Someone Else's Country

by Peter Docker

Overview

In this fearless, funny, and profoundly moving Australian story, a small boy on a remote cattle station begins a profound journey into an Australia few whitefellas know. It is a journey into another place—a genuine meeting ground for black and white Australia and a place built on deep personal engagement and understanding.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781921696756
Publisher:	Fremantle Press
Publication date:	03/01/2009
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	416
File size:	748 KB

About the Author

Peter Docker has worked as a dairy-hand, hay carter, wheat-bogger, window-washer, bank teller, lift driver, and barman. He has written short stories published in Australian literary journals as well as for stage and radio.

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Someone Else's Country

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By Peter Docker

Fremantle Press

Copyright © 2005 Peter Docker
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-921696-75-6

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CHAPTER 1

Singing Country

Sitting on the balcony of a fourth-storey apartment in Toorak Road, Melbourne. Wurundjeri Country, south of Woiwurung Country, just north-west of Boonwurrung Country. To be honest, I'm not sure how I got here.

Uncle James the Cowboy is talking to me. Sometimes he hits his clap-sticks together to emphasise a point. Hits his sticks in time with his heartbeat. Speaking to me in English to begin with. The hair on my arms and the back of my neck stands up when I realise he's slipped from English to Kriol, and now to Language. And I'm still sitting with my head down, eyes lowered, nodding my understanding.

Aawu. Aawu (Yes).

I get a cold feeling in the pit of my stomach when I realise that his lips are no longer moving and his voice is still in my head. Deep in my head.

I look to Ned. He smiles knowingly. Looks away.

I don't look into Uncle's eyes. Partly out of respect. Partly common sense. Partly fear.

They've been sitting on the balcony for a long time now — Uncle and Ned — talking, singing, clap- sticks going.

The voice in my head has stopped.

Uncle needs a cigarette. As I go inside to get it Uncle starts up a new song.

You know what he's doing? the Rat says.

I shake my head.

He's singing his Country.

He's what?

I'm not sure if I speak this question or just think it.

He's singing his Country closer.

I look at the Rat as though I suddenly don't understand English. I look out of the window to see the city crowding in. The lights, the noises, seem to blur for a moment. Like they're not really there. An illusion. Where are we really? We're in a land where an old Arrernte man can sing his Country. Can make his beloved desert move closer to him by singing. Time doesn't exist. Distance doesn't exist. Songs exist. Uncle starts up high and spirals down vocally. Repeating his sacred Dreaming word over and over. It buzzes like a bullroarer in his head. The building vibrates with the song. The very air around us hums and crackles.

But Uncle had disrespected Mum earlier on in the evening. Or it seemed that way, anyway. I didn't witness the incident. Uncle had asked Mum to sit on his knee, or something like that. So there is tension. Tension all around. Even for me. My first thought is, disrespect Mum and there's gunna be real trouble, no matter who the fuck you are!

But I wait for a sign from Mum. She can take care of herself. This is a Gunditjmara matriarch from a matrilineal coastal people. Fierce warrior people who bore the brunt of the Invasion. Never stopped fighting. Never will. A woman who can stand back-to-back with her son in a country pub, smacking rednecks down. A woman who can take on multibillion-dollar mining companies and send them packing with their tails between their legs.

Tension. Especially for the Rat. This is his place. Ned and Uncle James are Countrymen. Ned is Pitjantjatjara. The Rat is Arrernte. All desert men. Ned and Uncle James are Lawmen and the Rat hasn't been through Law.

He's had Ned at his place for a week or so now. Feeding him. Nyandi. Beer.

The Rat is stuck in the middle. Caught between the two worlds.

The Lawmen call him to the balcony and shut the glass door behind him. They drill him. His head is down. He goes to look up. Uncle hits him on the top of the head. A swift sharp blow. The Rat looks down. Has to. This is Old Way. Desert way. Not a Man yet. In Uncle's eyes.

Mum isn't happy about this. She knows the Rat has come up from the dirty streets of a red-dust desert town, Nbandwe (Alice Springs). He supports his brothers and sister and mother with his wages. Always has. Never had a childhood. Had to be the man for his family. The Rat is a warrior who has stood up his whole life — fighting The War of attitude, sometimes the fist war, for his mob. The Rat is a real man.

So the Rat tried to calm Mum down.

Mum is not my blood mum. She is Spirit Mum. Skin Mum. She's Henry's mum and Henry is my djaambi (brother). So my mum too. Has played my mum in a movie. In real life. I am honoured to call her Mum. Once, I mistakenly called her Auntie, but she quickly corrected me.

She's been there when I've needed her.

Ned is dancing now. Uncle James is playing slow sticks and singing. I see the firelight jumping and flickering in Ned's eyes. My mind tells me there is no fire. I've learnt not to rely on my mind. The mind can lie. I can't tear my eyes away from Ned.

Then Mum is telling Ned I am a good one. They share this look of deep openness.

When Ned speaks his voice is light but strong like his touch.

I look into his eyes — I see him. Not his skin, err ... colour.

Mum listens. Patiently waiting in case Ned has something more to say. It'd be years before I'd realise how important the silences are. How much is said with them.

I am honoured but shamed to overhear this, even though I had to be expecting it.

Earlier in the night I had stood with Little Big Man's woman. Little Big Man was close by, that tight bundle of Wiradjuri energy. I was telling her she had a good man. Made a big show of praising him up. She smiled her love to him. He to her and me. A family look. A brother to a brother, standing with his woman.

I'm away from my family. I feel homesick.

Uncle James tells me I am his nephew now. He hugs my head to his chest. He sings a song to confirm my nephewdom. Ned hugs me.

I keep the cigarettes and VBs coming when they want them.

I've lost track of time. I've lost track of me.

Ned tells me he is my brother.

You got grey in your beard? Ned asks me suddenly. How old are you? You got grey? Is your grandfather older than my grandfather?

My grandfather was born in 1896, I offer.

Ned nods sagely to himself. His big woolly Pitjantjatjara head computing my status.

Elder brother, he says, so quietly that a whisper would be a scream. I nod.

Aawu.

The Rat will always be my brother too. I sit next to my mum. I'm surrounded by family and definitions of family that I never expected but now must accept. I must accept them because they resonate deep within me, all around me, like Uncle's song. The other men are outside now.

Mum begins to speak. I listen.

The Nothingness. Mum talks about the vast Nothingness.

Culture and family are endless.

Individuals are Nothing. Feelings are Nothing. In the Nothing there is endless sadness and endless joy. Nothing.

Bigger than anything we could ever express. In any language.

Mum is annoyed with the Lawmen, at their treatment of the Rat. She is the only person here they don't outrank in Culture way. Seniority way. Any way. We are all grateful for her presence. Her balance. Even the Rat, caught in the middle. Mum doesn't think what they're doing to the Rat — pulling rank — is appropriate.

It's bigger than that, Mum says into the fire. Bigger than that.

But the Rat knows he has to go home. Any disrespect to Uncle will cost him dearly in his own Country.

Bigger than that, Mum repeats.

The bush sings around us. The fire crackles. We are so completely insignificant. Nothing. The tenuous grasp I thought I had on Culture is gone. Into nothing.

Behind us Cheree seems upset. Seeing her man in this situation is new to her too. She is a Murri from Cherbourg way, up there in Waka Waka Country in Queensland. Different Culture again. For Europeans, it'd be like comparing Sicilian Culture to Norwegian Culture. All Europeans — but completely different.

The Rat is with the men. I'm called to be with them. Even though Mum doesn't like it, I get up to go to the balcony. I got responsibilities too. I kiss Mum. It's not just Uncle. It's the Rat.

There are many ways to become a Man, I think.

Many rituals. Many ceremonies. Many paths. Nothing.

Uncle is different now from the shy old man bird I met hours earlier, shielding his power and playing Jacky Jacky. I was in the laneway outside the theatre. Uncle was introduced to a young gubbah next to me. The young gub squares off, squeezes Uncle's hand hard and looks him in the eye.

G'day, Mate.

Uncle looks off into the distance to hide his power. Big smile on his face, he goes into his cowboy-rave.

I'm Cowboy James. Me, I'm stockman. Drover. I bin riding bulls all over. I bin top boss cowboy, me.

Cowboy James reminds me of Bart Billon. Bart is Wangkathaa man. A stockman. A rainmaker. I wasn't even going to school the last time I saw Bart.

It's my turn. I drop my head and offer my hand. Just put it there. Cowboy James reaches out and his pink palm barely touches mine. His skin feels cool. When I speak my voice is quiet, just for him.

Hello, Uncle, I whisper.

Uncle flashes me a look I feel to my boots but I don't dare look up.

My boy, Uncle whispers back, and touches me on the upper arm with hardened old fingertips.

Now, hours later on this balcony, Uncle is strong. A rock. A tree. A lizard. Clap-sticks beat out his heart. He looks bigger. Older. Country must be getting closer. We talk for a long while, in the quiet way of the bush. The quiet way of family.

And then I must go. My own family pulling on a string attached to my lower belly from across the Nullarbor. I came over for this work. For my brothers. My sisters. Uncles. Aunties. Nephews. Nieces. Mum. Came to fight The War of attitude.

I drag my six huge pieces of luggage down the stairs. I go across the road to the taxi rank. I have kissed and hugged everyone. The Rat comes down to make sure I'm alright. Mum's words are all around me. Fuelling me. My feelings are Nothing. My doubt is Nothing. Uncle's parting ghost of a grip still feels like it has me. His cool strong hands. Ned's eyes with the firelight still dancing in them. Mum. Sister Cheree. These are my family too.

Kele mwerre anthurre (Go really good way), the Rat says.

Kele mwerre anthurre, I say back.

I'm gone. In the cab to the airport the Rat rings me twice. My brother. And I'm getting out. It's cold. The luggage is hard to manoeuvre. The line is long, my brain is tired. These things are Nothing. I get checked in. I stand out in front of the terminal and smoke a huge joint. Past caring. Caring is nothing. And suddenly I'm dozing on a plane.

Henry, my djaambi, has described his Gunditjmara coastline for me many times. As we cross the southern coast to leave Victoria, I'm looking out the window, looking out for his sacred Country. Then I see it swim into view, the bay, the three-pronged headland, like some marsupial crouched on the coastline. I watch it until it slides away, under the belly of the plane. I keep this close to my heart.

And I always look out for Wudjari Country when we cross the coast back over Western Australia. Where I grew up on Lort River Station at Coomalbidgup. Where I learned to love my Country. East of Munglinup, west of Dalyup. All Nyungar names. All Nyungar Country.

I can pick Yonda Quagi from the air, the beach closest to Red Island. The last island close to the shoreline on the western end of the Recherche Archipelago. I doze.

And then I'm sat up in my seat as though slapped — Uncle's song is in my ears. In my head. It's like he's sitting in the seat next to me, the sticks and song making the whole plane vibrate. I look around. No-one else seems to hear it. Uncle singing me home. I am Nothing. I doze off.

CHAPTER 2

Look at me when I'm talking to you

How did I get there? On that balcony in Toorak Road? To explain that, I've gotta go back. Way back.

I'm an unemployed actor. Living in St Kilda. Boonwurrung Country. Finished a job a couple of months ago. I heard about this play set in the travelling boxing tents, written by this Arrernte fulla, Uncle Kumanjai Dempster. (Kumanjai means Spirit, used for people who've passed away. Some mobs say Pringhael. Same thing.)

I'd done some boxing training with Brett, this tough gubbah fulla on the periphery of the Melbourne acting world. Sparred a few times in Kelly's Gym. But I rarely shone in the ring.

I auditioned for the director by shadow-boxing in my singlet. Every boy spends a lot of time shadow-boxing. I was terrible. But got the job. Pointy nose. Pale skin. Thin top lip. Tough-guy eyes. I can do that.

A week later, I'm walking into the Fitzroy All-Stars Gym to meet Robby.

By then I'd also done a few training sessions there, with Old Don. Old Don had fought Uncle Kumanjai Dempster's father. Old Don lost the fight and an eye. Had to have it replaced with a glass eye after the fight. Old Don grew up in South Africa. Could only do one thing well in his life. Fight. Box.

An artist with the gloves. Obi-Wan Kenobi with a shrill nasally voice. Old Don gets me to move my feet. To drill it. To get power in my punches. To jab like a bastard. Keep him off me and hurt him every time he gets close.

So I walk into the gym and there are two Koori lads sitting there. My hair is shoulder length. Robby's head is shaved. A shining cannonball.

He doesn't get up to greet me. I sit. We shake hands flat gub way. We're both pretty tentative.

G'day.

G'day.

Stephen Motor.

Robby Clarke.

Hey, Robby.

Hey, Pete.

Steve.

... Yeah, Steve.

I'm aware of Robby's physique. Chest, arms, shoulders pushing at the sweatshirt material. Eyes bright. Pumped and ripped as a bastard. A Yorta Yorta warrior. I'm happy for my training. The skip-rope rhythm pounding through my head. Robby is in the Olympic squad. A hurdler. I still hold the record at my high school for 110-yard hurdles: 13.8 seconds. Robby and I understand each other.

So we're rehearsing. A play about the old-time boxing tents. The play is set in and around the violence that the Koori men generate inside the ring for the entertainment of the crowd.

But, the real violence is psychological and spiritual and is acted upon the Koori men outside the ring. Even the successful Australian lightweight champion wasn't allowed to keep his earnings — under this Act passed by parliament, it all goes into a government account and is then doled out a bit at a time. It's an old story. Two hundred years old in this country. Control everything. That's the government position. Give them fuck all.

(Continues...)

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Table of Contents

Contents

Someone else's Country,
Singing Country,
Look at me when I'm talking to you,
Tap! Tap! Ow!,
My loud mouth and tight moom,
All we've thought about,
You know how to talk to them,
Owl Dreaming and goin to the fucken pub,
Would you mind keeping it down?,
Lunch with Uncle,
Wars ya can't win,
War and peace,
Here is the situation,
Baba Du,
My good-luck boy,
You're right, Uncle,
Take us to Baba Du,
Dooligahs in Paradise,
You alright, my brother?,
Someone else's Country,
Ding! Come out fighting!,
Got it from cunts like you,
What you do,
Car's on fire,
Cuppa tea at my place,
The head of security,
St Kilda gubbahs,
Fairhaven footballers,
I've got your number,
Watch out for the landlords,
Half a cup,
Make a list,
The art of making yourself invisible,
Fly like a fucken eagle,
Two dead men,
Blood alcohol. 1788,
Nunga John Wayne and something not right,
Cups of tea or flagons,
Crow feathers,
Wurrung (Warkee) (Waa) — the Crow,
Hiding from the killers,
Grog is the enemy,
Desert herbs and Dream Language,
Your jeans and the sunset,
Muriel-or-something,
Between the men,
Last night in Stolen Hill,
Our sad, lonely laughs,
Sacred Site,
Ya weren't doin it for me,
The only gub in the photo,
Two teams,
This champagne bottle is a rifle,
Had it all the time,
Soon it seems we must be ready,
They know how to treat their war veterans,
Moorroop blessing,
Favourite game,
Don't blink or you'll miss it,
Gum leaves, trains and crying babies,
Dad's story: Sunny in the dust,
He's your mate,
Planting seeds,
Waking dream in Uncle's eye,
Hair and Land and fucken bruising,
The ammo dump is on fire,
Outside the wire,
Holding on too tight,
Didjeridu,
Fucken hell! Did you see that?,
Exorcisms in English,
Learning the six-times-table,
Members only,
Easy to kill a man,
Can't get a house because of native title,
Yupella prom Tanning?,
There's Nyungars around,
Hockshops and a banana's worth of speed,
We should never have given them citizenship,
Nar! We're prom K'rata!,
The first family to arrive,
Double-edged swords,
Spirits can smell ya,
Smell them Nyungars,
Fitzroy Street Wanjina,
Just another fucken wadjula sticking his beak in,
What I might do,
Go really good way,
And every night — singalong party,
Looked after by family,
Touching sorry scars,
Scars on the gravel footy oval,
Suck out the hate,
The winter (things hidden in my heart),
What the People first saw,
What we first saw,
Bundi-sticks and tears on the freeway,
Naming names,
Finish-up,
Don't ever drink with them,
I can't say no,
The loop,
After all these years,
Adult conversations,
On the couch with Family,
Right where Jesus got the nail,
The Bro,
Welcome to Country,
In the system,
The same conversation my whole life,
As Aussie as you are,
Blind leading the blind,
Greater love hath no man ...,
Acknowledgements,