Don't Play with Me, I Am LIFE: Follow the Direction of Your Bishop (PENIS)
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| ISBN-13: | 9781452565323 |
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| Publisher: | Balboa Press |
| Publication date: | 01/24/2013 |
| Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 108 |
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Don't Play with Me, I Am LIFE
Follow the Direction of Your Bishop (PENIS)By J L. LEWIS
Balboa Press
Copyright © 2013 J L. LewisAll right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4525-6531-6
Chapter One
Part OneChildhood Development
Curiosity
At the age of eight, I became fascinated with my body. Looking at my naked body in the mirror—its small size, thin and short—I knew I was different in my anatomy from my mother and other little girls. The thing that interested me the most was my genital, my penis. I was intrigued. What was it for? The question kept floating through my MIND, and the IMAGE of my penis was before me day and night. I was curious to know why my penis was the way it was. Why was it the smallest of all my body parts? As a young boy, I knew from observation that I was not the youngest boy in my family. So why was my penis the smallest? These questions were most pressing when we were about to bathe. Let me give a little background for clarity and setting.
I am originally from the greatest country in the world —Trinidad and Tobago. This is very subjective I know, but it was my birthplace and where my values were formed. Robert Hill Siparia always will have a special place in my heart. I spent my childhood there in the late 1970s. In the mornings when we got up and out of bed around 5:30 or 6:00 a.m., we children had chores to perform such as tying out the goats, feeding the pigs, and sweeping the yard. Then we washed and dressed for school. We kept the water in barrels gotten from the stand pipe or the well the evening before. The bathroom was at the back of the house.
We bathed one person at a time because the bath room was only big enough for one person, and as fast as you finished you had to exit quickly because another sibling was waiting to enter. I always noticed that my penis would shrink during my bath and remain so for a while. Not only did my penis shrink, but it seemed to disappear. So I pulled on it so it would return to normal size. I became obsessed with my disappearing penis. I then began to observe my brothers and noticed that theirs was normal size as they entered the shower as I exited.
I asked my uncle, my grandmother, and my mom about this shrinking phenomenon, but no one would give me answers. Sex and sexuality were taboo subjects that time in our culture. It certainly was not spoken about in the presence of children, and I don't think adults spoke of it among themselves either. In retrospect, I understand. It is a private matter.
Washing up became an occasion for me to further explore my interest in the taboo topic and the occasions were frequent. You see, Trinidad is in the tropics—hot and humid—so we showered twice a day. In order to clean myself well, I had to pull back the foreskin of my penis. I was taught that this level of cleanliness would help avoid future health problems. You see, I was not circumcised.
To understand circumcision in the sense that it was intended, by the creator Himself, we must go back to the language that was used to communicate the information, from the epistemological derivation of the lingual prima.
The language that was used to communicate to humankind was Hebrew, and in the Ancient Hebrew Lexicon written by Jeff A Benner. The meaning of these words that will be highlighted was found. Let me give a brief understanding to the structure of the language. In the Hebrew Ancient culture the people were very much pictorial in there function and interpretation of words, which was derived from the letters that carried the functional and concrete meaning of the intended word. The culture was very relational and dealt with things from a tangible perspective. Letters for example carries in the English Language only form and sound, but in the Hebrew Language the letters carries a form, a sound, a name, and a meaning. The culture literally was one that dealt with the pragmatic approach to things seen and unseen. They relate to what they can see, taste, touch, hear, and smell. The structure and formation of the development of words will give some insight to the intent of the creature concerning the MIND (thought), PENIS (unprovoked arousal), and the SPIRIT (synapsis). There are two Hebrew letters that make up the word circumcised, foreskin, mind, heart, soul and love. The definition of the letters that make up these words are as follows.
CIRCUMCISED. Gen; 17:10 S t r "4135" lexicon 1288 [TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] (MWL) p g 28
MEM ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII])
The early Semitic pictograph for the letter is a picture of wave of water. This pictograph has the meaning of liquid, water and sea, mighty and massive from the size of the sea and chaos from the storms of the sea. To the Hebrew the sea was a faired and unknown place, for this reason this letter is used as a question word, WHO, WHAT WHEN WHERE WHY and HOW, in the sense of searching for the unknown.
WAW ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII]) p g 24-25
The original pictograph used in the early sematic scripture is a picture of a tent peg. The tent pegs were made of wood and may have been shaped like a y to prevent rope from slipping off . The modern Hebrew name for the letter is "v a v" a word meaning pegs or hook. This letter is used in modern Hebrew as a constant with a v sound and as a vowel. According to the appearance of the letter, the sound of the letter changes, also the meaning of the word changes. We know that the Hebrew and Arabic languages are closely related, and this letter in the Arabic language is pronounced as a w. As indicated in the pictograph, this letter represents a peg or hook, which are used for securing something. This meaning of the letter is to add or secure. This letter is frequently used as a prefix to words to mean " and " in the sense of adding things together.
This word has an adopted root meaning 2407 from the word to cut.
This root meaning of the word carries these two letters. [TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII]. This word carries the meaning as cut into segments, to cut tip or end, cut off , cut down, circumcise.
NUN ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII])
The ancient pictorial is a picture of a seed sprout representing the idea of continuing to a new generation. This pictograph has the meaning of continue, perpetuation, off spring, or heirs.
FORESKIN. The Hebrew word is (([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] A h R-LH)) p g 23,30.
The first letter of the word is ayin ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII]). The ancient picture for this letter is a picture of an eye. This letter represents the idea of seeing, watching, as well as knowledge, as the eye is the window of knowledge. This letter is silent in Modern Hebrew. There is no indication that the ancient sematic had a sound for this letter as well and appears to have been silent in the past.
The second letter for foreskin is del.
DEL ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII])
There are two possibilities for the original early sematic pictograph for this letter, a picture of a fish and a picture of a door. The modern Hebrew name for the letter is "dalet" and means "door". The dalet is a derivative of the parent root, "dal" also meaning "door". The Arabic for the letter is "dal" given support to the parent root as the original name. As the Hebrew word for a "fish" is "dag", it is unlikely that the pictograph "fish", is the pictograph for the letter but, rather the pictograph "door".
This basic meaning of the letter [TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] is "door", but has several other meanings associated with it. It can mean "a back and forth movement" as one going back and forth through the tent through the door. It can mean, "dangle" as the tent door dangles down from a roof pole of the tent. It can also mean weak or poor as one who dangles the head down.
HEART and MIND Due 6;5 S t r 3824 Ancient Hebrew word ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] L-BB) p g 156 #1252. these to words carries the same meaning.
BET ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII])
Several variations were used for the original pictograph. Each of these pictographs is represented by a house or tent. One of these pictographs was chosen as it best represents the nomadic tent of the Hebrews. These tents were divided into two sections, men, and women's; with the entrance at the front of the tent in the men's section, and an entrance for the men to the women's section.
The Hebrew word (bet) means house or tent, as well as family. A common designation for a family is to identify the "house" of the family patriarch, such as (in the house of Jacob). The meaning of this letter, are house, tent, family, as well as, in with inside, or within, as the family resides within the house or tent. The letter is commonly used as a prefix to words to mean in or with as in "be erects" meaning "in a land".
The first letter in the Hebrew word "heart" is "lam"
LAM ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII])
The early Hebrew pictograph is a Shepard's staff . The Shepard's staff was used to direct sheep by pushing or pulling them. It was also used as a weapon against predators to defend and protect the sheep.
The meaning of this letter is toward as moving something in a direction. This letter also means authority, as it is a sign of the Shepard, the leader of the flock. It also means yolk, a staff on the shoulder, as well as tie or bind from the yolk that is bound to the animal. The letter is used as a prefix to nouns meaning "to" or "toward".
SOUL Str#5313 Due 6:5 Ancient Hebrew #2246 ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] K-BD)
KA F ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII])
The ancient form of this letter is the open palm of a hand. The meaning of this letter are bend and curve from the shape of the palm, as well as to tame or subdue as one who has been bent to another's will.
LOVE Due 6:5 S t r 157 Ancient Hebrew# 1073 ([TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] A-HB)
[TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] (ALEF)
The original pictograph for this letter is a picture of an ox head representing strength and power from the work performed by the animal. This pictograph also represent a chief or other leader. When two oxen are yoked together for pulling a wagon or plow, one is the older and more experienced one who leads the others within the clan, tribe or family. The chief or father is seen as the elder who is yoked to others as the leader and teacher.
[TEXT NOT REPRODUCIBLE IN ASCII] HEY
The original pictograph of the letter is a man standing with his arms raised out. The modern Hebrew and original name for this letter is "hey". The Hebrew word "hey" means "behold" or "sigh" as one does when looking at a great. The meaning of the letter is behold, look, breath, sigh and reveal or revelation from the idea of revealing a great sight by pointing it out.
These letters in the pictorial form, gives a clear understanding of what the designer, had in His mind at the time of mans formation. As you look closely, at the development of the idea, of the words and there functional uses, to the penis the mind and the spirit, you will see the call of the creature to His creation in the most caring expression of His goodness. As you continue to read you will see the unfolding of the function of the penis in relation to man, woman and God.
Circumcision
Circumcision is the act of removing the prepuce of the male genital. Today it is taught as a method of hygiene in the secular world and in the religious community. Both Islam and Judaism utilize circumcision as a religious rite to ensure their covenants with their respective Gods: YHWH or ALLAH. In ancient Israel, this act was a ritual performed on the eighth day after the birth of the male children of natives, their servants, and all living among them (Gen. 17:12–14; Lev. 12:3). When the rite was first instituted, it initially was performed by the father of the child utilizing a flint knife (cp. Josh. 5:3). Later specialists were employed among the Jewish people.
Several theories seek to explain and describe the nature and origin of circumcision: (1) an initiatory rite—before marriage (as the Shechemites in Gen. 34:14–24) or at puberty; (2) for physical hygiene—to prevent the attraction or transmission of diseases; (3) as a tribal mark of distinction; (4) as a rite of entry into the community of faith. In the Old Testament, the origin of the Israelites' practice was founded upon the circumcision of Abraham as a sign of the covenant between God and the patriarch (Gen. 17:10).
According to biblical and extra biblical sources, several Semitic and non-Semitic peoples practiced circumcision in the ancient near east. In the Bible, Jeremiah depicts Egyptians, Edomites, Ammonites, Moabites, and the desert-dwelling Arabians as circumcised peoples (Jer. 9:25–26; cp. Ezek. 32:17–32). On the other hand Philistines, Assyrians, and Babylonians were counted among the uncircumcised. Practice of circumcision among the Canaanites is not mentioned in the Bible and evidence of their views of the topic is lacking.
Ethical implications of circumcision can be observed in the metaphorical usage of the term. The uncircumcised are those who are insensitive to God's leadership. Circumcision of the heart implies total devotion to God (Deut. 10:16; Jer. 4:4); however, the uncircumcised ear cannot hear so as to respond to the Lord (Jer. 6:10); and the uncircumcised of lips cannot speak (Exod. 6:12). Circumcision was therefore an external sign of an internal singularity of devotion to Yahweh.
Controversy, however, arose among the Jews in the early Church as to whether Gentile converts needed to be circumcised (Acts 15:1–12). First-century A.D. Jews disdained the uncircumcised. The leadership of the Apostle Paul in the Jerusalem Council was crucial in the settlement of the dispute wherein it was determined that circumcision was not essential to Christian faith and fellowship. Circumcision of the heart via repentance and faith were the only requirements (Rom. 4:9–12; Gal. 2:15–21).
In Trinidad, in the days of my youth, our culture did not put as much requirement on the mandate for circumcision as they do now. My mother did a good job in giving me the instruction and guidance to keep my genital clean and I looked forward to the twice-daily ritual with great anticipation. I aroused myself sexually every morning and every evening while I showered or bathed under the pretense of giving myself a thorough cleaning.
Chapter Two
Part TwoDiscovering More in Adolescence
Self Arousal
Predictably, when I reached my adolescent years and the onset of puberty, my curiosity about sex was heightened. Everything around me stirred my interest, and I became very sensitive to everything within my environment. I observed dogs, cats, chickens, pigs, and ducks as they engaged in sexual activity and compared it to human behavior. I had been arousing myself for the past few years with my hand and I wanted to take it to the next level. I had an idea to open a hole on a banana tree and see how this experience felt! (When a child is left to themselves without parental oversight, this can be one of the unfortunate results.)
By the time I reached puberty, I was living in the city of San Fernando pursuing my high school education. My most influential professors, however, were not those at St. Thomas Aquinas High School, but were my own equally unenlightened peers. I instructed them as well. Whether good or bad, right or wrong, we eagerly bandied about ideas and pontificated on numerous topics, but the principal subject was sex. We had all the answers to any question we may have conjured in our minds with the young teaching the old and the old teaching the young.
All our knowledge was based on our emotions and the chemical release that we experienced whether we intentionally aroused ourselves or not. We majored in masturbation because we all had that in common. The information that I received when cavorting with my "professors" prompted me to conduct more research into that area of my new-found interest and desire. Nothing else interested me other than my own selfish desire and the pleasure my sexual experimentation brought. As preeminent psychologist Bobb Blehl, and other great minds have concluded from their studies and their research in America, the ages between 10 and 20 years is the time of the self, i.e., the time of self-discovery and preoccupation with ones self. For me, circumcision, or the lack thereof, played a critical role in my own self discovery.
While arousing myself something great happened. It was tremendous, fascinating, mind blowing, and something I wanted more and more. A white substance came out of my penis and I had no idea what it was. I was not afraid because it felt indescribably good and I wanted it more and more. The high I experienced was unexplainable! An orgasm and the substance it produced was my ultimate goal. It wasn't just my sexual organ at work, but my brain also was highly involved in this pursuit. And to my delight, I was left alone to pursue it.
Please know that I don't condone this travesty. When an adolescent is left to his own devices, it is only brings chaos and death. As adults in today's society we mistakenly think that when a child reaches adolescence and looks mature physically, that they can make decisions for themselves. This is a wrong assumption. I needed someone to speak with during this phase of my life, but my choice of another adolescent in the same predicament as me was not helpful.
As the self-appointed leader, I persuaded a few other young men to engage in a friendly competition. This became our regular weekend activity as we gathered at my home. We dispersed around the house and assumed the position for masturbation. The area where we lived was a new development and ours was the first house, so there were few street lights. It was an ideal environment for fostering these evil ideas which we thought were natural. I called this activity "flogging the bishop." I called my penis "the bishop" because of the position I assumed at the point of ejaculation. I would stand at attention in silence because I didn't want anyone to hear. (I grew up Catholic, and when the bishop entered the room, everyone would stand at attention in silence). This behavior created a bond to whatever I was focusing on, which usually was pornography.
Chemicals and Pornography
At this stage of life, my hormones were raging and actually contributing to my behavior. My brain was secreting the chemical Nero that is responsible for causing emotional bonding to a person or object. My body was speaking to me and yes, I was listening—it had my full attention. I observed a knot or a seed forming around my nipple and wondered why. My body now had all it required to bring forth life into the world, but I didn't yet understand that. Remember that sex was taboo in my environment at that time and remains taboo there today.
(Continues...)
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Table of Contents
Contents
Introduction....................ixPart One Childhood Development....................1
Part Two Discovering More in Adolescence....................15
Part Three God, the Mind, and the Penis....................25
Part Four The Moldable Brain....................49
Part Five Successful Sexuality....................67
Part Six Family....................81
Epilogue....................91