Scarred: The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult that Bound My Life

Scarred: The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult that Bound My Life

Scarred: The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult that Bound My Life

Scarred: The True Story of How I Escaped NXIVM, the Cult that Bound My Life

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Overview

As seen in the HBO docuseries THE VOW: The shocking and subversive memoir of a 12-year-NXIVM-member-turned-whistleblower, and her inspiring true story of abuse, escape, and redemption.

"'Master, would you brand me? It would be an honor.'
From the second I climb onto the table, acutely aware that I am lying in the sweat of my sisters, I will have blocked that out. Lying there completely naked, I am at my most vulnerable but determined to prove my strength. I try to keep my legs closed as my body wills itself to protect my most private area. . . . I tell myself: I am a warrior. I birthed a human. I can handle pain. But nothing could have ever prepared me for the feel of this fire on my skin."

Scarred is Sarah Edmondson's compelling memoir of her recruitment into the NXIVM cult, the 12 years she spent within the organization (during which she enrolled over 2,000 members and entered DOS—NXIVM's "secret sisterhood"), her breaking point, and her harrowing fight to get out, to expose Keith Raniere and the leadership, to help others, and to heal. Complete with personal photographs, Scarred is also an eye-opening story about abuses of power, female trust and friendship, and how sometimes the search to be "better" can override everything else.

• In the tradition of Unorthodox by Deborah Feldman, Escape by Carolyn Jessop, and Troublemaker by Leah Remini
• This tell-all follows Sarah from the moment she takes her first NXIVM seminar, to the invitation she accepts from her best friend, Lauren Salzman, into DOS, to her journey toward become a key witness in the federal case against its founders
• Evokes questions about friendship, ethics, good and evil, making it a brilliant selection for book clubs

Audio edition read by the author.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781797201467
Publisher: Chronicle Books LLC
Publication date: 09/17/2019
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: eBook
Pages: 264
Sales rank: 156,162
File size: 663 KB

About the Author

Sarah Edmondson is an actress and voice-over artist. She is featured in the CBC investigative podcast Uncover: Escaping NXIVM and The Vow, the HBO documentary series on NXIVM.
Kristine Gasbarre is the author of the memoir How to Love an American Man, as well as the co-writer of the #1 New York Times bestselling Etched in Sand by Regina Calcaterra. Her work has been featured in such media outlets as People, Glamour, and the Oprah Winfrey Network.

Table of Contents

The Scar 1

Prologue: The Initiation 3

The Women 19

Part 1 Ethical Value Exchange (2005-2009)

Base Assumption 29

Integration 37

Inner Deficiency 57

Master Teacher 71

The Lift 77

Part 2 The Golden Years (2009-2012)

Persistency 97

Effort Strategies 117

Flip 123

Obedience 129

Part 3 Blowing It Up (2013-2017)

Shared Values 139

Rainbow Child 147

Illusion of Hope 157

Nondisclosure 179

Breach Form 195

Freedom 205

Healing 217

Acknowledgments 223

About the Author 227

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