Table of Contents
Introduction: I think l've always wanted to live up to my name. 8
70s
Introduction: The 70s were a glorious time of feminist ideals and lesbian bed-hopping. 26
My Life as Henry Miller 28
Photos 57
Use of Time in Women's Cinema 85
Stillness in Motion: A Study of Relationship and Film 92
Lesbian Filmmaking: Self-Birthing 99
80s
Introduction: Ever since I became an artist, I had wanted to move to New York City. 108
International Audiences: Personal Experiences of a Filmmaker 112
Touching and Receiving: A Lesbian Aesthetic 119
White Out 124
For an Active Cinema 128
Photos 133
Conference Sex (or The Names Have Not Been Changed as There Are No Innocents) 151
After Gertrude Stein 154
Change of Location: Bodies of Flesh to Bodies of Earth/Water 157
Lesbian Mainstream: Economics vs. Radical Play 159
Creative-Teaching Spaces: Home Movies 161
The Artist as Teacher: Problems and Experiments 166
Some Thoughts on Institutional Support, by a Media Artist 175
The Invisible Screen: Lesbian Cinema 177
90s
Introduction: By the end of the 80s, I was fed up with compromising my filmmaking. 186
Risk-Taking as Alternative Living/Art-Making: or, Why I Moved to the Big City 190
Coming into Our Fullness: On Women Turning Forty 194
The Politics of Abstraction 200
When a Kiss Is Not a Kiss but Nitrate 204
Photos 207
Censorship 222
00s
Introduction: Aging is interesting. 232
Maya Deren and Me 234
Resisting Paradise 238
Tender Fictions 241
Photos 246
Wishes 258
The Ephemeral Archive 260
The Creative Process 264
Acknowledgments 267
Filmography 268
Index 271