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| ISBN-13: | 9780702252501 |
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| Publisher: | University of Queensland Press |
| Publication date: | 01/01/2015 |
| Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 320 |
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The Accidental Soldier
By John Charalambous
University of Queensland Press
Copyright © 2006 John CharalambousAll rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-0-7022-5250-1
CHAPTER 1
Three men, nominally soldiers, stroll back in the failing light. Sleet flickers at their faces, but they are warm within their greatcoats and appreciative of being, for a few freakish moments, no one's special responsibility. The pretence of freedom is there to enjoy. Besides, if they get back too soon they'll almost certainly be given a job. So they dawdle, confident that if challenged they could mount a case. After all, they're returning from a legitimate task – constructing shelves in a medical store. Three days in all. Of course they strung it out.
Though relative newcomers to France, they are fast learners, more or less adept at the art of ducking and dodging. When their sergeant bawls them out they'll blame the illogical layout of Base Depot. And it's true: the camp is a labyrinth. If they could go conveniently as the crow flies, through several tall fences, through the field prison and a labour compound, they would be back at the bakery in no time – a walk of five hundred yards. But as it is they must go in the opposite direction, to the hospital gate.
Their boots crunch on the hard snow, sinking a little with each step so that it's like walking on beach sand. For Harry Lambert this is no longer a novelty. In Australia he learnt about European snow from chocolate-boxes. To see and feel it for the first time was arresting, for about five minutes. Then it was plain miserable.
'Nice while it lasted,' says Aubrey Brett. He is the shortest of the three, bug-eyed and plump. The men call him Bunter.
'There are carpentry units,' says Natty Mills, a recently arrived boy of eighteen. 'A bloke could get himself transferred.'
'You know what you'd be doing there, don't you?' says Bunter.
'What?'
'Making coffins.'
Mills doesn't like to argue, but it's clear he has his doubts. Coffins are just one of many possibilities. He looks to Harry, who is more than twice his age, for an authoritative opinion. Harry is silent. Early in their brief friendship Mills showed him a photograph of his brothers and sisters, all broad-faced and pale as if deprived of light by the whopping trees of their Gippsland hills.
Emerging from among the timber huts, the men cut across the open paddock. Surprisingly, there is still a convalescent moving slowly near the perimeter fence. Harry resists the impulse to look away, knowing it's better to be ready with a cheery word. But the man isn't a cheery sight: face like a skinned rabbit, bluish in the cold. He crooks his dented head into the hollow of his collarbone and shudders on his crutch.
'His dancing days are done,' says Bunter.
Mills disapproves. One day he might tell Bunter to shut up, as most people do.
'Chin up, mate,' Bunter hollers into the wind, apparently unaware that it might be construed as a taunt. The convalescent swivels on his crutch to give them a long agate-eyed look. He bares his teeth in an ambiguous smile.
Mills surprises Harry with a quiet nudge. 'I'd shoot myself rather than come back like that.'
At the gate they present their passes to the provosts. 'Field Bakeries South,' a Red Cap reads aloud. He looks them over dismissively. Cooks and dough-boys. The sort that don't bite back.
'Yeah, go on – home to mother.'
'I'll give you mother!' says Bunter, but skipping away so the Red Caps grin.
Back in barracks, after Parade and grub, Privates Lambert and Mills squat to clean their mess-tins at the outdoor pump. They are alone and the youth catches Harry with an earnest look: 'You've never been in the line?'
Harry guesses he's remembering the man with the skinned face. It's not an impertinent or a reproachful question, just youth referring to supposed experience. He has to admit he's been no nearer the front than Amiens, a few hours between trains. Mills is understandably disappointed. He wants to know about killing, and how to subdue his terror.
Harry would like to help. While almost wholly ignorant of warfare, he knows a thing or two about terror – how to hold it in, how to panic unobtrusively. He has had many provocations, from Uncle Lew's lurid stories to his first astonished awareness of distant artillery fire (actual shells, actual death!). His will is inclined to flicker, to go out altogether for a split second or longer. So far it has always reignited, and that's what people see, the resurrected Harry Lambert, and generally without any inkling he has repeatedly collapsed.
He can think of only one recent instance of an outsider seeing through to his timid heart. At a training camp outside Melbourne there had been an instructor who'd hated him with a passion. Not a first, but still a shock. Sergeant Cairns was undersized and elderly – a silver-haired terrier with a dirty turn of phrase: 'Lambert, you big bum-fucker! Where were you in '15?'
Harry tried to explain: his age ... sick and dependent mother ...
But the terrier had the scent of something sly and despicable. On route marches he flung pebbles at Harry's big lumbering body for no better reason than it amused him. 'I'm awake to you, Lambert!'
Awake to what? That he would never be a good soldier? That he held himself distinct?
The sergeant had ideas of reshaping him. His method was simple. He denied him leave and set him the solitary chore of honing his bayonet to a razor edge. Before long Harry was rehearsing the sensations of sudden death, because you can't hone a bayonet and not contemplate the damage it must do to a man's belly. He couldn't conceive of an enemy belly, only his own. Rasping metal on metal, he considered how the weapon would penetrate his softness; how it would pierce the gut and spongy organs that were as much the centre of his being, his essential self, as his flinching mind. The lesson he took from this, if he didn't already know it, was that the army was a sort of suicide. At the time he didn't much care. He supposed it was because his mother wasn't long dead.
But none of this helps Mills, who seems to believe there is no steadier man than Harold Lambert. The youth scours his mess-tin with two gritty fingers, not exactly waiting for a reassuring word, but as if he expects something of the older man's apparent self-possession to rub off. Harry is uneasy but also sorry for him.
'I don't know about you, Natty, but I'm in no hurry to get shot at. They can keep their blood and carnage.'
'But if you've never seen it ...'
'Don't want to. I'm comfy back here. I had a little taste in Britain. A mule. I saw a mule get his innards blown out. That cured me of any curiosity for battle.'
Mills shakes the drips from his mess-tin. He nods politely. Harry doesn't continue. He's afraid he's made too much of a small thing. Yet he remembers the mule very clearly – an ugly animal, rusty-looking with a black and hairy mouth. They were out on Salisbury Plain. The exercise was said to simulate an advance behind a protective barrage. Two antiquated guns fired blanks to give proceedings the stink and din of authenticity. Gathered with his unit on a slight rise, Harry watched another group move in formation, each man equidistant from his neighbour, through a snowy corridor bounded by a river and a line of smoke flares. Fifty yards to his right a team of four mules, whose role it was to haul the guns, stood in their traces. They seemed quite indifferent to the racket, the nearest of the lead pair intent on niggling its partner. Then, the instant Harry turned again to the field, a gun broke up – an abrupt crack quite distinguishable from the uniform din. After a moment's indecision the men ran to help the crew, vanishing into the smoke. Harry supposes he followed a few paces. But then he froze. He remembers the terror of not knowing what the smoke might conceal, remembers turning back, only to see the mules, one with its belly pouring out onto the snow. Still upright, it stumbled and stamped, pulling at the others, who went a little way in response then resisted. He can still see its entrails, smooth and marbled, steaming in the cold air – a paler vapour than the prevailing smoke and fumes. Astonishingly, the mule didn't scream or whinny. Such a gaping wound and no apparent pain! He wondered how long it could continue to stand there before dropping.
And then the men returned at a jog, exultant, shouting 'Bloody miracle!' because no one was hurt. This was when it fell, collapsing sideways and dragging at the others – living, then dead.
CHAPTER 2Mrs Sylvia Wadley,
30 Sargood Street,
Hampton,
Melbourne, Victoria,
July 27, 1968
Dear Julie,
What a lovely surprise to receive your letter – Liz Lambert's girl! I remember your mother very well. I think that as a young girl I was at her christening, although I can't be sure. I might even have a picture. There are so many photos in Mum's old albums that I can't put a name or a date to. It's dreadful when the old people go. Everything is lost. I think you are very good to put on this reunion thing. And it's a wonderful idea to honour old Harry. Who else will remember him if not us? I must say I thought of him a lot when Jack was away in New Guinea. I didn't like to. I couldn't help it. You know you might lose them, but you keep saying: not me, not us, not my Jack. Be that as it may, it happens. Men get killed. It's very cruel. I don't remember the memorial service for Harry. I do remember them saying he got shot and drowned in the mud. I'm not sure whether it was Gallipoli or France. I think probably Gallipoli because that's where they came in off the boats. The old people would know. And there are records of course. Uncle Dick is still hanging on, eighty-five or more. He'll be able to tell you. I suppose there will be a great to-do everywhere, and not just with the Lamberts. I read in the paper that the government is planning a big commemoration. I don't remember the armistice, but you can't let fifty years go by without some sort of hoorah. The old ones deserve it. If you like I can get up and say a word about Harry, just a few things that stick in the mind. He wasn't always dour. He could be quite the clown. I wonder, do they still make those neenish tarts? Those little fruit pies with pink and white icing? I think they do. According to Harry, they came from a country called Neen. I believed him. I believed him until I was nineteen or twenty, long after he was dead. Also, I saw him in several pantomimes and funny talking parts. I saw him play a Chinese emperor who chopped off people's heads. You need something happy to remember, don't you think? I sent him letters and presents – we did it for all the uncles. There are too many sad stories. When Jack and his service mates get together it's always sad stories. They get drunk and weepy. I'm not saying hide the beer. God forbid! But these occasions cry out for a bit of levity. I'm sure you'll manage things wonderfully, a person with your schooling. You can bet on me and Jack being there, and maybe my daughter and one or two of the boys as well. The photos in the big envelope are for the display. Please treat them like gold. I don't have copies. You should also try my sister Ruby. She will certainly have something to say, although I doubt she'll be well enough to come down. I've enclosed the address. Thank you for your efforts. It's lovely to see you taking an interest,
best wishes,
your Aunty Sylvie and Uncle Jack
PROJECT NOTES, July 29, 1968
Mum will love this one, even if she can't say for certain whether they have met as adults. She remembers, or imagines she remembers, the aunts and uncles hovering benevolently over her childhood and would like me to bring them back, dead ones included. Doesn't matter that Aunt Sylvie was never one of them. Aunt Sylvie is almost the right vintage, a little young perhaps, but a true Lambert and a relic of a better world. What I find surprising, these relics aren't all geographically distant. Mum is suddenly ashamed to think that there are Lamberts on the opposite side of Melbourne and we have never bothered to say hello. I told her, 'Write to them, if it's so important to you.' She wouldn't. I don't know what constrained her, perhaps the assumption that I would do it for her. I wonder: when she reads Sylvie's words will she recognise herself? I had no idea I would find my own mother in various guises. The same concerns, the same quirks of speech, the same careless notions of history.
Photos mostly of Sylvie's Hampton family. Weatherboard house going up amid the tea-tree, when the suburb was new. Kids under big hats. Her Jack sitting proudly behind the wheel of a friend's Riley. There is only one item from the first war: a 1916 postcard from old Uncle Dick in a Cairo hospital. Pyramids and camels. He writes of an ulcerated leg-wound. Mentions his brothers.
There is nothing by, from or about Uncle Harry, which is disappointing. If Sylvie and the other young women wrote to him, surely he wrote back. I want to hear his voice.
CHAPTER 3During his time in France, Harry has come to understand his mother's antipathy to snow. She called it the white wolf at the door, though as a bookbinder's daughter growing up in the East Anglian city of Ipswich she can't have suffered too many deprivations. His father, on the other hand, had dug mangels from the rime-crusted fields of his village. He told horror stories of frostbite and fingers reduced to stumps. He recalled Christmas as a hungry time – 'and none of your holly and mistletoe and threepenny pieces in the pudding!'
Harry doesn't go hungry. At the Australian army bakery at Rouen the cooks serve up roast beef and flaming 'plum duff'. The mess-hut is hung with Union Jacks and ruffled crepe. The tables glitter. There is Castlemaine bitter and Rutherglen port and the faces of his companions are red and beaming. He tugs at bonbons and snorts at clever jokes and speeches, to all appearances a happy man. But it isn't the seasonal camaraderie that buoys him. He is planning a sortie into Rouen. He has applied for leave, though until now he hasn't been interested in sightseeing. The impetus was a little greeting card that arrived with the rest of his Christmas mail. It contained a pressed yellow rose from his garden. His great niece Sylvia wrote: 'Mademoiselle Elise Cordier that Aunt Sarah said was one of the best.' He pictured her not as a young woman but as the little girl she'd been in 1905, a year after his father's death. He wanted to weep, so intimately had she touched his longing for home – or for that imaginary home that no longer exists.
It brought back how Sarah, his mother, had coached the girl; how she had lifted Sylvie up onto her knee and demanded, 'Tell me the name of that there rose.'
Four-year-old Sylvie had been reluctant to guess. She sat gnawing her fist. Ma pouted and scoffed, saying that Sylvie must have been behind the door when the brains were given out.
'Captain Christy,' Sylvie at last summoned the courage.
'Captain Christy? No no, you're all mixed up. You're not like your Uncle Harry. Do you know when he was your age he could say the name of every lady and gentleman in the garden? His father made him a lesson of it. "What's that one, Harry-lad?" And Harry would say: "That there's General Jack." Or: "That there's Souvenir de la Reine de Anglestairs."'
The curriculum at Harry's inferior boarding school, where he'd passed his adolescent years, hadn't run to modern languages, but he knew that his father's French had been preposterous. With the exuberance of a man who came late to reading, Sammy Lambert had looked at the foreign names in catalogues and pronounced them as he saw fit. The upshot was that Harry and his mother were fluent in a secret gibberish.
'Ask your Uncle Harry, ask him that one there.'
They gazed up to where the rose overhung the verandah in sinuous zigzag canes. The new buds were egg-yolk yellow, the open blooms like straw-coloured crepe. This plant had a history. It was older than Harry. 'Sylvie, you must know her!'
'Oh yes, Sylvie,' said Sarah. 'Mademoiselle Elise! One of the best. See if you can remember. Mademoiselle Elise Cordier.' And she drilled the girl just as she and Sammy had once drilled their son. 'Mademoiselle Elise Cordier, Mademoiselle Elise Cordier ...'
In this way they had perpetuated Samuel Lambert's enthusiasms.
(Continues...)
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