Table of Contents
Foreword Gary Mervis 11
Acknowledgements 13
Introduction 15
Part I A World Comes Apart
That First Night 19
The First Day 25
The Ante Goes Up 29
A World Comes Apart 34
Wrestling with the Devil 40
Starting Over 44
Looking for Miracles 49
The New Terms of Hope 55
A Hard Lesson 58
The Quality of Time 60
Part II The New Terms of Hope
Back to School 65
New Hope 67
The Second Campaign 73
Waiting and Letting Go 80
A Dream Is Born 84
Good Days 96
Special Times 108
The Sound of the Second Shoe 113
Starting Over 120
"I Love You Anyway" 125
Decline 130
The Second Camp 132
As Autumn Approached 142
A New Friend 146
Hope Rethought 151
Part III Of Death and a Dream
"They've Come for Teddi" 157
Waiting 160
A Child Dies 164
Come Saturday Morning 167
"Don't Hang On to Goodbye" 176
A Terrible Silence 185
To Go On Anyway 190
Part IV The Legacy of Teddi Mervis
A Place in the World 201
A Spiritual Journey 220
About the Author 235