Table of Contents
My First Altar 1
When giving birth 4
For My Mother 5
Reno, Nevada 6
Medford, Oregon 7
Senor Frogs 8
Strength 9
Single Mothers Can Yell Wherever They Want 10
B on Elm Street Behind the Fairgrounds, 1999 11
Broken Sonnet for the Closeness of Grooming 12
10 Candles 13
Aunt Diana Opens the Trunk of Her Pathfinder and She Cannot Stop Crying as All the Presents for the Homeless Kids Fall Out 14
The Gutter 15
Girlhood (noun) 16
With Vigor 17
Pine Street, Taser 18
The Small, Breakable Nature of Gods 20
Child Protective Services Takes B and All His Siblings on a Tuesday Afternoon 21
Knots 22
Origin Story 25
Everything to Call Him Before Rapist 27
Be Mine 29
In State Prison, No One Keeps Their Underwires 30
Pleasant Valley State Prison with Inmate Number F-49837 31
A Bluejay Flies into the Mental Hospital 32
Sink 34
Grief Vignettes for Aunt Diana 36
Written 5 Years after Your Body Was Found 39
13 Ways of Looking at a Rapist 42
Thighs Say 44
Salties 46
It Took My Mother 3 Days to Give Birth to Me 47
Nine 48
Joliet Street 49
One Side of an Ongoing Dialogue with Sharon, My Therapist 50
I tell you my heart is like on avocado seed 52
The Funny Wind of the Heart Is Not a Reliable Weathervane 53
The Autumn I Found Out You Were Dead 54
Jemez Springs, New Mexico 55
I Break Like a Fever 56
The Best Way I Can Tell You about the Resiliency of Tenderness Is with a Portrait of the Pitbull I Share My Bed With 58
Talk // Talk // Talk 59
Where Did You Get that Pick-Up Line? You Should Drop It Back Off 61
Sum of Her Parts 63
A Man Says to a Woman I Love, If I Caught You in Bed with Someone Else, I'd Shoot You Both 65
For Keepsies with B 66
Your Doctor Says Dementia 68
At Last 69
Grief Vignettes for Kaiya 70
Of All the Muscles 72
A Series of Portraits More Intimate Than Sex 73
You Became in a Town No One Has Ever Heard Of 74
Ode to My Strap-On Dildo and Ode for My Love on His Hands and Knees in Front of Me 75
All the Plus-Size Models in the Magazines Are Actually Regular Size 76
I Forgive You 79