Table of Contents
Listen 1
Music in the Dart of the Mind
Birthplace 5
Idealising the Unattainable Can Begin Very Early 6
If Your Father Damaged You 7
His Mother Warms His Feet on a Boat 9
Home Town 10
On Not Needing Other People 12
Growing Up with Beethoven 15
In the Orchestra Pit 17
Meeting Mozart 18
You Rescue Your Father from Jail 19
The Memento 20
The Boy on Dragon Rock 22
Virtuoso
City of Music 25
What Could Go Wrong? 27
Earthquake 28
To Be Played with the Utmost Delicacy 29
Moonlight Sonata 31
The Jealous Demon 32
Julie 33
He Takes Rooms in a Country Village to Rest His Ears 34
Human Fire 35
Take This Cup from Me 36
A Flute of Lilac Wood 38
Until It Please the Fates to Break the Thread 39
Hero
Eroica 43
Letters to Josephine 44
The Shadow Behind the Door 48
Wine of the Heart 51
Stained Manuscript 54
On Cushioning Your Ears in a Bombardment 55
Therese 56
Looking Out of a Back Window 57
The Vulnerability of Violins 59
Meeting of the Waters 61
The Pencil 62
Forever Yours, Forever Mine, Forever Us 63
You Must Not Be Human
Prayer on Burying a Flame 67
Three Days 69
Girl on a Sofa 70
India Dreams 71
To the Distant Beloved 72
The Battle for Karl 74
First Entry in a Conversation Book 75
In the Lydian Mode 77
On Opening the Manuscript of Opus 131 In the Music Archive, Krakow 79
The Rauhenstein Ruins 81
Breaking Axle 83
Musica Humana 86
Life-Notes: A Coda 89
A Selection of His Works 123
Further Reading 127
Acknowledgements 128