Grace After Henry

by Eithne Shortall Narrated by Alana Kerr Collins, Euan Morton

Overview

"A poignant love story . . . Bittersweet and charming, perfect for fans of Jojo Moyes. " --Shelf Awareness

Grace sees her boyfriend Henry everywhere. In the supermarket, on the street, at the graveyard.

Only Henry is dead. He died two months earlier, leaving a huge hole in Grace's life and in her heart. But then Henry turns up to fix the boiler one evening, and Grace can't decide if she's hallucinating or has suddenly developed psychic powers. Grace isn't going mad--the man in front of her is not Henry at all, but someone else who looks uncannily like him. The hole in Grace's heart grows ever larger.

Grace becomes captivated by this stranger, Andy--to her, he is Henry, and yet he is not. Reminded of everything she once had, can Grace recreate that lost love with Andy, resurrecting Henry in the process, or does loving Andy mean letting go of Henry?

Editorial Reviews

APRIL 2019 - AudioFile

Alana Kerr Collins affectionately narrates this tragic love story with a beautifully calm tone and Irish accent. Both belie the racing thoughts of Grace, who loses Henry, the love of her life, when he’s killed in a bike accident. Grace is shattered until Henry’s long-lost twin, Andy, portrayed by Euan Morton, shows up. This dramatic twist is given gravity, thanks to the talented narration and the story’s subtle nod to a secondary character’s love of soap operas. Collins shows range with her shrill portrayal of Henry’s mother, which contrasts with the quiet pauses of Grace’s own protective parents. Andy is Australian, and Morton’s accent is good, but overall his voice is devoid of emotion, which contradicts his character’s humble and generous nature. Nonetheless, this is a great story enhanced by Collins’s outstanding narration. A.L.C. © AudioFile 2019, Portland, Maine

Publishers Weekly

01/07/2019

In Shortall’s insightful contemporary novel of loss and grief, a freak bicycle accident pulls the rug out from under Dublin chef Grace McDonnell’s love life. Grace and fiancé Henry are ready to buy a home of their own, but when he fails to show up for a house tour, Grace’s first reaction is anger. Upon learning that he’s been killed in his rush to meet her, the depth of her love is poignantly mirrored in the scale of her grief. She spends weeks in a mourner’s stupor that lingers even after she moves into their dream home. She’s only fully roused to consciousness by a tradesman, Andy, who’s come to fix her boiler. In what might be a dream come true, Andy is a perfect replica of Henry—except for the Australian accent. A friendship that could become love ensues as Grace grapples with a flood of conflicting emotions. Shortall’s thought-provoking potentialities combined with her perceptive characterizations are certain to keep Grace and Andy in the reader’s mind for a long time. Agent: Liz Parker, Verve Talent & Literary. (Mar.)

From the Publisher

An engrossing, surprising, and empowering story about the complexities of love, grief, and family. The characters were so beautifully developed that by the time I finished reading, I felt like I'd known them forever.”—Jill Santopolo, bestselling author of The Light We Lost

"This is the best kind of book, with a blend of sharp humor and dark grief that strikes a pitch-perfect note of poignancy. . . . An absolute treat of a novel." —Lolly Winston, author of Good Grief

“Full of heart, this bittersweet tale examines love after loss.”—Woman's World

“A poignant love story . . . Bittersweet and charming, perfect for fans of Jojo Moyes.  “ —Shelf Awareness

“A huge hit in the U.K., Irish author Eithne Shortall’s Dublin-set romance novel allows its characters to experience grief with a mix of lightheartedness and gravity.”—Marie Claire

“Is it possible for a novel about grief to be this enchanting? Shortall’s extraordinary debut is about the kind of shocking tragedy that shatters your life, about the ghosts  and people we cling to for solace, and about how, when we truly open our lives to loss, life actually becomes deeper, richer, and all the more precious. A gorgeously written, haunting reminder that nothing is ever really lost.”—Caroline Leavitt, New York Times bestselling author of Pictures of You and Cruel Beautiful World

“This book is a poignant and touching account of one woman moving on after great tragedy. Shortall’s American debut does not go for easy solutions but shows how grief manifests differently for those who experience it.”—Booklist (starred review)

“Insightful...Shortall’s thought-provoking potentialities combined with her perceptive characterizations are certain to keep Grace and Andy in the reader’s mind for a long time.”—Publishers Weekly

“A witty, heartbreaking, life-affirming, gorgeous charmer of a novel about love and loss and letting go. I couldn’t put it down, and I can’t stop thinking about the characters, and I can’t wait to give copies to all the people I love.”—Nancy Thayer, bestselling author of A Nantucket Wedding

“Fans of Jojo Moyes and Cecelia Ahern will adore Grace After Henry, a story of life after loss that brims with a lovable cast of characters, humor, and lots of heart. I recommend you have tissues at the ready and a phone within reach to call your friends!  This emotionally rich, satisfying read is sure to put Eithne Shortall novels at the top of your TBR.”—Jamie Brenner, bestselling author of The Husband Hour

“Readers who loved Sense & Sensibility’s inquiries into the possibility of loving twice will fall head over heels for this book.” —Bustle

“Charming and heartfelt, Eithne Shortall’s Grace After Henry is the unconventional love story—complete with quirky characters and tissue-worthy moments—you won’t want to miss! A lovely, moving read.”—Karma Brown, bestselling author of The Life Lucy Knew

“A touching, beautifully written story about losing love and finding it again in an unexpected way. I couldn’t put it down—I was reading the book at two in the morning with a little flashlight, so I wouldn’t wake up my husband.”—Mary Simses, author of The Irresistible Blueberry Bakeshop & Café

“Brilliant....A terrific read and superior plot!”—Liz Nugent, author of Lying in Wait

Kirkus Reviews

2018-12-11

A young woman in Dublin handles a confusing and surprising gain after a deep and personal loss.

After her partner, Henry, dies in a bike accident, Grace spends nearly three months emotionally and physically shut down. Then, with lots of prodding from her parents and best friend, she attempts the barest requirements of living again: going to her job as chef at a local cafe, visiting Henry's grave, and furnishing the house the two were buying when he died. She thinks she sees Henry everywhere and has to convince herself it's just her grieving brain playing tricks on her, until he shows up, on her doorstep, in the flesh. But this isn't Henry, either. It's Andy, the twin brother from Down Under no one knew existed. Once the initial shock has dropped to a simmer, Grace allows herself to find comfort in Andy's similarities to Henry while Andy finds comfort seeing the type of life he might have had if his restless, adoptive single mom hadn't moved him to Australia. They both dabble in magical thinking, teasing at this soap-opera setup to see if it might go in the most soap-opera direction. But Grace (who narrates the bulk of the book) has a straightforward, often droll tone, and Shortall in general focuses on small, daily details over sweeping, dramatic ones. This is a blessing and a curse; it tempers the high drama of the plot into something sweet and (almost) believable. But in the dance between the two she loses sight of the story of grief, which deserves more attention.

Strongest in its depiction of modern Dublin characters and their entertaining interactions, muddled when it comes to the meat of the story.

Product Details

BN ID:	2940171821296
Publisher:	Penguin Random House
Publication date:	03/12/2019
Edition description:	Unabridged

Read an Excerpt

Several Weeks Later

1.

There were moments of lucidity-the sound of Dad abruptly starting up the vacuum cleaner and Mam screaming that hoovering disturbed the moths-but most of the early weeks passed in a fugue. I didn't leave the bed, never mind my parents' house, if I could help it. My social circle consisted of Mam, Dad, occasional visits from Aoife, and the three other mourners I met every time I went to visit Henry's grave.

The day I came to and regained some sort of awareness, my parents were jumping around their living room like Native Americans celebrating the arrival of rain. Everyone else's life had continued, all but mine and Henry's. Time kept passing, the sun kept rising and, as sure as spring follows winter, the moths had returned.

"I got him! I got the little bugger."

Dad froze where he stood, right in the middle of the living room-knee bent, hands raised; an impressive yoga pose for a man with a bad lower back-and Mam, from her position on the sofa, squinted at the space above the television, the same bit of middle distance that was entrancing Dad. Neither spoke. It was, I knew because the Late Late Show had just come on the telly, 9:35 on a Friday night.

"You did not get him, Arthur, look. Look! There he is now. Looklooklooklook! Quickquickquickquick!" Mam leaped to her feet, adopting the McDonnell family's preferred stance when it came to the extermination of moths. "There he is!"

"Where?"

"There."

"Where?"

"Theretheretherethere!"

"I see him I see him. The fecker! I've got you now, my little friend."

"It's the feckin' heat." Mam grabbed the two magazines from Dad's armchair and held a rolled up Heat in her left hand and House and Home in her right. "The mild winter and all the feckin' central heating. I told you we didn't need the radiators on in March, Arthur. I don't see why you couldn't just use the tumble dryer to dry the clothes. You may as well roll out the welcome mat. They thrive in temperatures above twenty-two degrees."

This was the fourth consecutive year our house had been overrun by moths, and my mother, who had reactivated her library membership to read up on them, had found her Mastermind subject.

"Well excuse me, Sarah," said Dad, momentarily distracted from the assassination by this slight on his housekeeping skills. Since retiring, Dad had developed two passions: domesticity and celebrity gossip. The week he stopped being a driving instructor, he watched the entirety of Lindsay Lohan's trial live on TMZ. And then he was so worried about her that he took to cleaning to distract himself. "If you want to live in a home where you have to wear your winter coat just to go to the bathroom . . ."

"There's nowhere else I can wear it, now they've eaten two big feckin' holes in the arse of it!"

"And whose fault is that? If you'd just hang it back like I showed you, under the plastic cover, which I got special from the dry cleaners, but no, you just throw it wherever you feel-"

"I see him! Arthur! There!"

"Shush!" admonished Dad, his head cocked like Patch used to before he went deaf and forgot he had ears.

"They can't hear us, Arthur." Mam rolled her eyes, trying to coax me into the conversation. But I was still trying to get my bearings.

I had relinquished autonomy the moment I arrived back at our flat, drenched with rain and dread, to find two police officers at the front door. "Grace McDonnell?" And I'd known then, not from what they said but how they stood, with their uniform caps in hand, as if they were already at the funeral.

It was amazing how long you could get away with ignoring everything when you didn't care about the outcome of anything. Emerging from that apathy in my parents' house was like coming to in a madhouse.

"Shush!" Dad adjusted his glasses, his eyes flickering from the middle distance above the telly to the middle distance above my head. "I need to concentrate."

Mam sent her eyes skyward again. She held her own spectacles up to her face.

"There! Arthur, behind you!"

"He's not, he is! He's- Sorry, love." Dad clambered into my chair, crushing the unopened book that lay on the armrest.

"Get him, Arthur. Go on, get him! Get the bastard."

"Mam!"

She shrugged off the uncharacteristic profanity. "Just checking you were still with us, pet."

"And . . . smack!" Dad peeled his hand from the mint green wallpaper and presented his palm victoriously. "Mess with the McDonnells and you! Get! Squashed!"

And they both started shrieking, dancing their tribal dance around the rug once again. It was always the strangest things that reminded me how besotted my parents were with each other. They worked so hard to build this life, and they deserved these years to enjoy it together.

That was the point when I stood-something they weren't used to seeing me do without coaxing-and declared that it was time I moved on. Aberdeen Street was ready; I'd signed the last papers, and the keys were mine to collect when I wanted. Henry's parents had insisted I follow through on the purchase. They didn't want the deposit money, and his life insurance would help me through the first year of mortgage payments.

Mam said it was too soon; Dad said I'd be missed and that my twenty-twenty vision was a vital asset in the war against larvae. But I had to go. Every time I looked at them I wanted to apologize for the new lines on their faces.

Within a week, we had moved my stuff into the end-of-terrace on Aberdeen Street that I kept referring to as "our house." The only unpacked bag was the plastic one stuffed with coats and scarves that had gotten caught on the spikes of the gate as Dad carried it in. It burst all over the hallway and, ten days on, I still hadn't found the energy to pick them up.

I thought I heard Henry the first night I was in this house. Thinking I saw him was nothing new; every time I went outside I was convinced I clocked him somewhere, but that was the first time I'd heard his voice. I was in the back garden, checking the door that led from the shed to the laneway was locked. I pulled at the iron bolt to ensure it was solid, and this shot of laughter rang out.

I recoiled from the lock as if it had burned my hand. I didn't move another inch. I swore to god it was Henry's laugh.

My heart pounded in my chest and I felt a wave of nausea but I ignored it. I stood, still as a statue, waiting for the sound that would not be repeated. I remained like that until I started to shiver, then reluctantly I went back inside.

There were days when my only interaction was with the man in the corner shop with the Chinese-Dublin accent who called himself Pat but whose real name was Xin. I bought bread and cheese from him, and he sometimes made observations but never asked questions.

"You're like a vampire," he said, handing over the Brie and baguette.

"Because I'm pale?"

"Because you only come out at night."

But mostly I just sat on the floor in the hallway beside the mound of coats and watched as my phone flashed beside me. I'd been ignoring my mother's calls for three days now. All she wanted was for me to say, "Yes, doing much better this evening." And I couldn't. I considered lying back down on the pile of duffel and denim and wool. There was no end to how much I could sleep.

The phone stopped ringing, and I waited for the single ping. The screen flashed again: "You Have Nine New Voice Mails." She only wanted to help, like Dad when he'd offered to buy me a coat rail. Putting into action something he couldn't put into words. Just like Henry. The white glow faded, and the hallway returned to dark. There was no bulb in the light fixture above me, and I liked it like that. It reminded me of Ebenezer Scrooge roaming around his home in the dark, too stingy to pay for lamps.

Almost all of what Henry was carrying had been obliterated when the wheel of the articulated lorry returning to Dublin Port after a beet sugar delivery had rolled over him. All that had come back to me was his oil-stained backpack and a bizarrely pristine copy of A Christmas Carol. We read to each other most nights, and we'd been reading that when he died. Henry was atrocious at voices, but I made him do them anyway. His Bob Cratchit had me rolling around the bed laughing. We read A Christmas Carol every year, but never at Christmas. Too predictable.

Sitting with my back to the wall and my knees pulled into me, I opened the book to the relevant passage. I angled the page toward the living room so I might have enough light to make out the words.

"Darkness is cheap, and Scrooge liked it," I read aloud to no one, the sound of my own voice making me jump. It had been a while since I'd spoken. "But before he shut his heavy door, he walked through his rooms to see that all was right. He had just enough recollection of the face to desire to do that."

Beyond the front door, people were moving: coming home from work, going to the shop, heading out for a run in the park. But I stayed in the hallway. Every other room was filled with bags and boxes: throws and cushions in the sitting room, clothes in our bedroom, books in the study, and mountains of crockery and saucepans in the kitchen. I couldn't bring myself to unpack any of them. I couldn't be in the same room as them. So I stayed where I was, in the darkness, right where Henry had left me.

I would have given anything to have him back: this house, everything in it, a limb, two limbs, my sense of taste. I would have cut off the last two decades of my life. I would have watched a stranger die.

I would have watched my parents die.

I dug my nails into my arm until the dents didn't immediately disappear. The longing and aching were joined by a fresh wave of guilt. I closed my eyes until the nausea passed. But I had started down this path and I couldn't stop. Even when I opened them I saw it.

I saw him hurrying along on his bike, worrying that I would be cross with him for being late, and that stupid scarf that I had knitted that he never wanted coming undone. I saw the red wool looping into the spokes of his wheel, going round and round until it pulled him under the truck. I heard a decisive crunch as his bones were turned to dust and the squelch like a welly coming away from marsh as his insides flattened. But mainly I saw the red, spinning round, over and over, an indistinguishable mix of scarf and blood and eviscerated organs.

"Why didn't you look where you were going?"

The responding silence echoed around the hallway and throbbed in my ears.

"Why didn't you slow down? Hmm? Why couldn't you just do that?"

I remembered the last time I saw him: he was heading out the door of our flat, his big smiling head asking what the weather was supposed to be like and me saying it'd be windy and- No. No. No. No. I couldn't finish that thought.

"Henry! I'm talking to you. H-"

I choked on his name. I missed his arms and his smell and his existence. It filled me with rage how he never responded, and that made my throat ache more.

"I'm sorry, okay?"

Still nothing.

"Henry!"

It was not a statement but a plea. And I flinched at the desperation in my voice. Nobody had ever been coaxed back from the dead by a whinge and a nag.

"I said I'm sorry."

But there was only the confirmation of night. The buzz and click and finally light as the streetlamp at the end of Aberdeen Street illuminated. My phone flashed again, and I slid it away. I allowed my body to slump to the side, and though I was sobbing into the hood of a quilted jacket, sleep took no time. I was exhausted. I was gone before the ping of my mother's tenth voice mail.

2.

"Grace likes telling this story because she likes telling everyone what a dope I was."

"Not a dope. More . . . cringeworthy."

"Great. Much better."

"We knew each other when we were teenagers. Henry lived in the same estate as a girl I went to school with, and I'd met him at house parties. We even kissed once actually, during a game of truth or dare, although Henry complained that I was the one who'd been given the dare so why did he have to suffer."

"I did not use the word 'suffer.'"

"But then Christmas Eve, a few years ago, we were both in my local. The Back Bar. Henry goes there every Christmas Eve, but I'm usually in my granny's. Only she was in England that year, staying with my uncle. So I go to the pub with Aoife."

"You met Aoife at Grace's birthday."

"Really dark hair, yeah, dead straight. That's her. She gets it from her mother's side. So anyway, me and Aoife go into the Back Bar and the place is rammed. But I see Henry at the bar. Half a foot taller than everyone else. And he's in a big group with Claire Maguire, the girl from school. She was the one who had all the house parties when we were teenagers. So anyway I go over, and me and Aoife are going on about how we haven't seen Claire in so long and what's she up to now, but really I've got one eye on Henry the whole time. And I can tell he's looking at me."

"I was just keeping an eye out for my pint."

"And this goes on for a while. Claire's not introducing us, and I can't see how I'm going to get talking to him, and the barman is getting ready to ring the bell for last orders so I start to panic. And Aoife can see I'm panicking even though I haven't had a chance to say anything to her, but she knows I liked Henry all those years ago."

"Best kiss of her adolescence."

(Continues…)

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