"I left the courthouse with a strange feeling. More precisely, I could not understand what I actually experienced: relief or vice versa, the feeling of the biggest defeat in my life. Yes, on the one hand, what I have been wishing for for at least the last year has come true, but in fact, much longer. On the other hand, I could not get rid of the thought that everything that I had lived until now collapsed like a poorly built bridge. I never imagined that my marriage with Marina would end so sadly, with such a bitter confrontation that arose between us. Until now, I still don't fully understand where it all came from, how it was formed. After all, in the beginning there was great love, and a strong bodily passion, we could not tear ourselves away from each other day or night. In fact, I didn't need anyone except her, she replaced for me, if not the whole world, then certainly a significant, and most importantly, the best part of it. I left for work with the thought of how to return home to her as soon as possible. This was a real, incomparable happiness - to be next to his wife. We seemed to be thinking in unison, wishing in unison, and even breathing in unison. It was the same inseparable unity of opposites that we were taught about at school ... "
