In Search of Us

by Ava Dellaira

Overview

Ava Dellaira's In Search of Us is a sweeping multi-generational love story.

To seventeen-year-old Angie, who is mixed-race, Marilyn is her hardworking, devoted white single mother. But Marilyn was once young, too.

When Marilyn was seventeen, she fell in love with Angie's father, James, who was African-American. But Angie's never met him, and Marilyn has always told her he died before she was born. When Angie discovers evidence of an uncle she's never met she starts to wonder: What if her dad is still alive, too?

So she sets off on a journey to find him, hitching a ride to LA from her home in New Mexico with her ex-boyfriend, Sam. Along the way, she uncovers some hard truths about herself, her mother, and what truly happened to her father.

"A rare and special book. Part mother-daughter love story, part road trip journey, part compelling mystery, and one hundred percent beautiful, spellbinding tearjerker. I’m in love with every page." —Jennifer Niven, New York Times bestselling author of All the Bright Places and Holding Up the Universe

"A masterful work of fiction. Exploring race and mother and daughter relationships, this novel is also one of the most tender and authentic takes on first love that I have ever read." —Jennifer Mathieu, author of Moxie

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781250294616
Publisher:	Square Fish
Publication date:	04/21/2020
Edition description:	Reprint
Pages:	416
Sales rank:	671,758
Product dimensions:	5.30(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.20(d)
Age Range:	12 - 18 Years

About the Author

Ava Dellaira is the author of Love Letters to the Dead, which was sold in 24 foreign territories and has been optioned for film. She is a graduate of the Iowa Writers' Workshop, where she was a Truman Capote Fellow. She grew up in Albuquerque, New Mexico, and received her undergraduate degree from the University of Chicago. She is an associate producer of Stephen Chbosky's feature film adaptation of his bestselling novel The Perks of Being a Wallflower. She currently lives in Santa Monica.

Editorial Reviews

"Dellaira’s debut novel, Love Letters to the Dead, was good; her second, which tells two connected tales set 18 years apart, is spectacular. Readers will be left sobbing, both for the characters they’ve come to love and for the state of the country—Dellaira draws on persistent racial divides to craft an ending that is surprising yet inevitable, heartbreaking, and hopeful." —Publishers Weekly starred review

"A coming-of-age novel about all kinds of love, this is a realistic look into how teens’ lives intertwine with their parents’ pasts. Readers who enjoyed Dellaira’s Love Letters to the Dead or Emery Lord’s When We Collided will fall in love with this title."—School Library Journal

"...[A] compelling intergenerational tale. Achingly vibrant." —Kirkus

"Both stories are engaging, packed with cultural references from their respective periods. But the most poignant aspect of the story is Angie’s need to connect with the African American side of her family... this novel offers a thoughtful examination of racial identity."—Booklist

"Through both stories, Dellaira explores the complexities of relationships, particularly between mothers and daughters, while also examining racial identity. She successfully uses photography as a metaphor to demonstrate how people can view the same subjects from many different perspectives. Beautiful prose makes this novel perfect for readers who appreciate layered meaning and vivid, original imagery."—VOYA

"Dellaira breathes her characters into vivid life, Marilyn with her yearning and her loneliness, James with his dreams. ... The parallel stories of Marilyn and James and Angie and Sam are skillfully woven together, the suspense building as Angie moves toward uncovering the secret Marilyn has kept all these years. The heart-rending tragedy at the center of the novel is revealed only toward the end - a life-changing moment frozen in amber, with a haunting and terrible resonance for readers in the year 2018." - The Buffalo News

From the Publisher

★ 01/15/2018
Dellaira’s debut novel, Love Letters to the Dead, was good; her second, which tells two connected tales set 18 years apart, is spectacular. First comes the story of 17-year-old Marilyn, whose mother is so committed to her daughter’s future stardom that she moves them into a tiny Los Angeles apartment with Marilyn’s unwelcoming, alcoholic uncle. But Marilyn’s vision of her future involves going to college, taking photos, and making a life with her smart and handsome new neighbor, James. Next comes the present-day story of Marilyn’s biracial daughter, Angie, also 17, who wonders about the father she never met. Did he really die in a car crash? Does she have relatives who look like her? Will knowing her past help her find her way forward? Past and present collide when Angie runs away from Albuquerque to L.A. to find the man she thinks may be her uncle. Readers will be left sobbing, both for the characters they’ve come to love and for the state of the country—Dellaira draws on persistent racial divides to craft an ending that is surprising yet inevitable, heartbreaking, and hopeful. Ages 12–up. Agent: Richard Florest, Rob Weisbach Creative Management. (Mar.)

Publishers Weekly

02/01/2018
Gr 9 Up—A coming-of-age novel about all kinds of love, this is a realistic look into how teens' lives intertwine with their parents' pasts. The initial time line begins with Angie, a 17-year-old daughter of a single mother, leaving home to find answers about her past. Angie is searching for the truth about her father and his family, whom she never knew. The second narrative follows Marilyn, Angie's mother at 17. Marilyn is working through obstacles in her life that center around her unhinged family life and newfound love, James. Dellaira uses the two parallel threads to explore what it would be like for a young woman to know her mother's story and realize how it is also her own. Readers will be drawn into Marilyn's tale and keep wondering until the very end how Angie fits in. Some sexual situations are present but are not explicit. Readers who enjoyed Dellaira's Love Letters to the Dead or Emery Lord's When We Collided will fall in love with this title. VERDICT A must for collections where the author's previous work is popular and where realistic love stories circulate well.—Elizabeth Pelayo, St. Charles East High School, IL

School Library Journal

Narrator Adenrele Ojo guides listeners on a journey of love, loss, and family as the coming-of-age stories of mother and daughter Marilyn and Angie are told 18 years apart. In the present day, teenaged Angie sets off on a road trip with her ex-boyfriend to look for answers to her mother’s past and her African-American roots in California. Ojo taps into the tension as the exes struggle to reconcile their broken relationship while capturing the uncertainty of the mission they are beginning. In a voice reminiscent of Angie’s—but wholly unique—Ojo takes listeners back to the '90s as teenaged Marilyn, an aspiring photographer and reluctant actress, begins a romance with her neighbor that ends in a tragedy. The devastation of that event is is heightened by Ojo’s emotional commitment to her narration. J.E.C. © AudioFile 2019, Portland, Maine

DECEMBER 2019 - AudioFile

2018-02-05
Mother and daughter move through parallel journeys separated by time but connected by introspection in Dellaira's (Love Letters to the Dead, 2014) latest.Told in alternating voices and timelines, this narrative explores two young women's searches for completion. Marilyn Miller, 17 in the late 1990s and dreaming of the freedom of college, must contend with her mother's plans for her to become a rising star in Hollywood. Stretched to the breaking point between the promise of self-determination and the weight of her mother's hopes, Marilyn, a blonde white girl, finds relief and unexpected romance with her enigmatic black neighbor, James. Fast-forward 18 years to meet Angie Miller, Marilyn and James' biracial daughter, who has lived her entire life believing her father was dead. When she discovers that her mother has lied about this, Angie journeys to Los Angeles with her ex-boyfriend Sam (also biracial, with a white father and Mexican mother) to find the missing pieces that have distanced her from Sam. Exploring the dynamic tension between identity and relationships, and the realities of violence and racism (although less so white privilege), the separate narratives converge to tell one family's story of pain and loss, love and forgiveness. Time jumps occasionally disrupt cohesion, and readers unfamiliar with the '90s may find Marilyn's narrative irksomely referential, but overall, this is a compelling intergenerational tale.Achingly vibrant. (Fiction. 14-adult)

Kirkus Reviews