must contain its growing needs, so must Ramchandra learn to accommodate both tradition and his very modern desires.

Absolutely absorbing yet deceptively simple, this novel cements Upadhyay’s emerging status as one of our most exciting writers.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780618382682
Publisher: HMH Books
Publication date: 08/12/2009
Edition description: Reprint
Pages: 304
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.76(d)

About the Author

SAMRAT UPADHYAY is the author of Arresting God in Kathmandu, which earned him a Whiting Award, and The Guru of Love, which was a New York Times Notable Book, a San Francisco Chronicle Best Book of the Year, a finalist for the Kiriyama Prize, and a Book Sense 76 pick. He lives in Bloomington, Indiana, and teaches creative writing and literature at Indiana University.

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The Guru of Love

A Novel
By Samrat Upadhyay

Houghton Mifflin Company

Copyright © 2003 Samrat Upadhyay
All right reserved.

ISBN: 0618247270

Chapter One

Thin as a waif , she wore a faded kurta suruwal. She stood in the doorway of Ramchandras bedroom, where he tutored his students. "I am very weak in math, sir," she said as he gestured for her to sit next to him on a cushion on the floor.

To ward off the chill, unusual for late September, she also wore the traditional khasto shawl. She had long eyelashes and a slim nose; fine fur dotted her upper lip. Her hair, glistening with oil, was pulled back in a prim style. Malati, she said, was her name, and she appeared slightly older, past her teens, than the students he normally tutored.

"I charge five hundred rupees a month," he said. "Three sessions a week, one hour each."

A shadow came over her face.

"Cant you afford that?" Ramchandra drew the electric heater close to him, even though he had a blanket wrapped around him and was wearing the thick socks that Goma had sewed for him. The walls of this old house, where Ramchandra rented his flat, were thin, and on a chilly day like this, harbinger of the cold that would soon envelop the city, the entire house became almost unbearable. One of the coils of the heater had come loose, and it protruded dangerously, still glowing red. Hed have to fix it soon, before the childrenburned themselves on it, before the coming months of winter, when "even the fish feel cold," as Ramchandras mother used to say.

"I come from a poor family," she said.

Ramchandra glanced out the small window. From his seated position, he could see the electric and telephone wires zigzagging outside his window. A kite swooped in the tiny blue patch of sky. Dashain festival was here, which meant more expenses.

His tutees had often cited their poverty, even those who came from well-to-do families, as their reason for defaulting on their payments. Well, he wasnt rolling in money either. He and Goma and the children were living on the top floor of this old house, with its rickety stairs and cracked ceilings, its cramped, dank rooms that never got enough sunlight, this house controlled by a landlord who came rapping on the door if the rent wasnt paid on time, where deafening traffic from the street penetrated the thin walls, shook the rooms, and made reasonable thinking impossible. For years hed been harboring the dream of buying some land and building a house in the city, if only to silence his in-laws. For the past three years, he and Goma had been putting away five hundred rupees a month. Or at least trying to; some months, especially during the festivals, not only could they not save, but they had to dip into their savings, which troubled Ramchandra constantly. "This way well never build a house," hed said to Goma dejectedly the other day after hed checked his bankbook and discovered that the balance was not even a lakh rupee. A few months ago, hed even looked at some plots of land, but most of them had been exorbitantly priced. There was one plot, near Dillibazaar, that was nice-close to the vegetable market and to the bus station-but the seller wanted five lakh rupees. Ramchandra had told him that no reasonable fool would buy the plot at that price, but as he walked away, he knew that the land would be sold within a few months. Many people were getting rich in Kathmandu. The country was poor, but in the capital, wealth was multiplying in the hands of those whod opened new businesses or those with government jobs who didnt turn away from hefty bribes.

With her worn-out clothes, Malati indeed looked poor, unlike his only other tutee, Ashok, a merchants son who arrived every morning in a shiny black car, with loud music thumping from the speakers.

"I dont have a father," Malati told him. "And my mother raises chickens to support the family."

"Then perhaps you should be working," Ramchandra said. "Help your family."

"Right now I am not in a position to work, sir," she said solemnly. "Besides, I want to go to college." And for that, she needed to pass the School Leaving Certificate exam. She admitted that shed barely passed the preliminary Sent-Up exams, administered by her school, and was worried about the actual exams.

"Whats the point of going to college when you need some income right now?"

She pursed her lips and glanced out the window.

She is pretty, he thought. But it was her determination that moved him. If he could help her, then it was his duty as a teacher to take her on. In the afternoons he taught at the rundown Kantipur School, with its crumbling walls and dark, crowded classrooms. It was a government school, which meant that it had a meager budget and disgruntled teachers. Most of them, like Ramchandra, tutored students on the side for extra income. These days, he was tutoring only Ashok, and he could have Malati join their sessions. "Okay, how much can you afford?"

"Two hundred rupees, sir."

"Thats too little," he said, thinking of his bank account. "I can tutor you for only two sessions a week for that."

"Thats fine, sir," she said. "I can do the rest on my own."

"Ill need the money first."

"Ill bring it tomorrow morning."

There was an awkward silence. He expected her to leave, and when she didnt, he was about to say, "Okay, then." But she asked, "Sir, are you from Kathmandu itself ?"

He studied her a bit more closely. People from Kathmandu rarely asked each other that question. Only outsiders probed one another, searching for something that bonded them in the city.

"Originally from Lamjung," he said. After his father died, he and his mother had sold their land and house in Lamjung to pay off creditors and had come to Kathmandu, with his mothers jewelry in a plastic bag and with the address of a distant relative. Mother, God bless her. He hoped her soul was at peace in heaven.

"I knew," Malati said. "I knew you were not from here. Your face tells it."

"Is it really that obvious?"

"Well, couldnt you say the same about me? Where do you think Im from, sir?"

He had no idea, but he was amused by her excitement. "Jumla?"

His mention of this remote, barren area in the northwest part of the country made her laugh. "You like to joke, dont you, sir. No, Im from Dharan."

"When did you move here?"

"A few years ago. But I still miss it. People in this city are so . . ."-she seemed to be searching for the appropriate word-"unfeeling."

Ramchandras own memories of Lamjung remained clear: the general store in a mud house perched dangerously on top of a hill; the biting cold in the morning; the haze that hung over the hills, and the clouds that rolled in and made the house in front of you disappear; the smell of sweet rice cooked in the mud oven, the smoke stinging his mothers eyes and making water run down her nose. But it was the memories of his early years in Kathmandu, the hardships he and his mother had endured, that were imprinted on his mind like a religious text. For a long time he had been angry at the city for making their lives difficult. But hed grown to love the city, and although he understood what Malati was saying, he didnt want to identify with her sense of helplessness. "Its been so many years," he told her, "that I consider myself a local of Kathmandu."

"Of course, sir. Still, this city can really make you suffer."

Tears started to well up in her eyes and, strangely, he was moved. He asked, "Do you want to sit down? Have some tea?"

She composed herself. "No, sir, I have something to attend to." As she was leaving, she smiled at him, revealing small white teeth. "Ive heard youre very good, sir."

Ramchandra waved his hand in the air.

Malati turned out to be very poor in math. Shed mull over a problem for a long time, often missing the most obvious connections. When hed explain a problem and hint at a possible solution, shed nod slowly and chew her lower lip, as if everything were sinking in, but when it was time to solve the problem, shed scratch her head and tighten her eyebrows, unable to move beyond the most rudimentary step. In contrast, Ashok, whose math skills Ramchandra had previously considered weak, now appeared bright. "Addition," Ramchandra would gently say to Malati. "You need to add the interest to the principal, not subtract it. Dont you see?" And slowly recognition appeared on her face, as if to say, "Why didnt I see that before?" Then she would nod, her head bobbing up and down. But that understanding soon proved false, and the next moment she would frown and chew her pencils eraser.

One morning, two weeks after shed started, Malati was stumped on a particular problem that theyd gone over repeatedly. Ramchandra slammed down his pencil on her notebook with the neatly written numbers. "Even a monkey from the Pashupatinath Temple would be able to solve such a simple problem." He jabbed a finger at the air in front of her. "Youre not a monkey, are you?" Malati looked down at her toes, her face red. Ashok smiled at him in disbelief, and Ramchandras wife, Goma, who had come in to collect empty tea glasses, shot him a glance.

He was about to say something conciliatory to Malati when she, still looking down, said in a strong voice, "I told you my math is poor. Thats why Im here. Thats why I need help."

"Okay," he said slowly. "Lets look at this from another angle."

Ashok was still smiling, watching Ramchandra closely.

"Is my face going to get you a pass in the S.L.C.?" Ramchandra asked him.

For the rest of the session, Malati remained quiet. Mechanically, she did what Ramchandra asked her to do, her lips pursed, and when it came time for her to solve a compound interest problem on her own, she said, "I have a headache. Ill go home now."

"Still fifteen minutes left, Malati."

"Didnt I just tell you I have a headache?" she said, and quickly got up and went down the stairs.

A sense of remorse plagued Ramchandra throughout the afternoon, when he was teaching at school; throughout the evening, when he came home, tired, and tutored a student and, later, played snakes and ladders with his son; and into the night, when he tried to sleep. This lingering guilt surprised him. Ramchandra rarely scolded his students, and he never hit them, as many of his colleagues did. But he also knew that it was necessary to protect his dignity as a teacher, so at times he would verbally discipline students for being unruly, as the older ones were likely to be. The issue of discipline had never arisen with those he tutored at home; this was the first time hed scolded anyone. But Malatis reaction to his disparaging her went beyond the shame a student might feel at being scolded. Somehow hed wounded her deeply.

Ramchandra also regretted that hed wasted the rest of her session, during which more could have been accomplished. He prided himself on the number of his tutees who went on to pass the S.L.C. exam. Sometimes it took only minutes for a student to move from one level to another. Thats why Ramchandra, no matter how tired he was, insisted that his students stay the full time they were scheduled for. This was especially important in the case of Ashok, who often came up with all kinds of excuses to leave early. With Malati, it was even more crucial, because it was difficult for her to pay her fee.

In the dark of night, Ramchandra pulled his sirak closer around himself and stared at the ceiling, unable to sleep. Lately, hed been having a repeated nightmare, in which he couldnt solve a simple algebra equation in front of his students. He attributed the dream to his heavy load of tutoring and teaching.

Ramchandra had discovered his skills in math early. When he was in the dangerously situated general store in Lamjung with his mother, hed quickly deduct the cost of the kilo of lentils from the five- or ten-rupee note that shed just handed to the vendor, and announce, loudly, "Need to return two rupees and twenty paisa." Hed solve math problems so fast on the small slate his father had given him that his father would say, "Wait, wait, before you erase it; let me see if you did that correctly." And Ramchandra would hand over the slate and grab a pencil and a notebook to scribble something else.

Later, after he and his mother had moved to Kathmandu, he would see a storekeeper in a spice shop laboriously scrawl the items and the prices. But the numbers would zoom inside Ramchandras head, and hed announce, in his sullen voice, "Total, seven rupees and fifty paisa." Often the shopkeeper would squint at him and, in jest, offer him a job as his assistant. Hed want to take the offer, but his mother would always say no, that she wouldnt dream of putting her son to work until hed finished school. "I want you to be an engineer," she said. She seemed particularly bent on engineering, either because she liked the foreign-sounding word or she associated it with mathematics. "Engineer, yes," she would say. "Youll build things."

Once he started attending school, in a crowded little classroom in Kathmandu, not too far from where he was now teaching, his hand would shoot up every time a math problem was put on the board. Eventually, the teacher started eyeing him with resentment. His friends gave him the nickname Hisabey Hanuman, because his prowess in math equaled the strength of the monkey god Hanuman, who uprooted an entire mountain, held it up on his palm, and flew.

How odd, thought Ramchandra, that hed called Malati a monkey when he himself had been called a monkey in his youth. In college, when Ramchandra was called to the board to solve a calculus problem that gave the professor a headache, he knew that teaching would be the natural profession for him. And it was, for the most part, but the tutoring sessions wore him out. These days before falling asleep, hed try to ward off nightmares by visualizing pleasant scenes, like a walk by a blue pond, a bountiful garden, cool mountain air. But Malatis voice, saying, "Thats why Im here. Thats why I need help," kept ringing in his ears.

Tonight, his tossing and turning awoke Goma, who asked, "Whats the matter?"

He said maybe hed had too much tea that day.

She turned on the light. "That girl is bothering you. You should think before you speak. Serves you right."

"Im tired," he said. "Its hard enough, teaching full time at that hellhole, and then tutoring these students day and night."

"Still," Goma said, "shes a young girl, and very sensitive. Treat her gently. Think of her as your own daughter."

"And wholl treat me gently?" he asked. "Who can I turn to for comfort?" He took her hand.


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