Before the Ever After

Before the Ever After

by Jacqueline Woodson
Before the Ever After

Before the Ever After

by Jacqueline Woodson

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Overview

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ZJ’s dad has always been a hero. As a beloved pro football star, he has been a source of pride and inspiration to his neighborhood and adoring fans — but now he is having trouble remembering it all. As old head injuries start to change the man and father he has always known, ZJ grapples to hold on to the past and what it means for the future. A heartfelt story of loss and longing, award-winning author Jacqueline Woodson’s captivating novel-in-verse explores the consequences and true cost of injury on Black bodies.

 

WINNER OF THE NAACP IMAGE AWARD

WINNER OF THE CORETTA SCOTT KING AUTHOR AWARD

National Book Award winner Jacqueline Woodson's stirring novel-in-verse explores how a family moves forward when their glory days have passed and the cost of professional sports on Black bodies.


For as long as ZJ can remember, his dad has been everyone's hero. As a charming, talented pro football star, he's as beloved to the neighborhood kids he plays with as he is to his millions of adoring sports fans. But lately life at ZJ's house is anything but charming. His dad is having trouble remembering things and seems to be angry all the time. ZJ's mom explains it's because of all the head injuries his dad sustained during his career. ZJ can understand that—but it doesn't make the sting any less real when his own father forgets his name. As ZJ contemplates his new reality, he has to figure out how to hold on tight to family traditions and recollections of the glory days, all the while wondering what their past amounts to if his father can't remember it. And most importantly, can those happy feelings ever be reclaimed when they are all so busy aching for the past?

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780399545436
Publisher: Penguin Young Readers Group
Publication date: 09/01/2020
Pages: 176
Sales rank: 357,016
Product dimensions: 8.30(w) x 5.60(h) x 0.90(d)
Lexile: 780L (what's this?)
Age Range: 10 - 13 Years

About the Author

About The Author
Jacqueline Woodson (www.jacquelinewoodson.com) is the recipient of a 2023 Guggenheim Foundation Fellowship, a 2020 MacArthur Fellowship, the 2020 Hans Christian Andersen Award, the 2018 Astrid Lindgren Memorial Award, and the 2018 Children's Literature Legacy Award. She was the 2018-2019 National Ambassador for Young People's Literature, and in 2015, she was named the Young People's Poet Laureate by the Poetry Foundation. She received the 2014 National Book Award for her New York Times bestselling memoir Brown Girl Dreaming, which was also a recipient of the Coretta Scott King Award, a Newbery Honor, the NAACP Image Award, and a Sibert Honor. She wrote the adult books Red at the Bone, a New York Times bestseller, and Another Brooklyn, a 2016 National Book Award finalist. Born in Columbus, Ohio, Jacqueline grew up in Greenville, South Carolina, and Brooklyn, New York, and graduated from college with a B.A. in English. She is the author of dozens of award-winning books for young adults, middle graders, and children; among her many accolades, she is a four-time Newbery Honor winner, a four-time National Book Award finalist, and a three-time Coretta Scott King Award winner. Her books include Coretta Scott King Award winner Before the Ever After, New York Times bestsellers The Day You Begin and Harbor Me; The Other Side, Each Kindness, Caldecott Honor book Coming On Home Soon; Newbery Honor winners Feathers, Show Way, and After Tupac and D Foster; and Miracle's Boys, which received the LA Times Book Prize and the Coretta Scott King Award. Jacqueline is also a recipient of the Margaret A. Edwards Award for lifetime achievement for her contributions to young adult literature and a two-time winner of the Jane Addams Children's Book Award. She lives with her family in Brooklyn, New York.

Read an Excerpt

Memory like a Movie
 
The memory goes like this:
 
Ollie’s got the ball and he’s running across my yard when 
Dad comes out of nowhere,
soft tackles him to the ground.
Then everyone is cheering and laughing because 
we didn’t even know my dad was home.
 
I thought you had a game, I say, grabbing him.
It’s a half hug, half tackle, but the other guys—Darry and Daniel—hop on too 
and Ollie’s escaped, so he jumps on top of all of us jumping on my dad.
 
Yeah, Mr. J., Darry says. I thought we’d be watching you 
on TV tonight.

 
Coach giving me a break, my daddy says. He climbs out 
from under,
shaking us off like we’re feathers, not boys.
 
Ah man! Darry says.
Yeah, we all say. Ah man!

Sometimes a player needs to rest, 
Daddy says. 
He looks at each of us for a long time.
A strange look. Like he’s just now seeing us.

Then he tosses the ball so far, we can’t even see it anymore. 

And my boys say Ah man, you threw it too far!
while I go back behind the garage where 
we have a whole bunch of footballs 
waiting and ready for when my daddy sends one into the abyss.


Everybody’s Looking for a Hero  
 
Once, when I was a little kid, 
this newscaster guy asked me if 
my dad was my biggest hero.
No, 
I said. My dad’s just my dad.
 
There was a crowd of newscasters circling around me, 
all of them with their microphones aimed at my face. Maybe I was nervous, I don’t remember now.
 
Maybe it was after his first Super Bowl win, his ring 
new and shining on his finger. Me just a little kid,
so the ring was this whole glittering world, 
gold and black and diamonds against my daddy’s brown hand.
 
I remember hearing the reporter say 
Listen to those fans! Looks like everybody’s 
found their next great hero.

 
And now I’m thinking back to those times when the cold wind whipped around me and Mom 
as we sat wrapped in blankets, yelling Dad’s name, 
so close to the game, we could see the angry spit 
spraying from the other team’s coach’s lips.
So close, we could see the sweat on my daddy’s neck.

And all the people around us cheering,
all the people going around calling out his number, 
calling out his name.
 
Zachariah 44! Zachariah 44!
 
Is your daddy your hero? the newscaster had asked me.
 
And all these years later, just like that day, I know 
he’s not my hero,
he’s my dad, which means 
he’s my every single thing.


Day after the Game  
 
Day after the game and Daddy gets out of bed slow. 
His whole body, he says,
is 223 pounds of pain from toes to knees, from knees to ribs, 
every single hit he took yesterday 
remembered in the morning.


Before the Ever After  
 
Before the ever after, there was Daddy driving 
to Village Ice Cream on a Saturday night in July before preseason training.
 
Before the ever after, there was Mom in the back seat 
letting me ride up front, me and Daddy having Man Time together 
waving to everyone who pointed at our car and said That’s him!
 
Before the ever after, the way people said
That’s him! sounded like a cheer.
 
Before the ever after, the people pointing 
were always smiling.
 
Before the ever after, Daddy’s hands didn’t always tremble 
and his voice didn’t shake and his head didn’t hurt all the time.
 
Before the ever after, there were picnics 
on Sunday afternoons in Central Park 
driving through the tunnel to get to the city 
me and Daddy making up songs.
 
Before the ever after, there were sandwiches 
on the grass near Strawberry Fields chicken salad and barbecue beef 
and ham with apples and Brie there were dark chocolates with almonds and 
milk chocolates with coconut and fruit and us just laughing and laughing.
 
Before the ever after, there was the three of us 
and we lived happily before the ever after.


Daniel  
 
In second grade, Daniel walked over to me, Ollie and Darry, 
said You guys want to race from here to the tree?
When he lost, he laughed and didn’t even care, 
just high-fived Darry, who always wins every race every time and said
You got feet like wings, bruh.
 
Then he got on his bike and we knew 
he wasn’t regular. He was fearless.
 
Even back then, he could already do things on a bike that a bike wasn’t made for doing— 
popping wheelies and spinning and standing up on the seat 
while holding on to the handlebars and speeding down the steepest hills in town.
 
Me, Darry and Ollie used to call ourselves Tripod 
cuz the three us came together like that.
 
But when we met Daniel, we became the Fantastic Four.
 
And even after he broke his arm when he jumped a skate park ramp right into a wall, 
he didn’t stop riding.
He said My cast is like a second helmet,
held it high in the air with the unbroken arm holding the handlebars and then not holding them and Daniel flying 
around the park like some kid gravity couldn’t mess with.
While me and Darry and Ollie watched him amazed. 

And terrified.


ZJ  
 
I used to wonder who I’d be if “Zachariah 44” Johnson 
wasn’t my daddy.
First time people who know even a little bit about football meet me, 
it’s like they know him, not me. To them, 
I’m Zachariah’s son.
The tight end guy’s kid.
I’m Zachariah Johnson Jr. ZJ. I’m the one 
whose daddy plays pro ball. I’m the tall kid with my daddy’s same broad shoulders. I’m the one 
who doesn’t dream of going pro.
 
Music maybe.
But not football.
 
Still, even at school, feels like my dad’s in two places 
at once—dropping me off out front, saying
Learn lots, little man, then walking into the classroom ahead of me.
I mean, not him but his shadow. And me almost invisible 
inside it.
 
Except to my boys who see me walking into the classroom and say

What’s up, ZJ?
Your mom throw any cookies in your lunch? 
Then all three of them open their hands 
beneath their desks so that when the teacher’s back is turned 

I can sneak them one.


You Love a Thing?  
 
Ever since I was a little kid,
I’ve loved football, my daddy told me. 
Through every broken toe and cracked rib 
and jammed finger

and slam to the shoulder 
and slam to the head, I still loved it.

 
You got something you love, little man? 
Then you good.

You love food? You cook.
You love clothes? You design.
You love the wind and water? You sail.
 
Me, my daddy said,
I love everything about the game. 
Even the smell of the ball.

 
Then he laughed, said
Imagine loving something so much, you love 
the smell of it?

 
It smells like leather and dirt and sweat and new snow.
I love football with all
of my senses. Love the taste and feel 
of the air in my mouth

running with the ball on a cold day. Love the smell
of the ball when I press it to my face
and the smell of the field right after it rains.
 
I love the way the sky looks as we stare up at it
while some celebrity sings “The Star-Spangled Banner.” 
Love the sound of the crowd cheering us on.

 
When you love a thing, little man, my dad said,
you gotta love it with everything you got.
Till you can’t even tell where that thing you love begins 
and where you end.


Who We Are & What We Love  
 
Ollie divides fractions in his head,
can multiply them too—gives you the answer while 
you’re still trying to write down the problem, knows 
so much about so much but doesn’t show off about knowing.
 
Darry—besides running fast, he can dance. Get the music 
going and my boy moves like water flowing.
All smooth like that.
 
Daniel’s super chill, says stuff like
You okay, my man? You need to talk?
And really means it. And really listens.
Calls his bike a Magic Broom, spins it in so many circles 
we all get dizzy, but not Daniel,
who bounces the front tire back to earth 
without even blinking,
says That was for all of y’all who are stuck on the ground.
 
Me, I play the guitar. Mostly songs 
that come into my head. Music is always circling my brain. Hard to explain 
how songs do that.
But when I play them, everything 
makes some kind of strange sense like 
my guitar has all the answers.

When I sing, the songs feel 
as magic as Daniel’s bike as brilliant as Ollie’s numbers 
as smooth as Darry’s moves as good as the four of us hanging out 
on a bright cold Saturday afternoon.
 
It feels right 
and clear 
and always.

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