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| ISBN-13: | 9781555919108 |
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| Publisher: | Chicago Review Press, Incorporated |
| Publication date: | 05/01/2013 |
| Pages: | 256 |
| Product dimensions: | 6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.90(d) |
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CHAPTER 1
THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERSE
Our house in Camagüey was named for a bar of soap. La Villita Candado, it was called, and Candado was a popular bath soap in the years before Fidel and his fierce compañeros swept down out of the Sierra Maestra and wholly changed our lives. The house had been a wedding gift to my parents from my paternal grandfather, who purchased it sometime in the 1940s from the family who had won it in a contest of sorts. As an advertising scheme, the soap company had built several modest villitas in cities across Cuba, announcing that a corresponding number of tokens allowing the bearer to claim one of the houses had been buried in bars of Candado. Sales of Candado soared; the tokens ultimately emerged from a few precious bars, and each of the houses retained minor renown for many years afterward in a nation where, for many people, owning a home was only a dream.
In my family's case, it wasn't our luck but our larger family's prosperity that had allowed us to make La Villita Candado our home. Good fortune, in fact, seemed to abandon us entirely beginning at a time when I was eight years old. And our prosperity — such as it was — was the thing that ultimately labeled us enemies of the people, set our small world on its end, and profoundly altered the life I otherwise might have lived.
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In my earliest years in Cuba, however, I was buoyed by the absolute certainty that the city of Camagüey — the third largest in my country — lay at the lush center of the universe. Our home was situated on Carretera Central, the busiest street in town, and the house and its ample garden were surrounded by a stucco and wrought-iron fence that made our home feel like a grand fortress to my two brothers and me. Despite our seasoned tree-climbing skills, we couldn't scale the high fence, yet we didn't mind. The fence simply seemed to define the boundaries of an amusement park that was exclusively ours, the twins — Roberto and Juan, whom we called Kiko and Toto — and I enchanted each day by the rainbow-striped lizards that raced to escape our grasps and the slippery tadpoles that swam in the huge earthenware pot called a tinajon, which captured rainwater from the roof. We built exotic cities for ourselves among the jungle of fruit trees and shrubs and vines, played cowboys and Indians, embarked on daring safaris, and fought great battles against injustice of every kind. We endlessly climbed the great mango tree — its highest branches, even back then, visible throughout the neighborhood — knocking its wonderful fruit to the ground with our fists, rocks, and sticks.
We marveled at our friend Marcelo, the gardener, a young campesino in his twenties already missing his front teeth. Like so many people from the country, Marcelo seemed to find a way to add the word chico, kid, to almost every sentence he spoke, and his accent was thick enough that sometimes we simply guessed at what he was saying. Yet he was lithe and strong and adept — the kind of young man boys like us couldn't help but be fascinated by — and the fact that he used his machete to cut the lawn rather than the mower my father provided was proof to the three of us that he was a man of exceptional skills.
It may have been true throughout Cuba in those prerevolution years, but in our case at least, Marcelo and the others who worked for Mami and Papi were woven tightly into the broad fabric of our family. We all were related somehow, if only by our daily proximity to each other and the fact that all of us — boys and servants alike — depended for our survival on my father's business acumen and my mother's complex kinds of acceptance. Our nannies, Romelia and her daughter-in-law Emilita; Gladis the cook; Ismaela, Felix, and El Negrito Juan — the three of them having worked for my grandparents since Mami herself was a child — were people with whom I shared both love and relation, despite the fact that, in the case of Gladis and El Negrito Juan, it was a kinship plainly complicated by color.
Like the United States, Cuba had been stricken by the blight of racism since the earliest days of the slave trade, and because Gladis was black, none of us considered it unacceptable that she was confined to the kitchen and virtually never ventured into other parts of the house. Her coal-skinned boyfriend wasn't allowed to enter the house at all, and I remember him often waiting patiently for her to come out the back door and join him for a bit, the two of them stealing kisses until the teasing my brothers and I made them suffer — as well perhaps as the demands of our dinner — would send him off to another Cuba, one the three of us knew nothing about. El Negrito Juan, who lived in a tiny room at the back of my grandfather's medical clinic, would seldom venture farther than our front porch. He was a kind and gentle man who had been devoted to my mother since she was a small child, and the two of them shared an important bond, one that somehow cut through the prejudices and terrible affronts of that era.
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My mother was still a small girl when people began to comment about her extraordinary beauty. Marta Teresa Ramos Almendros, they would insist, surely would grow up to be the most beautiful woman in Camagüey, and their predictions proved correct. But Mami's charm, her social graces, her family's wealth and position, and her beauty — the attributes that had drawn my father to her — masked a deep insecurity and a strangely incurable loneliness, the products of wounds she had begun to suffer early in life.
She was born in 1924 to Juan Ramos Garcia, a well-respected Camagüey physician, and Rufina Almendros Boza, herself a storied beauty from one of the city's wealthiest families. My grandfather owned a large home near the city center, one that housed his medical clinic as well, and my grandmother decorated the house with furniture, paintings, and statues she imported from Europe. Dr. Ramos and his young wife wanted for nothing; they led a charmed life, and they lavished attention on their two children, no doubt in part because my grandfather had lost his own mother when he was just five, was raised by an aunt when his father no longer would do so once his wife was dead, and struggled to achieve success, working his way through medical school, then serving as an army doctor for many years before he married Rufina and opened his private practice.
I often suspect that great equalizing forces exist that do not allow even the most fortunate people to live their lives free of suffering, and no doubt that lesson first came to me in the stories I heard from my mother about how her family's world shattered when she was five — at the time when her younger brother, Juan Benito, contracted a disease Dr. Ramos diagnosed as polio.
Juan Benito, called Nene, or Baby, was only three when his father — a man quite confident in the belief that his intelligence and the sheer force of his will were enough to allow him to accomplish virtually anything — first began to restrain the whole of his son's small and twisted body in steel and plaster casts for months at a time in hopes that the confinement would prevent his bones from growing crooked in ways they had dramatically begun to do. My grandfather studied his son's condition exhaustively, tried every treatment about which he read, and experimented with some of his own design, yet always without success. Each time he cut the casts away, Nene's body had grown more twisted, and with the failure of each successive treatment, my grandparents began to more sadly confront a heartrending truth: Nene could not be cured.
To help compensate for their son's suffering, his parents increasingly focused their lives on him, virtually never letting him out of their sight, both of them sinking into terrible depression and despair as their son grew ever more disabled. And in much the same way that my grandfather had been orphaned by his mother's death and his father's subsequent abandonment of him, Mami, in turn, was forsaken by her parents' desperation over their son's awful fate. The two children adored each other, and both had brought their family great joy, but increasingly my grandparents made Nene and his suffering the totality of their world, one that contained very little room for my mother. Of course, she too was traumatized by what Nene was forced to endure, yet she was still a young girl, and she found it almost impossible to understand why her brother's disease also seemed to push her parents ever farther away from her.
Ismaela, her nanny, Felix, a lab technician in Dr. Ramos's clinic, and Juan, a custodial jack-of-all-trades, did their collective best to offer Mami the love and attention she longed for — tender, parental kinds of care that extended well into the 1950s, by which time she had become a mother herself — yet despite their best efforts, they could not fully replace the love my grandparents now seemed incapable of offering her.
As she grew older and the measure of her beauty became apparent to everyone who met her, the blessing of her good looks was also transformed into something of a curse, not only for Marta, but for her parents as well. People cruelly — and all-too openly — referred to the two Ramos children as "the beauty and the beast"; the recognition of their daughter's loveliness only added to her parents' anguish over the continuing physical deterioration of their son, and it grew increasingly difficult for Marta herself to accept her beauty without feeling deeply guilty as well. Why should good fortune have come to her and not to her beloved brother? How could her future burn bright at the same time his was growing dimmer, his body becoming ever more twisted, misshapen, and repellent to others?
To Marta, there simply seemed to be no meaningful explanation. Her parents did not notice her distress, let alone attempt to console her; friends and extended family members would invariably express delight in her beauty and sympathy for her brother in the same breath, and inevitably in my mother's mind, the two circumstances became maliciously linked. Still a young girl, the only thing she believed she could do in response was to dedicate herself to filling with joy those aspects of Nene's life that had been left empty by his disability. Instinctively, she was sure she could never be a good enough sister, but her attempt to succeed nonetheless became her consuming passion. She focused all her energies and activities on her brother, trying her best to make each day as entertaining and as fun for him as possible. She pointedly declined invitations from friends that weren't extended to her brother as well, and she silently acquiesced when her parents announced one day that she could no longer bring girlfriends to their home: Nene might develop a crush on one of them, they whispered to her, then suffer the added humiliation of a broken heart. It was that kind of obsessive protectiveness that came to consume their home. The family's pleasures were most often forced, even counterfeit; the daily tensions grew huge, and although Nene's worsening condition was impossible to ignore, everyone nonetheless rigidly refused to admit that anything other than polio might be the cause of their collective pain.
My grandfather was a dedicated and, by all accounts, capable physician; he worked tirelessly, if in vain, to help his son, and I'm sure he must have been at least privately aware that Nene, in fact, suffered a more rare and insidious disease than polio. Although Nene would never have a definitive diagnosis, by the time he was a teenager he was terribly disabled and disfigured, and surely calling the disease polio — one common in that era and which was acquired rather than congenital — was an attempt both to make Nene himself feel less like a freak and to lessen the family's sense of shame.
It may have been because of that same kind of shame, or the cumulative effects of his stress or simply his ongoing grief, but whatever the cause, eventually my grandfather began to seek comfort in the arms of women other than his wife. His absences from home grew lengthy and impossible to ignore; rumors of his liaisons began to circulate openly, and they eventually reached my grandmother's ears, of course. Rufina became obsessed with finding proof of her husband's indiscretions; she threatened divorce — something quite scandalous in the Cuba of the 1940s — and she and her husband began to fight violently, Rufina screaming at her husband at the top of her lungs, breaking objects the two of them treasured, and terrifying her teenage children. On the day my mother came home and shared the news with Nene that, while out in the streets of Camagüey, she had inadvertently spotted their father arm in arm with a woman much younger than him, the two children were terrified that it would be only a matter of time before their parents divorced and they were abandoned by their philandering father.
Despite those tensions and the challenges she faced, there were also many pleasures in my mother's life, and among the most important were the weeks she and Nene spent each summer at the family's sugar plantation near the city of Cienfuegos, on the southern coast. Away from their parents, the two lived free from the myriad rules, regulations, and slow-burning anger that filled their days in Camagüey; no one who looked after them on the plantation worried unnecessarily about Nene's fragility, and the children were free to play with whomever they chose. And as Marta grew older, on languorous summer evenings she would go to dance halls in Cienfuegos with fellow teenagers from the plantation, where boys would line up to take turns dancing with the patron's beautiful daughter.
In time, young men began to pay similar kinds of attention to her back home in Camagüey. Although never a spectacular student, she loved to paint and sculpt, and she adopted an unmistakably artistic flare in her dress as well. The beautiful Marta was gregarious and charismatic, and by the time of her quinceañera, the celebration of her formal coming-out on her fifteenth birthday, she had emerged as a belle of Camagüey's social scene. At each elaborate fiesta and at social events of every kind, she was the center of attention, something she had longed to be in the years since her parents had stopped seeing her when her brother's needs began to grow great.
Mami was intoxicated by people's fascination with her, and their enthrallment seemed to make her feel whole. Buoyed by the press of attention people paid her in the ensuing years, she went to college, earned a degree in education, then worked as an assistant in my grandfather's clinic, and began to imagine finding the perfect husband — a stable, ambitious, and good man who would shower her with the kind of love her parents never had. But deep inside, the injuries her parents' abandonment caused didn't heal. She now incessantly sought out acceptance from others, and no amount of attention ever seemed enough for her. Like her mother, she could quickly become enraged; she regularly suffered severe bouts of depression, and something else troubled her profoundly as well: although she very much wanted children of her own one day, children whom she knew she could love and nurture in every important way, she was secretly afraid that Nene's disease was hereditary and that one of her children — or all of them, perhaps — would be born a beast as well.
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My mother was twenty-five when the twins arrived. Kiko (Roberto) was born first by fifteen minutes. Being nominally the elder would always allow him to claim a bit of seniority — and it meant that he was the one who received my father's name, of course — but the price he immediately paid was the bumps and bruises he suffered in passing first through the birth canal. In addition to being traumatized by that passage, he was skinny and small and certainly not a pretty baby. His incrementally younger brother Juan, in contrast, slid out easily and without a scratch. Named Juan Antonio after his two grandfathers, Toto was big and strong and healthy in every way, and it seemed obvious that he had been stealing more than his share of the sustenance in his mother's womb.
News about the twins' appearance on the scene spread rapidly throughout Camagüey, and everywhere my parents went people were eager to have a look at Roberto and Marta's fine new chicos gemelos. Invariably, they were impressed by what a beautiful baby Toto was; it was Toto to whom people made eyes and who they wanted to hold — and their fascinations with only one of his sons annoyed the hell out of my father. He responded by lavishing his attentions solely on his namesake son, doing his best to ensure that Kiko received as much care and affection as Toto did, doing so often enough that soon my mother was certain that Kiko was my father's favorite.
A year and half later, I slithered kicking and screaming from my mother's womb. I was fat as a Buddha and a mama's boy right off the bat, crying whenever I lost sight of her, demanding her constant attention, and predictably, I suppose, my father grew convinced that my mother cared more for me than her two older sons. The truth was that although both denied having a favorite child, each of my parents did, and for Kiko and me, being allied with a particular parent — whether we had chosen to be or not — would prove to be a painful curse.
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Table of Contents
1 The Center of the Universe 1
2 A Wonderful Time to Be Alive 29
3 The Bearded Ones 39
4 La Pescera 55
5 Lost Boys 67
6 Boxing for Cuba 79
7 Betrayals 91
8 An American World 103
9 A Desperate Man's Eyes 121
10 Cheering for Cassius Clay 139
11 The First Cuban on the Moon 155
12 Burial Grounds 171
13 Volver a Cuba 203
14 The House and the Mango Tree 219
A Final Word 245
About the Author 248