Table of Contents
Prologue xiii
Part 1 Year One
1 Welcome to Longwood 3
2 The Golden Class 14
3 It Will Pass, and You Will Be Fine 20
4 First Paycheck Party 33
5 The Mythical Day Team 38
6 Mania 46
7 The Lightbulb Has to Want to Be Changed 55
8 These Are Bad, but I Think You Can Do Worse 59
9 Night Float 69
10 Controlled Chaos 78
11 Insomnia and Electric Shocks 85
12 Bread-and-Butter Medicine 96
13 Stern and Sons 107
14 A Face Worth Licking 112
15 Tongue-Tied Cherry Stems South of the Border 117
Part 2 Year Two
16 Like the First Year, but More 125
17 Unwelcome Departures 136
18 Snoozers Lose 145
19 Tell Me What Brings You into the Office 155
20 The Irresistible Lure of Delivering Chinese Food 165
21 Just Needing Some Air 176
22 Some Kind of Chicken Sociopath 183
23 Like Free Therapy 190
24 The Joy and Sorrow of Musical Staircases 198
25 EXP 205
26 An Office with a Window 211
27 Friends Don't Have Sleepovers 217
Part 3 Years Three and Four,
28 Don't Just Do Something, Sit There 229
29 Being Present 243
30 California Nightmares 255
31 Not My Choice 264
32 The Match Redux 273
33 I've Got Muscles 279
34 An Impostor Once More 285
35 This Is Where Change Happens 292
In Memoriam 298
Acknowledgments 300