After He Died

by Michael J. Malone

Overview

When a strange woman slips a note into grieving widow Paula's pocket at her husband's funeral, everything suggests that he was not all that he seemed ... A devastatingly moving, explosive psychological thriller from the international bestselling author of A Suitable Lie.

'Disturbing but compulsive ... I loved it' Martina Cole

'Bristling with unease, this is domestic noir at its very darkest, twisting the marriage thriller into a new and troubling shape' Eva Dolan

'Vivid, visceral and compulsive' Ian Rankin

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You need to know who your husband really was...

When Paula Gadd's husband of almost thirty years dies, just days away from the seventh anniversary of their son, Christopher's death, her world falls apart. Grieving and bereft, she is stunned when a young woman approaches her at the funeral service, and slips something into her pocket. A note suggesting that Paula's husband was not all that he seemed...

When the two women eventually meet, a series of revelations challenges everything Paula thought she knew, and it becomes immediately clear that both women's lives are in very real danger.

Both a dark, twisty slice of domestic noir and taut, explosive psychological thriller, After He Died is also a chilling reminder that the people we trust the most can harbour the deadliest secrets...

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Praise for Michael J. Malone

'Gripping and suspenseful fare that reinforces Malone's renown for producing psychological thrillers' Herald Scotland

'It's a tough high-wire act, balancing believability with surprise, but the author pulls it off with aplomb. Excellent stuff' Doug Johnstone, The Big Issue

'Michael J Malone has portrayed this beautifully and managed to get the balance just right ... A well-paced, excellent read' Promoting Crime

'After he Died is a fantastic read packed with engaging characters and a compelling narrative' CrimeSquad

'An explosive tale, one that takes hold, bites, and doesn't let go' LoveReading

'A stark, gripping storyline' Scots

'A fine, page-turning thriller' Daily Mail

'Original, engrossing and scary' The Times

'Brilliantly creepy' Daily Record

'Genuinely shocking' Crime by the Book

'Delightfully disturbing' Chapter in My Life

'Michael Malone has a way of telling a story that just leaves you more than a little disturbed yet breathless with admiration' Live & Deadly

'Enthralling, wonderful, intense, full of suspense and twists that had my head in a spin! Crime Book Junkie

'Michael J. Malone is quickly making his way up my list of favourite authors' Always Trust in Books

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781495629631
Publisher:	Orenda Books
Publication date:	07/30/2018
Sold by:	Barnes & Noble
Format:	eBook
Pages:	276
Sales rank:	436,658
File size:	522 KB

About the Author

Michael Malone is a prize-winning poet and author who was born and brought up in the heart of Burns' country. He has published over 200 poems in literary magazines throughout the UK, including New Writing Scotland, Poetry Scotland and Markings. Blood Tears, his bestselling debut novel won the Pitlochry Prize from the Scottish Association of Writers. Other published work includes: Carnegie's Call; A Taste for Malice; The Guillotine Choice; Beyond the Rage; The Bad Samaritan and Dog Fight. His psychological thriller, A Suitable Lie, was a number-one bestseller, and the critically acclaimed House of Spines and After He Died soon followed suit. A former Regional Sales Manager (Faber & Faber) he has also worked as an IFA and a bookseller. Michael lives in Ayr.

Read an Excerpt

CHAPTER 1

Through a medicated fog, Paula Gadd looked along the line of mourners waiting to greet her. It took her last scrap of energy not to tell them all to leave. Someone gripped her hand. A woman she didn't recognise; her face a twist of assumed empathy.

'I'm sorry for your loss,' the woman said.

Paula looked from the woman's surprisingly strong hand to the powdered lines around her mouth, caught a wave of her sickly perfume and managed a question:

'Who are you again?'

The woman gave a small nod, as if acknowledging that Paula's grief was making her momentarily senile, then moved on. The words Minister for Business nudged at her mind. Thomas knew all kinds of important people.

Thomas, her dead husband.

She was way too young to be a widow, wasn't she?

When she first met him he was Tommy, but his drive for success meant a return to the name on his birth certificate. You can't be informal, apparently, when you're aiming for the big bucks.

'I'm sorry for your loss,' the next person said. A man in a black suit. All these men in black suits were merging into one. Except, the bulb shape at the end of this guy's nose was threaded with veins; Paula couldn't take her eyes off them, following the lines as a blue one crossed a pink one.

Must be the drugs the doctor had given her, she thought. To be fair, the only way she could handle this service was through a haze. She took a breath in through her nose, as if sniffing for a reminder of the name of the drug printed on the small bottle. Whatever it was, she was immensely grateful.

'I'm sorry for your loss,' she aped the man. He cocked his head like a dog might, unsure he had heard what he had heard.

'I can only imagine what you are going through, dear.' His smile was limp, questioning: Don't you know who I am?

She was already onto the next person, her hand reaching out, but her mind now retreating from the line of people, all of them keen to demonstrate their support in her time of grief. All of them leaning on ceremony yet shying away from reality, grateful they weren't in her shoes. At this thought she looked down at her feet.

Size three Louboutins.

She had had a great time choosing them. Never thought that when she was handing over her credit card they'd be on her feet at Thomas's funeral.

Next in line was a couple in their seventies who looked like they'd been eating nothing but watery soup for the last thirty years – their faces stripped down to nothing but skin and sinew. And they looked so alike. Were they brother and sister? 'Thomas will be missed,' said the man.

'First you lose your only son,' said the woman. 'How can one person take all that grief ...?' She was silenced by a look from her husband. Paula decided they must be married. Who else but a spouse would look at you that way?

Already, she missed that way of looking. That knowing.

She ignored the comment from the woman. Pushed it to the back of her mind. That was seven years ago. Almost to the day.

That grief she wore like an old friend. A welcome reminder that Christopher had been in her life. This one was a new wound. Fresh. Gaping. A pain that plucked the air from her lungs.

Anyway, who were all these people? she wondered. And who decided we should line up like this at the end of a funeral service? Whoever they were, they were sick in the head. Without the chemicals soothing the barb and bite of her loss, this would have been enough to send her to the nearest psychiatric ward.

She'd always seen herself as part of a couple. A pair. Her identity was wrapped up in that idea. She loved being married. That it was Thomas was mostly a good thing, but the state of marriage was what really gave her satisfaction.

Even after thirty years she loved saying to salesmen, 'I'll have to speak to my husband first.'

Now she was in the singular.

Flying solo.

Well, not flying so much as drifting.

Adrift.

And heavy with regret that in the latter years she hadn't made more of an effort.

One more person and she was at the end of the line. Thank the good Lord, the line was running out of the sympathetic and suitably morose.

A young woman stepped forwards. Wide-brimmed hat, large sunglasses, thin nose, plump lips. A chin that almost came to a point. She offered an embrace. Confused, Paula leaned into it, finding that suddenly, surprisingly, human contact was needed. The woman, a girl really, touched her lips to the side of Paula's face.

The woman spoke in a whisper and Paula felt something being slid into the pocket of her jacket. What did she say? Paula heard her clearly, but the words were so out of context in the situation that she struggled to make sense of them.

She looked down to her pocket as if she was trying to work out what had just happened. She raised her eyes to question the girl, but she was already walking away as if desperate not to be stopped. Through the throng all Paula could see was a back view of her black hat and a fan of long, straight, blonde hair across her shoulders.

'Who ...' she turned to the man at her side, her husband's elder brother, Bill.

'That was tough, eh?' he asked, his hand light on her arm, his smile distorting his face. Then he turned away without waiting for her answer. Which figured. She'd always felt that Bill had little interest in her, and just over thirty years of knowing each other – twenty-nine of them in a marriage with his brother – had done nothing to soften that feeling. He must be pleased, Paula thought. At last he had a reason to ignore her.

Oh, get over yourself, Paula. Thomas always said she read way too much into things. The man was grieving as well, wasn't he?

The woman's voice echoed in her mind, but through the medication she couldn't make sense of her words – their incongruity. People were here to tell her how much they loved and admired Thomas, surely?

She craned her neck and looked around the milling mourners for the hat and the blonde hair, but she saw no sign of them. It was probably some young woman who had a fancy for Thomas – he was a handsome man after all and he did attract lots of admiring glances. As far as she was aware he never did anything to encourage them, though.

Whatever his faults, he was a one-woman man ... wasn't he?

Her knees gave, just a little, but she managed to right herself, managed not to fall to the floor in a heap. A wave of bone-aching loss crashed down on her and she allowed her hand to drop away from the pocket. If it was a note, she should simply crumple it up and throw it away, unread. Whatever it was, it was surely just a cruel joke.

Thomas. My Thomas. She recalled the moment – was it really just a few breaths ago when the curtains slid shut, hiding his ...? She couldn't bring herself to even think the word coffin.

She turned again to try and find the young woman. There was no sign of her, but her words repeated in Paula's mind.

'You need to know who your husband really was.'

CHAPTER 2

Father Joe, Thomas's younger brother, took her by the elbow.

'We need to go, Paula. The car's waiting.'

Again, she saw the curtains closing, imagined the fires lighting up, flames engulfing the coffin, and a sob burst from her mouth, for a moment clearing the drug mist in her mind. She stumbled, but Joe was there, helped her gather strength.

She looked into Joe's face, searching for signs of Thomas; saw them in the cast of his eyes, the line of his nose. But where his brother could, in recent times anyway, be withdrawn, she only ever sensed warmth from Joe; an openness to living and life.

'Waste of a good man,' she said, leaning into him.

'Yes. Far too young to be taken,' Joe answered.

'I'm talking about you, Father Joe.'

Joe snorted. This was an old conversation. 'By serving God I try to make lots of people happy.' And that was an old response.

'You and your organised religion,' she sighed, but she was aware she was dissembling. Perhaps if she focussed on something else, someone else, even for a moment, it would take away some of this pain.

'C'mon,' Joe said and pulled her into his side in half a hug. 'Sometime next week, I'll bring over a bottle of gin, we'll watch the sunset from your rooftop garden and we'll debate life in all its flavours.'

'Rooftop garden,' Paula said dismissively. 'It's a balcony with some potted plants.'

'That was always a surprise to me. How Tommy took to gardening,' Joe said with a sad smile.

'Helped him to think,' Paula said. 'It was a release from all the decisions he had to make every day.' Then the stray thought: who would make all those decisions now?

* * *

The funeral 'purvey' was being held at a city-centre hotel; a big shiny tribute to ambition at the side of the M8 as it shot through the city.

'Hate this place,' said Paula as the limousine drew up at the hotel entrance.

'Why choose it then?' asked Joe.

Paula shrugged. 'It seemed like a good idea at the time.'

'Think they might have vol-au-vents?' he asked, a smile laced through the question. He was remembering family get-togethers and his late mother's cooking. Pride of place at every supper was taken by vol-au-vents with creamy chicken. The rest of the world moved on to olives and Italian cold cuts, but old Mrs Gadd persisted with her volau-vents.

'God, I hope so,' said Paula, thankful for Joe's presence and his sense of humour. His experience was showing. He'd be going through this on a weekly basis, attending the funerals of his flock, doing his God's representative-onearth thing. She looked out of her side of the car, towards the hotel. Steeling herself.

'Let's go,' said Joe, placing a hand on hers. 'You'll be fine.'

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Inside, and up the wide staircase the suite set aside for their reception was already full. At the far side of the room it was ceiling-to-floor smoked glass and a number of small round tables were positioned around the space. They were all about chest height and held platters of edibles, like a series of islands. An archipelago of snacks, Paula heard in her mind, and it was Thomas's voice, coloured with his trademark sarcasm.

With a stab low in her gut she turned back to face the door, as if it had really been him who'd spoken. As if he was about to enter, walk over to her with that big smile of his and start a wry monologue on the faults of everyone in the room.

The thing was, when he did behave like that people loved it. Folk gravitated to him, caught up in his glamour.

Paula could have laid bets on the first thing a stranger might say to him.

'Haven't I seen you before?'

He had that look. Success, and a confident air that intrigued.

'You sure I haven't seen you on TV?' they would ask, and Thomas would smile, laugh and shake his head, delighted at the response.

It's all smoke and mirrors, honey, he would tell her. People see what they want to see. I have a mirror for a face, and I trail smoke out of my arse. If he was actually here, he'd be surrounded by men and women, each of them wanting a moment with him, like he could offer some sort of benediction.

Wondering who she could talk to safely, Paula scanned the food and with a weak smile noted that there were, indeed, no vol-au-vents.

A hand on her shoulder, a chirrup in her ear. It was Daphne. Big brother Bill's wife.

'Paula. How are you, hen?' she asked.

'Oh, you know, as bad as you'd expect,' said Paula.

Paula looked at Daphne. She was in a black trouser suit and a pink blouse, of a quality she'd never seen her wear before. Usually Daphne's clothes looked like she'd thrown them on without giving it much thought. Paula recalled a time she'd offered to take Daphne shopping but was rebuffed. Her sister-in-law clearly didn't want her charity, which she understood, but Paula's view was that if you can't share your wealth with family, what was the point in having it? Yes, distance had grown between the brothers, but she was keen that the women should show the men how families behaved.

'Such a shock, hen. Such a shock,' Daphne said.

'Aye,' said Paula, as if it wasn't the ninetieth time Daphne had said that to her in the last few days. 'Here. You should try those sausage rolls. They're delicious.' As she spoke she tried to remember where the distance between the men had come from. It seemed so stupid now, in the event of Thomas's death.

'Anything we can do for you, Paula ...' Bill came over to stand beside his wife. He looked like he meant it.

'Thanks, Bill,' she said, knowing the offer wasn't genuine.

It was after Christopher was killed, she remembered – that was when Bill and Thomas had grown apart. That was when they'd all grown apart. She coughed back rising emotion. Now wasn't the time for such introspection.

'When's the will being read?' Bill asked, pushing his specs back up into position. She looked at him properly, for the first time that day. He'd grown a beard and suited it. He hadn't been immune to the Gadd family handsome gene, but his tendency to look at the world as if it had let him down badly, gave his good looks an unpleasant slant.

'I ... I'm not sure, Bill. I haven't spoken to the lawyer about that yet.'

Bill raised his right eyebrow. 'I don't imagine my brother would have left us anything ...' There was a tightness in his expression that made Paula think big brother Bill was praying that this was indeed what would happen. 'But I just wanted to say that whatever the will says, we won't be contesting it.'

'Well, that's ... okay then,' Paula replied and edged away from him. What was that about? Won't be contesting? Contesting what? She'd been Thomas's wife for nearly thirty years. Whatever was coming her way, she deserved.

Bill turned to the food, shrugged at Daphne as if to say, I'm trying, before he picked up a plate. Paula looked at her sister-in-law and read the impact of several decades in a menial job: school cleaner. Bill was a floor manager in a men's clothing store and Paula realised early on in her marriage that he was threatened by Thomas's success. He was the eldest brother, took his role seriously and didn't take the fact well that middle brother, Thomas, had won all the prizes.

If all the money was the prize you were after.

In the early days of that success, Paula had tried to share some of the symbols of it with Daphne – shoes, jewellery, gadgets – and, before Daphne put on all the weight, clothes. But Bill had made her return everything, saying they didn't need any of their charity.

Paula felt a grumble in her stomach. That was a novelty. She hadn't felt any hunger since the news first came through. Since the two young plods showed up at her front door, with their hats in their hands. Out of the blur of words coming from their mouths she had heard heart attack and restaurant. Followed by dead on arrival.

She debated now having anything to eat. Considered that it might not be hunger, but thirst she was feeling. And made for the bar at the other side of the room.

The barman smiled. He looked about nineteen, but filled his white shirt nicely across the shoulders.

'You look like you could do with a drink,' he said.

'The widow,' she said waving a hand in front of her black suit, then realising that her attempt at humour was inappropriate, she fought the heat of a blush.

She sat on a stool and placed her handbag on the bar. 'Sorry, son,' she said. 'And yes, I could do with a drink.'

'What would you like, madam?'

She read his name badge.

'Sam, I'd love a G&T. Heavy on the gin with just a smidge of tonic.'

'A large gin and tonic it is,' Sam said with a hint of a smile and turned away from her to make her drink. As she watched him work she couldn't help but compare him to Christopher. Would they have made friends if they had met? she wondered. Christopher was probably only a few years older than him when he died. Twenty-five. She held her hand to her belly as if it could contain the gut-punch of grief at all that lost potential.

This was something she did on an almost daily basis; placing Christopher into the lives of the people she encountered. Of course, it couldn't be healthy, but she was powerless against the compulsion.

When the drink arrived, she gave Sam a small nod of thanks, swivelled in her seat, placed her back against the bar and surveyed the gathering. It's me, she wanted to shout. I'm the widow. Why are you all avoiding me? Grief isn't contagious. If Thomas was here they'd all be flocking around. Magnetised by his energy.

* * *

After a few drinks and more than a few clichéd expressions of support from the more conscientious 'grievers', she eased herself off her stool and made her way to the ladies.

In the toilet, she made straight for a cubicle, locked the door, and took a seat.

(Continues…)

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Editorial Reviews

"A dark and unnerving psychological thriller that draws you deep into the lives of the characters and refuses to let go. This is a brilliantly written book; I could not put it down." —Caroline Mitchell, author, Silent Victim


"British author Malone (Blood Tears) paints a moving and plausible portrait of a deeply troubled marriage in this thriller set in Scotland in 1996." —Publishers Weekly on A Suitable Lie


"There is so much bubbling under the surface in After He Died. J. . . The suspense escalates until the final crescendo. . . .  There are also some powerful social messages here. An insight into independent advocacy services created a sense of realism and kept the plot grounded. . . . Well researched, well written and well done!" —Off-the-Shelf Books


"This is addictive reading at its best complimented by short, sharp chapters that I adore! I was desperate to find out the truth alongside Paula but also not wanting the brilliantly complex story to end. Malone has crafted interesting and well-rounded characters who come alive off the page … After He Died certainly keeps it’s reader on the edge of their seat throughout with its twists and turns. It certainly had me guessing throughout and I truly cannot get enough of this author’s writing. Another brilliant read from Michael J. Malone." —Have Books Will Read

"Stinging, compelling, dynamic… excellent … There is an immediacy, a powerful edge to the storyline that feels so very real and wonderfully different too. Glasgow sits centre stage, vibrantly punchy and full of life. Michael J. Malone has created a dramatic and thrilling family tale that just sings with intensity. I thoroughly enjoyed picking my way along the razor wire of uncertainty that my thoughts and feelings teetered on. After He Died is an explosive tale, one that takes hold, bites, and doesn’t let go." —LoveReading

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