Table of Contents
Introduction 1
A Room Full of Mirrors 7
Tulip 15
Four white walls 22
Ghosts 23
An Attempt to Explain the Unexplainable 27
Seesaw 32
Saturated 35
Lost in the loop 39
Friends with benefits 40
Small Puncture Wounds 43
Victim 55
Heartbreaker 56
A sudden embrace 58
Polluted words 61
Ouch 62
Low-Hanging Fruit 67
Glass ceiling 72
Punchlines 75
Everything or Absolutely Nothing at All 79
4 am 85
6 am 87
Quantitative suffering 88
Grooves 89
Dance around the gardens 91
Super Nostalgia 95
Temporary 100
Borrow him 101
Marlboro 102
I am my own loneliness 105
Longing 107
The Anatomy of a Flower 111
Spring 117
Blueprints 118
Daybreak 120
Mental strides 121
Fighting back 124
Claude Monet 127
Give and give some more 136
Floating in the past 137
Cycles 138
Anxious 142
Buzzkill 145
Perfect things 154
Limbo 155
France 156
Denim sky 158
Floating, Feeling, Fading, Falling 161
Hope in disguise 168
Someone new 169
Old habits 172
You 173
Driveway 175
Act Natural 183
Liquid deams 189
Hold on to it 191
Moments After a Fiery Combustion 193
Perpetual 196
Sounds 197
Perspectives 199
Pearls 203
What's a life without a little sin 209
Bodies 210
Easy As It Goes 213
Modern humanity 216
Friendly 218
Lucky Stars 221
Lost all my better days 224
Loud Sounds and Where They Come From 227
Thawing 234
A turning point 235
Flesh and bones 240
On the right path 241
Hidden in Plain Sight 243
Fortune-teller 246
Cosmos and madness 247
Red 249
Searching for harmony 251
A Higher Power 253
I believe in today 262
Pushing Up Daisies 265
Everything 273
Heaven 274
Peace found a home 276
Humming 279
Acknowledgments 285