My Dearest Darkest

by Kayla Cottingham

Overview

*Bustle Best Book of March 2022

*Buzzfeed Highly Anticipated YA Novel

*Lambda Literary Most Anticipated LGBTQIA+

*BookRiot Best New Dark Academia YA Book

Wilder Girls meets The Craft in this Sapphic horror debut that asks: what price would you be willing to pay to achieve your deepest desires?

Finch Chamberlin is the newest transfer student to the ultra-competitive Ulalume Academy... but she's also not what she seems. Months before school started, Finch and her parents got into an accident that should have left her dead at the bottom of the river. But something monstrous, and ancient, and terrifying, wouldn't let her drown. Finch doesn't know why she woke up after her heart stopped, but since dying she's felt a constant pull from the school and the surrounding town of Rainwater, like something on the island is calling to her.

Selena St. Clair sees right through Finch, and she knows something is seriously wrong with her. But despite Selena's suspicion, she feels drawn to Finch and has a sinking feeling that from now on the two will be inexplicably linked to one another.

One night Finch, Selena, and her friends accidentally summon a carnivorous creature of immense power in the depths of the school. It promises to grant every desire the girls have kept locked away in their insecure hearts—beauty, power, adoration—in exchange for a price: human body parts. But as the cost of their wanting becomes more deadly, Finch and Selena must learn to work together to stop the horror they unleashed, before it consumes the entire island.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781728236414
Publisher:	Sourcebooks
Publication date:	03/29/2022
Pages:	368
Sales rank:	122,895
Product dimensions:	5.50(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.20(d)
Age Range:	14 - 18 Years

About the Author

Kayla Cottingham is a YA author and librarian. Her first book, My Dearest Darkest, was a New York Times and Publisher's Weekly bestseller. Originally from Salt Lake City, Utah, Kayla lives in Boston where she loves to go hiking in the woods, play RPGs, and snuggle on the couch with her ridiculously large black cat, Squid.

Editorial Reviews

04/18/2022

Evil lurks in the tunnels beneath a small-town Maine prep school in Cottingham’s haunting sapphic horror debut. When white Finch Chamberlin, along with her parents, dies after their car mysteriously plunges off a bridge while departing prestigious Ulalume Academy, the monster lurking there brings Finch alone back from the dead. Three months later, Finch attends the academy and lives with London-born Arab roommate Sumera Nazir. Eager to make friends, Finch attends a party in the haunted tunnels, where the image of an eight-eyed stag leads her and an eclectic group of girls, including beautiful, popular Selena St. Clair, to a creature, Nerosi. When the teens accidentally summon Nerosi into their reality from a void-like dimension, the entity offers to grant their deepest desires—for a price. Cottingham’s narrative fluidly blends Finch’s struggle navigating her own sexuality and her intensifying feelings for Selena, the girls’ grandiose wants and wishes, and the creature’s sinister hold on their town into a spine-tingling thrill ride that calls on classic prep school dynamics and eerie gothic imagery. Ages 14–up. Agent Erica Bauman, Aevitas Creative Management. (Mar.)

Publishers Weekly

"Cottingham’s debut opens with a gut-wrenching first chapter and doesn’t let up, juxtaposing vivid and unsettling horror with Sapphic teenage angst" — Kirkus

"Fans of cult-classic film Jennifer’s Body and similar scary tropes will revel in Cottingham’s atmospheric, spine-tingling horror-romance" — Booklist

"A sweet, queer romance makes this a good option for genre lovers in search of more diverse characters" — Youth Services Book Review

"Cottingham succeeds in crafting a truly inventive, gruesome horror story that fans of blood and gore will relish" — School Library Journal

"[A] call back to '90s teen horror movies a la The Craft and The Faculty" — Bulletin of the Center for Children's Books

"The tenacity of youth, love, and friendship go to war with the horrors that create nightmares and it really is uncertain who will end up the winner" — Missouri River Regional Library

"A spine-tingling thrill ride that calls on classic prep school dynamics and eerie gothic imagery" — Publishers Weekly

From the Publisher

02/01/2022

Gr 9 Up—Teen music prodigy Finch is the sole survivor of a brutal car accident that drowned both of her parents and left her with a shock of white hair and lingering questions about how she survived. Now attending the prestigious Ulalume Academy, Finch is haunted by ominous portents: shimmering pockets of air, sightings of an eight-eyed stag, and an insistent pull coming from the sewer tunnels near the school. Finch eventually forms a friendship with her roommate, Sumera, and a prickly connection to quintessential mean girl Selena St. Clair that deepens into an attraction. During a tunnel party one night, Finch, Selena, and Selena's cadre of popular friends accidentally free Nerosi, a translucent spirit who initially grants them wishes and seems benevolent, but quickly turns sinister and cannibalistic. As Finch and Selena uncover more disturbing information about Nerosi's origins and ultimate plans, they realize that they will need to band together to stop her. Although the dialogue in the first few chapters feels choppy and stereotypical (particularly for Selena), this resolves as Selena's characterization deepens, and Cottingham succeeds in crafting a truly inventive, gruesome horror story that fans of blood and gore will relish. The romance is also sure to be a selling point. Finch grapples with her growing attraction to Selena and her own internalized homophobia, but her conflict is portrayed realistically and ends in a positive, affirming way. Finch and Selena are white, while one of Selena's friends is described as Asian and Sumera, who is an Arab raised in England, wears a hijab. VERDICT A first purchase where strong, bloody horror is in demand. Recommended for fans of Katrina Leno.—Catherine Cote

School Library Journal

2022-01-11
A group of teens faces supernatural evil at an elite boarding school.

This debut novel introduces readers to the isolated town of Rainwater and its main attraction—Ulalume Academy, a prestigious prep school with an arts focus that pianist Finch Chamberlin wants to attend more than anything. But on the way back from her final audition, Finch gets into a car crash that kills her parents and leaves her with an array of medical conditions. Three months later, she’s a Ulalume student but still suffers serious aftereffects from the accident. She’s in the same year as Selena St. Clair, the leader of an exclusive clique on campus and a girl who is already out to get Finch after an earlier misunderstanding. However, when Finch and Selena are paired for a crucial performance project, they must come to terms with the burgeoning feelings that arise between them. When Finch, Selena, and the popular girls stumble upon a mysterious and alluring power in the tunnels beneath Ulalume, they discover a source of supernatural favors that may not be what it at first seems. Cottingham’s debut opens with a gut-wrenching first chapter and doesn’t let up, juxtaposing vivid and unsettling horror with Sapphic teenage angst. Finch and Selena are White; side characters possess an array of diverse ethnic identities.

Blood, gore, and drama make for a spooky success. (Horror. 14-18)

Kirkus Reviews