Table of Contents
Introduction VI
Part 1 Beheld
Week 1 My Worth as a Child 3
Week 2 Choosing Forgiveness 7
Week 3 Setting Aside Peer Expectations 11
Week 4 Breakup and Damaged Hearts 15
Week 5 The Fruits of My Failure 19
Week 6 Expectations of the Family Label 23
Week 7 Invisible Unmet Expectations 27
Week 8 Trust in Unforced Love 31
Week 9 Defined by Our Successes 35
Week 10 Desperate for Community 39
Week 11 Let in the Lord's Love 43
Part 2 Belong
Week 12 Discounted Love in the Darkness 49
Week 13 The Battle for My Body 53
Week 14 Crossing the Line and Crossing Back 57
Week 15 The Surprise Seedling of a Friendship 61
Week 16 Seeking Family, Finding God 65
Week 17 Freedom from Social Boxing 69
Week 18 The Unknowns of Our Fertility Journey 73
Week 19 Choosing Dignity over the Job 77
Week 20 An Army of Support 81
Week 21 Soak in the Stars 85
Part 3 Beloved
Week 22 Longing for Normalcy 91
Week 23 False Perfection 95
Week 24 Her Birth Breaking and Healing Us 99
Week 25 Living in Restoration 103
Week 26 Legacy of Faith 107
Week 27 My Time of Vulnerable Need 111
Week 28 Growing Our Family in Peace 115
Week 29 The Messy Hearth of My Home 119
Week 30 The Blended Tones of Our Prayer 123
Week 31 Leading Me to Mary's Son 127
Part 4 Believing
Week 32 Jesus There All Along 133
Week 33 Choices Beyond My Regrets 137
Week 34 Leading Like the Lord 141
Week 35 Setting Myself by His Standards 145
Week 36 Reignited Fire in the Spirit 149
Week 37 From Friend to Sister 153
Week 38 My Advocate for Grace 157
Week 39 Loving Beyond Slander 161
Week 40 Retreat for Nourishment 165
Week 41 Deep into Union 169
Part 5 Becoming
Week 42 Honored by My Mother 175
Week 43 Fumbling Adventures 179
Week 44 A Space of My Own 183
Week 45 My Father's Confidence 187
Week 46 A Legacy of Bitterness 191
Week 47 Holding Sacred Space 195
Week 48 Looking Past the Toads 199
Week 49 Pricked by Conscience 203
Week 50 Healing Even in Darkness 207
Week 51 A More Abundant Life 211
Week 52 Made New 215
