The picture on the cover is always hard for me to look at. It was taken in the Spring of 2018 at St. Patrick's Cathedral in New York City. I was sitting quietly by myself and just happened to look up when my wife, Stacie, snapped the picture.
Every time I see this photo, I'm reminded of how sad I was. I had wrecked my life three years earlier and lost everything. I was still staggering from the internal and external consequences of it all—the guilt, the regret, the shame. I was hopeless most days, convinced I'd never be happy again.
I still feel like that, sometimes. But, thankfully, not as often as I used to. I'm broken but breathing.
This is my story . . . this is my song.
Tullian
Against the backdrop of his own very public collapse, best-selling author Tullian Tchividjian reveals how hope can find us in our darkest places.
Carnage & Grace is an unflinchingly honest memoir that explores the hard road of recovery and the mercy that finds us over and over along the way. This is a book about desperation and deliverance, hopelessness and healing. It's a book about how God's restoring grace always flows downward and gathers in the low places of life—in the back alleys of our secrets, in the ruins of our regrets, and in the wreckage of our repeated failures.
"My friend Tullian's new book has everything I want in a memoir. It's raw and unsanitized and uncomfortable. He is willing to expose the worst parts of himself, which somehow exposes the best parts of God. This isn't so much a story of a Christian celebrity who fell from grace. It's the untold story of a broken human being who fell into grace—discovering God on the bathroom floor of his wrecked life. This is a must read!"
—Jonathan Merritt,
Author and contributing writer for The Atlantic
