Table of Contents
Dedication 7
Acknowledgments 7
I'm About to Get Up! 11
Part 1
All-American Family 18
Ordinary, Rainy Morning 27
The Hospital 32
Saying Good-Bye 39
The Unknown Path 47
Wandering in Dreamland 53
Indecision 58
Visitation and Honoring David 65
Remembering David 69
God's Provision for Me: Amazing Family and Friends 74
The Places Only Special Friends Can Reach 78
The Tenderness of God: Valentine's Day 2004 81
The Terrible Journey of Horrible Sadness 84
My Unknown Future 88
Facing Up to the Firsts 94
When Grief Meets Reality 99
Two Lions Come to Live With Us 104
The Dance Steps of Grief: Two Steps Forward, Three Steps Back 112
Working Through the Practicals 116
When People Try to Help, But Don't 123
The Unexpected Answer to My Prayers 130
Part 2
Hand Over the Burden (So No One Else Gets Hurt) 136
Keeping My Heart between the Lines of Love 142
You Get What You Ask For 147
If You Don't Change, Nothing will Change 151
Treasure Hunting with My Heavenly Father 155
Practicing What I Preach 162
When Grief Comes Back to Bite You, Again and Again 165
Sow In Tears, Reap In Joy! 168
Epilogue 175
Appendices 178
Endnotes 187
About The Author 188