I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me

I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me

by Jamison Shea

Narrated by Kristolyn Lloyd

Unabridged — 12 hours, 2 minutes

I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me

I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me

by Jamison Shea

Narrated by Kristolyn Lloyd

Unabridged — 12 hours, 2 minutes

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Lushly imagined and deeply affecting, I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me is an unputdownable thriller set in the cutthroat world of Parisian ballet. Debut author Jamison Shea has crafted a decadent dark fantasy perfect for fans of Black Swan.

From debut author Jamison Shea comes this slow-burn horror novel that lifts a veil on the institutions that profit from exclusion and the toll of giving everything to a world that will never love you back. This program is read by Grammy- and Emmy-award-winning-actor Kristolyn Lloyd.

There will be blood.


Ace of Spades
meets House of Hollow in this villain origin story.

Laure Mesny is a perfectionist with an axe to grind. Despite being constantly overlooked in the elite and cutthroat world of the Parisian ballet, she will do anything to prove that a Black girl can take center stage. To level the playing field, Laure ventures deep into the depths of the Catacombs and strikes a deal with a pulsating river of blood.

The primordial power Laure gains promises influence and adoration, everything she's dreamed of and worked toward. With retribution on her mind, she surpasses her bitter and privileged peers, leaving broken bodies behind her on her climb to stardom.

But even as undeniable as she is, Laure is not the only monster around. And her vicious desires make her a perfect target for slaughter. As she descends into madness and the mystifying underworld beneath her, she is faced with the ultimate choice: continue to break herself for scraps of validation or succumb to the darkness that wants her exactly as she is-monstrous heart and all. That is, if the god-killer doesn't catch her first.

A Macmillan Audio production from Henry Holt & Company.


Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly

08/28/2023

Black teenage ballerina Laure Mesny makes a deal with an ancient evil to fulfill her heart’s desire in this sharp, gruesome debut. Laure, a self-proclaimed perfectionist, attends the Ballet Academy of Paris. After dedicating her life to the art form, she yearns to take center stage during one of her school’s productions so that she can prove herself worthy of a spot in the Paris Ballet. But years of being overlooked in favor of her rich, white peers prompts Laure to seek drastic measures. When an opportunity arises, Laure—at the suggestion of a classmate—ventures into the city’s eerie underground Catacombs and bathes in a pulsating river of blood belonging to an eldritch god. But the power she obtains demands more sacrifice than she expected—or is willing to give. As new powers consume her, Laure begins literally transforming into a vicious creature beyond her imagining, threatening everything she’s worked so hard for. Shea’s raw, tension-filled emotional roller-coaster of a novel delivers frighteningly gory depictions of body horror. While the scares are grisly, Shea skillfully uses them to reveal hard truths surrounding institutions that capitalize on exclusion, and to depict the lengths one teen goes for acceptance and recognition. Ages 14–up. (Aug.)

From the Publisher

"I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast is Me is almost euphoric in its embrace of the horrific, and Laure's transformation will speak to girls who have had enough of being dominated and knocked down." - NPR

"Shea has executed a perfect series of pirouettes—effortless to the eye, but technically difficult to achieve." - Tor.com

"Jamison could have easily taken this story down well-traveled roads and delivered a cautionary tale about power corrupting, but they don’t, and it’s all the more satisfying [. . . ] A unique take on a classic horror tale, this brutal ballet story is gruesome and satisfying. A first purchase for high school libraries." - School Library Journal

"Shea’s raw, tension-filled emotional roller-coaster of a novel delivers frighteningly gory depictions of body horror. While the scares are grisly, Shea skillfully uses them to reveal hard truths surrounding institutions that capitalize on exclusion, and to depict the lengths one teen goes for acceptance and recognition." - Publisher's Weekly

"Gory, gripping, and visceral; examines how supernatural and systemic power unleash the monster within all of us." - Kirkus Reviews

"A charged series starter, drenched in gore, that uses horror to interrogate the brutalities of a calcified institution and its impact on real lives. Horror and ballet fans alike will find much to love." - Booklist

"With its monstrous ballerinas, beautiful monsters, and writing that drips with both beauty and gore, I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me is a glorious debut. I would follow Jamison Shea down any dark path." - Erica Waters, Bram Stoker Award winning author of The River Has Teeth

"Cut-throat competition and eldritch horrors — of both the human and monstrous kind — collide headfirst in I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast is Me. Gloriously haunting and darkly thrilling, Jamison Shea’s words will leave you breathless." - Aiden Thomas, New York Times bestselling author of Cemetery Boys and The Sunbearer Trials.

"A beautifully wrought horror story that has you rooting for the monster in the face of insidious institutions. Shea’s writing is as graceful as the dancers in their book and will leave readers screaming for more blood." - Trang Thanh Tran, New York Times bestselling author of She is a Haunting

"A hungry novel that smears your teeth with blood and ambition, then asks if you’d be willing to rip them out. Jamison Shea has cemented themself as a force to be reckoned with - and reminds us that when your enemies go low, you can always bury them there." - Andrew Joseph White, New York Times bestselling author of Hell Followed With Us

"A sinister, delicious dive into a truly captivating villain origin story. In lyrical prose and a cutting pace, Shea explores the ways power corrupts and the way racist, elitist systems push us to hunger for it. As Laure descended, I descended with her, and when I turned the final page I was starving for more." - Courtney Gould, award-winning author of The Dead and the Dark

"Brutal and beautiful, this book will drag you through the bloodied depths of fierce ambition and into a raw, untethered world of chaos, where salvation comes from crossing the line between girl and monster." - Lyndall Clipstone, author of The World at the Lake's Edge duology and Unholy Terrors

School Library Journal

11/17/2023

Gr 10 Up—Laure Mesny has given everything in pursuit of joining the Paris Ballet: her time, her body, and even her own family. As one of the few Black dancers in her prestigious school, she has learned that she must be the very best in order to receive the same chances that the many white, privileged, and less-talented dancers around her are casually handed. Her audition is flawless, but the racist board members are not swayed, using cruel and coded language to label and dismiss her talent. A surprise encounter with ballet darling Josephine brings Laure in contact with a dark, potentially malevolent presence in a cave who offers to bargain with her. Laure doesn't hesitate to offer the presence anything in return for the major thing lacking in her life: power. Jamison could have easily taken this story down well-traveled roads and delivered a cautionary tale about power corrupting, but they don't, and it's all the more satisfying. Laure seeks power because of a lifetime of powerlessness, and readers will savor her grisly transformation and dark triumph over her oppressors. Certainly there are monstrous aspects to Laure's newfound abilities and the secrets that shroud her benefactor, but the solid character development helps build empathy for Laure and her circumstances. VERDICT A unique take on a classic horror tale, this brutal ballet story is gruesome and satisfying. A first purchase for high school libraries.—Catherine Cote

Kirkus Reviews

2023-06-08
Laurence “Laure” Mesny puts body, mind, and soul into dancing for the Paris Ballet, but her dream of taking center stage remains unattainable until a mysterious supernatural force grants her the power to achieve her deepest desire.

The dancers train hard to perfect their skills, including performing while injured and sabotaging others, and they’re subjected to intense scrutiny, vituperative criticism, and a cutthroat environment. Even worse, the other dancers, who are overwhelmingly wealthy and white, bully Laure, who is Black, further isolating her and spurring her intense wish to be seen, respected, and loved. When dazzling Joséphine Moreau, the company’s highest ranked dancer, suggests Laure strike a bargain with a mysterious being, she eagerly jumps headfirst into the unknown. But when tragedy strikes and Laure begins to transform beyond recognition, she wonders if she has traded one nightmare situation for a host of new horrors beyond her control. Equal parts dark, supernatural fantasy and mystery, this layered tale utilizes a spectacular arsenal of body horror, mythology, and the occult to explore mature themes around desirability, the consequences of unchecked power, and the apathy toward violence against girls engendered by a system that values perfectionism, pedigree, and submission over people’s lives.

Gory, gripping, and visceral; examines how supernatural and systemic power unleash the monster within all of us. (Fantasy. 14-18)

Product Details

BN ID: 2940178044179
Publisher: Macmillan Audio
Publication date: 08/29/2023
Edition description: Unabridged
Sales rank: 1,141,478
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