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Overview
Do you feel like you are here for a higher purpose, a unique soul calling? Are you ready to have the greatest love affair you will ever experience?
In The Adventures of Pinky Fairway, author Zoe Bell shares her soul journey back to her sensual and awakened self. She offers a deeper understanding of her adventures of awakening and gives others permission to open themselves to who they truly are. Filled with rich, raw truths from heart and soul, Bell tells how its time to change the old paradigm of sexual oppression placed upon us by society and step into the souls we came here to be, as we each play an integral part in our sensual and conscious evolution.
Offering a new perspective on your total way of being, TheAdventures of Pinky Fairway elevates your awareness of some deeply held beliefs about body image, sexuality, and beliefs about relationships and sex that are holding you back from shining your inner magnificence.
Product Details
| ISBN-13: | 9781504306560 |
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| Publisher: | Balboa Press AU |
| Publication date: | 03/07/2017 |
| Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 522 |
| File size: | 10 MB |
About the Author
Zoe Bell is an international mindset and empowerment coach, presenter, speaker, writer, Reiki master, and body therapist. Bell divides her time between organizing retreats, teaching The Belle Mind Method, and running her show “Empower the Beautiful You.” She has two children. Visit her online at www.videazine.com.
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CHAPTER 1
My Blueprint for Life
"Suffering is created from resistance to our incarnation"
Ram Dass.
Before I start, I chose to be reincarnated into this body and life so I could heal soul lifetimes of karmic debt and learn valuable life lessons. I am still learning, growing, evolving and I am far from perfect. The lessons were perfect for my growth and inner healing and to unleash the gifts and wisdom. I am lucky to have experienced and worked through so much, so from this transparency you will gain an insight into what I have learnt and most vital, how you can shift. This may be different to your own beliefs, I am not here to change your beliefs, this is my opinion and view on how I see it and at the end of the day the lessons are the same. No matter what our beliefs we are all here learning, growing and evolving.
I have a deep knowing and feeling that I am never coming back and am here to be the guiding light for many. I have been many things, a strong resonance with the fairy realm, plants and nature and I chose this soul path. I have strong resonance with other lifetimes, in a different body and space time reality, the lessons have been the same and finally I believe that I have stopped my personal Karmic merry-go round of suffering.
Before you enter into my story I would like to ask you this, if I may?
[] Do you care what happened to you?
[] Do you feel trapped or tied to your past?
[] Do you connect more with others in a group who share your past story?
[] Do you wear and carry your story around with you?
[] Does your story define you?
There is no right or wrong answer. This will be a barometer to gauge where you are currently at as I take you on a journey into the lessons and insights gained along the way. At the time, the lessons felt painful and harsh; there is a process to being able and ready to see and I am here to give you the tools and life raft, as it is not all calm clear waters and I am far from perfect. The journey never ends!
For many years I wore my heart and story on my sleeve, the bag was heavy and I brought others with me, this has changed, as I am not my story! So have left much out as really it is irrelevant to where I stand now and there are beautiful souls that I wish to protect, as they too journey through life.
My Childhood
Growing up in The United Kingdom; I like many teenagers; struggled with developing a healthy body image and like many young women, thought there was something wrong with me. I felt different. ... I developed the body of a woman young (10 years old) and it took along time to;
"Learn to love the skin and sin I was in and learn that sin was created internally".
People who knew me when I was young, who now see photos of me, do not recognise the woman I am now. I have changed to vibrate happiness from the inside out. Beauty happens from within and starts with our mind and how we see ourselves. Our thoughts impact our D.N.A (Genetic code)- more on this later. I looked like I was having fun, yet on the inside I was lost and the thought, "where do I belong?".
Like a chameleon I took on many different looks, re-creating whom I thought I needed to be every time we moved, in an attempt to fit into who others were being, as I wanted to belong and fit in somewhere! I thought I had to fit in and this was another perfect key to where I now stand, to walk this path alone, my way, and then walk side by side when the right one comes along. My story and life are like chapters in a book, doors now closed never to be opened and like many lives rolled into one, which was a challenge to put in any order as there are blanked out and blacked out spots in my memory, a survival so I didn't go into complete mental and emotional shut down from the trauma. It is beautiful how I now have a way to interweave the stories and experiences into poems, so there is no specific time frame, as many experiences are sensitive and yes these dark aspects of story need to be heard, so others can relate and then be inspired to shift, this is my intention, so you too can find your voice in a constructive manner. Each of our voices needs to be heard, especially if you have had a flavor or powerlessness, hopelessness and worthlessness as part of your journey!
As a teenager and young adult I was like a whirlwind, moving from drama to drama, accident to accident, trauma to trauma, while also achieving much in music and sport. On the inside I felt lost, sad, rebelling against a different belief systems, and like many rebellious teens chose to be an atheist for a few months. I chose to go against the grain, to do anything to not fit it and be diversely different! Later on, my creative and artistic talents were pushed away and replaced with destructive ways to numb out.
Welcome to the "karmic merry-go-round" that keeps spinning round and round, bringing other similar events at accelerated speed, yet dressed up in a different way - You get stuck here until the lesson is learnt.
I knew there was a higher power, something greater than what I was being shown, a higher purpose, so my family and their personal beliefs were the perfect contrast for what I was here to discover. They are beautiful souls and I love them dearly and I also chose my family before coming into this body. I rebelled at the idea of church and I held my parents' belief to wait to have sex until I was married. As a teenager I was rebellious of authority, felt different to the norm and was trying to find my place in the world. I felt drawn to hippies, which is the closest thing to being spiritual and was drawn to Paganism. Looking back it was the freedom, dancing around fires, naked and free and ceremony that appealed to my nature, it was a fantasy away from my reality.
I was curious and sexually inquisitive from a young age and grew up in a household with our Mum and my older sister and our father who was the local General Practitioner. Like many children I was intrigued by the difference between girls and boys.
I loved to dance when we had guests, dancing, doing plays and twirling my body to music. Dancing was a passion and I am a natural performer. Even as a baby, I lived life by my own rules, walking at eight months old. I would apparently swing in and out of the bedroom window over a big drop each morning, which later, much to my mum's horror, found out from their neighbour; I was four years old. My sister taught me how to jump out of my cot and would playfully play a game of, push me down the stairs in the Ali-Babar washing basket, which I would scream with laughter, our parents' were oblivious to this at the time. There was an abundance of highly charged energy, adventure and my mum steered me towards activities to burn off the excess energy so I had opportunities to express safely. I was fearless and ready to take on the world on a big adventure from a very young age. I would swing upside down and around on the washing line and was very much like a cheeky monkey. I was active, happy until I dropped, often being found curled up with our Labrador dog, snuggled up asleep in his bed. Hence, why I still love the smell of wet dogs.
My memory from before six years old is blurry and mostly recollected from pictures. So where did it all start falling apart?
Dad had a three-year affair, living a double life until I was six years old, until the truth came out. I put my dad on a pedestal and looked up to him as my hero. I created an imaginary dream inside my mind of how he would be. I felt disappointment after disappointment and longed for the daddy - daughter relationship. I would push him away and he didn't know how to reach me. We were hurting within and had lost our way to reach one another.
I tasted abandonment and this was to be my karmic journey to finally heal at the age of forty-four years young, I finally broke free and learnt the lesson.
I was being introduced to compassion, forgiveness and had the taste of abandonment within the mind of a child. There was a deep numbing and disconnect from the once free spirited and playful child, my foundations of safety and belonging shattered, like many children in this situation I felt confused, hurt and wanting my parents' to be back together, it was my one wish growing up.
These daddy issues later transferred into my other relationships with men: The hurt of abandonment and rejection started to manifest into deep-rooted anger and resentment.
It was not until three weeks before my dad left his physical body that I forgave him, my dad said sorry, we hugged and we cried together and on that day our souls were set free. I feel blessed that I got to fly from Australia to England to complete this process. My sister never got the opportunity, as she was pregnant and 30 minutes before he passed over, she gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, my beautiful niece and Goddaughter. As one soul departs another soul enters this universal plane, two adventures of new beginnings.
I learnt to forgive.
My Dad was also teaching me to always follow my heart and soul. Until we meet again.
The following Symptoms that will follow will paint a picture of how the illnesses and accidents manifested and were a reflection of my inner world (thoughts, emotions and beliefs) and I came across many years ago while reading the brilliant work of Louise L. Hay and her great book/bible, "You Can Heal Your Life." These will be highlighted. This is an idea of perception and one that resonated with my soul truth, allow it to be what it needs to be for you. There many also be other factors at play to create the symptoms, In life it is never black and white, it an array of many aspects.
As a toddler I had a 60% hearing deficit.
Deafness: What you don't want to hear? "Don't bother me"
The deafness is interesting as I was highly independent and was an explorer and had a mind of my own. I know why I am here and I can walk alone, a powerful creator, as we all are!
My first day of school at 5, I proudly pulled up my dress and innocently showed my bright red knickers to the headmaster, with the "Do you like my new knickers Mr T?", I loved those red knickers a lot. I recall being reminded of this when I went back for work experience 12 years later at 17!
I laughed, "Laughter is a great medicine". Later on we had sparkly Garry Glitter knickers!!
We played strip shows and also had many disco dance off 's to Grease playing in the background and I recall at school jumping up on the tables and dancing to Grease lightening. On the flip-side we were also making go-carts and having street races with the other boys in our street and neighborhood and would get scuffed knees from climbing trees, building dens, swimming in the river with stickle-back fish and coming home with leaches stuck to our body from our adventures in the river and nature. We were active children and I would often be found upside down on our clothes washing line, spinning around. We would often pick flowers for the little old lady who lived opposite us, we would pick flowers form her garden and then go in and see her to visit, she would give us biscuits, a few silver coins so we could but some Bubbly chewing gum and some 2 pence lollies. She welcomed our playful energy and it we loved visiting her. I played the cello from the age of 4 years old, went to Ballet, Gymnastics and we did much art/creativity/dance and drama with our mum, she is the best!
As children we played out what we thought sex sounded and looked this, Action man and a collection of Cindy dolls, she was the super cool doll of the 70's before Barbie came along. No offense Barbie, but Cindy was 10 times better. Yes children play out games. ... The same way that children explore different sensations in their bodies, it is normal and a part of healthy development as we learn through play.
We also made mud pies and ate worms, went on adventures on our pushbikes and there was much creative free play growing up. I am proud to say that I had a chopper, it was purple and had a flag on the back of it, it was so cool. We were loving children who had pet rabbits, guinnie pigs and dogs. We lost many of the animals as they got out of their cages over night and were eaten by the local cat? How we had many burials of them and even a wedding for the guinnie pigs.
My children recently came home and told me how they had the police come to the school and one of the things they addressed was "Inappropriate playing with dolls" amongst a list of other things. It really got my back up, with a WTF internal reaction as I want to know if another adult is making my child feel shame, guilt or blame around a healthy and normal self-exploration in play. I believe many are unaware of the potential negative impact that they can create with this. Making something so normal into an act of shame and wrongdoing will create more of that. It creates the pervert, the peeping tom who has to sneak to look at porn or others, as they feel not worthy and guilt with their desires. Allow children to explore and maybe introduce that there are some things we do in private, with no shame attached! I let it go and discussed it with my children, as at the end of the day, everything else they do is fantastic and awesome.
I shared the story about explorative play with my dolls to my children so they can see it is normal exploration, I always want to have the door open, so any question they ask, I will give an honest, direct and safe explanation, if you lie you are loosing their trust and also respect. Yes there are also some things that you can say, that your personal business, you are not their mate, more a loving guide and go to. It is an important piece of being free to explore through play and not make a big deal out of it. I like to keep it real with them! They are balanced, beautiful children and I want them to feel they can approach me on any topic.
Recreating normal?
Why can't we be one big happy family?
There is no fighting,
So we played a game,
A game to feel normal again,
The man I adored, no longer there,
My mum falling apart,
She gave it her all and Gave us the best.
Rewind back to six years old
I was learning to survive and make sense of the confusion within my mind and by acting it out, I was finding a way to normalise it through play.
I started to masturbate very young, it is hard to remember ... I asked my sister and she said that she would start diddling while in our parents bed at four years old when she was young and they would try to distract her, so there was never any shame around it.
We had fun as kids and most of our life was spent playing outside with the kids in our street and going on adventures. As a family we had two overseas holidays a year, in summer we went to France camping at the beach and in winter to Austria to ski.
I was fiercely independent and one morning at the age of three years old in Austria I took myself off and caught a bus. The adventure took me to the top on the mountain via two chair lifts and once at the top, I started to ski back down. Thankfully a ski-instructor saw this little red skier taking off like a bullet and swooped up and caught me before disappearing off the cliff. I was finally re-united with my very distressed family. At that age I would come home from the Kindergarten ski-school speaking German, children adapt and learn very quickly!
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Table of Contents
Dedication, v,
Foreword, xi,
Introduction, xiii,
Part 1,
Chapter 1 My Blueprint for Life, 3,
Chapter 2 Energetic beings Living a human experience, 107,
Chapter 3 Who are You???, 128,
Chapter 4 An Awakening of Consciousness, 159,
Part 2,
Chapter 5 Sexual energy transmissions, 183,
Chapter 6 A new Paradigm in Consciousness, 197,
Chapter 7 What is Blocking Your Bliss?, 210,
Chapter 8 Soul Freedom from Entrapment, 229,
Part 3,
Chapter 9 Honoring your Divine inner Goddess, 247,
Chapter 10 The Designer Vagina Scandal, 265,
Chapter 11 The NAKED Truth, 295,
Chapter 12 We are Magnetic Beings, 322,
Part 4,
Chapter 13 Mind is Everything, 349,
Chapter 14 Touch for Human Survival, 365,
Chapter 15 High jacked by Comparison, 386,
Chapter 16 The Sacred YONI, 404,
Part 5,
Chapter 17 The Power of Words, 417,
Chapter 18 The Pyramid Principles for Wellbeing of Spirit, 429,
Chapter 19 Secret desires between Men and Women, 457,
Chapter 20 CONCLUSION, 473,
Resources, 489,
Glossary, 491,
Acknowledgements, 493,
About the Author, 497,
Sales Page, 499,