Louder Than Hunger

Louder Than Hunger

by John Schu

Narrated by Jeff Ebner, John Schu

Unabridged — 3 hours, 43 minutes

Louder Than Hunger

Louder Than Hunger

by John Schu

Narrated by Jeff Ebner, John Schu

Unabridged — 3 hours, 43 minutes

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Overview

“Every so often a book comes along that is so brave and necessary, it extends a lifeline when it's needed most. This is one of those books.” -Katherine Applegate, author of the Newbery Medal-winning, The One and Only Ivan

Revered teacher, librarian, and story ambassador John Schu explores anorexia-and self-expression as an act of survival-in a wrenching and transformative novel-in-verse.


But another voice inside me says,
We need help.
We're going to die.

Jake volunteers at a nursing home because he likes helping people. He likes skating and singing, playing Bingo and Name That Tune, and reading mysteries and comics aloud to his teachers. He also likes avoiding people his own age . . . and the cruelty of mirrors . . . and food. Jake has read about kids like him in books-the weird one, the outsider-and would do anything not to be that kid, including shrink himself down to nothing. But the less he eats, the bigger he feels. How long can Jake punish himself before he truly disappears? A fictionalized account of the author's experiences and emotions living in residential treatment facilities as a young teen with an eating disorder, Louder than Hunger is a triumph of raw honesty. With a deeply personal afterword for context, this much-anticipated verse novel is a powerful model for muffling the destructive voices inside, managing and articulating pain, and embracing self-acceptance, support, and love.


* This audiobook edition includes a downloadable PDF with resources from the book.

Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly

★ 12/04/2023

In 1996, white-cued 13-year-old Jake Stacey would rather roller skate and listen to Broadway musicals or volunteer at the local nursing home than go to school and face relentless bullying. An internal voice, stylized in all-caps, declares that Jake doesn’t “deserve/ love/ and/ warmth/ and/ kindness/ and/ goodness,” and persuades him to forgo eating. Jake, who feels as if ignoring his hunger gives him control when nothing else does, is diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and admitted to Whispering Pines, an inpatient treatment facility for eating disorders. Jake initially rebels against the staff, refuses to speak during therapy, and dreams of leaving to attend a Broadway show with his grandmother. As he settles into his treatment, he experiences setbacks, explores his relationship with food, and opens up to the people around him. This heart-wrenching verse novel—inspired by the author’s experiences, as discussed in an end note by Schu (This Is a Story)—is an unflinching depiction of resistance and disordered eating recovery. Clever use of negative space and onomatopoeic phrases emphasize Jake’s feelings of anger, grief, shame, and vulnerability, while musical theater lyrics and letters from Jake’s grandmother gently buoy this raw read. Resources conclude. Ages 10–14. Agent: Molly O’Neill, Root Literary. (Mar.)

From the Publisher

A harrowing and life-affirming novel-in-verse for young people. . . This is a hard story, raw and jagged in its emotions. But its core is hope. . . ‘Louder Than Hunger’ is a book that roars. It could save lives.
—The New York Times Book Review

A beautiful, powerful, and emotionally impactful book. Jake’s story will fill you with hope and the courage to face your own challenges!
—Jeff Kinney, author of the New York Times best-selling Diary of a Wimpy Kid series

Every so often a book comes along that is so brave and necessary, it extends a lifeline when it’s needed most. This is one of those books.
—Katherine Applegate, author of the Newbery Medal–winning, The One and Only Ivan

John Schu has given us a courageous tale confirming that the voices inside of us—the ones trying to silence our lives—are real, but conquerable. This is a story of triumph, and I hope that for readers, Louder Than Hunger is louder than heartbreak.
—Jason Reynolds, former National Ambassador for Young People’s Literature

Captivating, poignant, graceful, and so important. John Schu is a masterful storyteller, and his lyrical prose will be relatable to anyone dealing with self-acceptance. It’s the kind of book that adults will want to put into the hands of kids, but they won’t need to. Kids will be giving it to each other.
—Dav Pilkey, author of the New York Times best-selling Dog Man series

Told with brutal honesty, this is an important story about confronting anorexia’s all-too-loud voice and healing so it stays silenced—once and for all.
—Lisa Fipps, author of the Michael L. Printz Honor Book Starfish

Louder Than Hunger is a powerful and important book, giving readers entry into the world of a sensitive teen, struggling physically and emotionally with crippling anxiety and anorexia. Through his free verse voice, we accompany Jake into his honest, raw, vulnerable world. I think readers of all ages will empathize with him, worry for him, and root for his journey to understanding, recovery, hope, and joy. Those who know the author, John Schu, and have witnessed his boundless enthusiasm and legendary passion for reading and the transformative power of story will connect on an even deeper level upon learning that Jake’s story parallels John Schu’s own. From troubled teen to author and speaker surging with compassion and joy and willing to share it all with the world—that is John Schu.
—Newbery Medalist Sharon Creech

Masterfully lyrical, powerfully raw, and incredibly moving, Louder Than Hunger is a marvel. Jake’s story will break and mend your heart. A book full of unflinching and vulnerable truths, but also filtered with inspiring light. Necessary and important.
—Jasmine Warga, best-selling and Newbery Honor–winning author of Other Words for Home

Louder Than Hunger pours its whole heart onto the page, bravely exposing the raw spaces within to give readers that rare and precious gift: hope.
—Minh Lê, award-winning author of Drawn Together

Once I started reading this book, I could not put it down. A raw, honest, heartrending story about shouting down that voice in your head that says you’re worthless.
—Alan Gratz, author of the New York Times best-selling Refugee

Heartbreakingly honest and unforgettable.
—Kelly Yang, New York Times best-selling author of the Front Desk series

A startling and honest story that will touch many lives. Just as Jake finds healing and joy in music and poetry and stories, so will the readers of this book.
—Rajani LaRocca, author of the Newbery Honor Book Red, White, and Whole

Sometimes hope comes along and it’s book-shaped—like this. Like Jake and his gentle vulnerability, his big, beautiful heart, his journey that will remind so many readers they aren’t alone. I adored every page of this story.
—Natalie Lloyd, New York Times best-selling author of A Snicker of Magic

Oh, this book! I read it in one sitting because I couldn’t put it down. Jake held me close and didn’t let go. He broke my heart and stitched it back together again. This is a life-changing book for anyone who has ever wanted to disappear. Masterful.
—Erin Entrada Kelly, author of the Newbery Medal winner Hello, Universe

Everybody seems to have a voice in their head that whispers bad things. But Jake’s voice is shouting and screaming. As he shares his amazing story, his true voice comes through. You will want to listen.
—Tom Angleberger, author of the New York Times best-selling Origami Yoda series

Jake had my heart right from the beginning of this powerful, moving story about healing and resilience.
—Supriya Kelkar, author of American as Paneer Pie

A must-read! Louder Than Hunger by John Schu shines a light on the power to quiet the voice that anchors doubt, tells lies, and steals confidence. The reader will root for Jake. Worry about Jake. Love Jake. His beautiful heart, his Broadway spirit, his bravery. This powerful heartprint story will change you. In the very best possible way.
—Elly Swartz, author of Finding Perfect

When we read an incredible story, our hearts can grow with every word. I do believe my heart grew three sizes.
—Pernille Ripp, educator, author, and founder of the Global Read Aloud

Jake’s story is compelling, important, and filled with vulnerability and love—a book with a raw and unflinching honesty. There are readers whose hearts and minds will be opened by this story. For some, it will save their lives.
—Pam Muñoz Ryan, author of the Pura Belpré Author Award winner Esperanza Rising

Louder Than Hunger is a book that everyone needs to read so that we can all understand what it’s like to feel so small that you want to disappear completely.”
—Linda Williams Jackson, award-winning author of The Lucky Ones

Jake is a character who will stay in the hearts of readers for the rest of their lives. I can’t wait for you to meet him.
—Colby Sharp, teacher, author, and reader

Life-changing.
—Travis Jonker, librarian, author, and illustrator

The novel is written in verse from Jake’s perspective, allowing poignant access to his thoughts and feelings. Schu draws on his own experience with anorexia, adding authenticity to the voice. The author clearly cares about his young readers, checking in with them at the end of the book and providing resources about eating disorders. . . . Jake’s struggle with anorexia isn’t easy to read but his ultimate steps toward health provide hope, as does this much-needed and underrepresented male perspective on eating ­disorders.
—School Library Journal (starred review)

This heart-wrenching verse novel—inspired by the author’s experiences, as discussed in an end note by Schu (This Is a Story)—is an unflinching depiction of resistance and disordered eating recovery. Clever use of negative space and onomatopoeic phrases emphasize Jake’s feelings of anger, grief, shame, and vulnerability, while musical theater lyrics and letters from Jake’s grandmother gently buoy this raw read.
—Publishers Weekly (starred review)

The emphasis on internal contradictions and the carefully rendered ending, hinting at hope without promising certainty of recovery, are especially honest and notable. . . . A sensitive, true-to-life narrative that is respectfully and indelibly portrayed.
—Kirkus Reviews

Pulling from struggles with his own eating disorder, Schu gives readers a searing, deeply intimate verse novel, depicting the emotional and physical devastation wrought by disordered eating with brutal, gut-punching honesty. . . . Disordered eating among boys is still an underdiscussed topic and this could bring some much-needed awareness.
—The Bulletin of the Center for Children's Books

In his author’s note, Schu shares how his own experiences with disordered eating as a teen were the impetus for this story, and a resource page concludes. This candid, challenging story will speak loudly to young people grappling with disordered eating and damaged self-esteem, as they will appreciate the honesty and healing it holds.
—Booklist

Whenever I want to dip a toe into the YA realm, I turn into Unfrozen Caveman Lawyer ('Your world frightens and confuses me.'), but there’s no way I’m not going to talk about Louder Than Hunger by John Schu. It’s a harrowing fictionalized memoir-in-verse about anorexia, OCD, and finding a way to a better place. I cried reading this heartbreaking book that ends on a note of hope. Louder Than Hunger will change and save lives.
—Travis Jonker, 100 Scope Notes

Wow. This memoir in verse is a powerful and moving account of a young man with an eating disorder and what he goes through to fight it. While the topic is a difficult one, Louder Than Hunger is written for tweens, and it serves as both a cautionary tale and the voice of someone who understands the way our own minds can turn against us in times of powerlessness and anxiety. For readers going through difficult times, or who want to understand this all-too-common disorder, Schu’s memoir is insightful and necessary.
—Amazon Book Review

School Library Journal

★ 02/01/2024

Gr 5 Up—Eighth grader Jake is bullied at school. He has only two friends. One is his grandmother, who understands him in a way his parents do not and shares his love of musicals. The other is an angel statue he named Frieden. It is only with her who Jake can be honest about how desperately in need of help he is. Jake is wasting away, controlled by "the voice," which dictates what and how much Jake can eat—and it is louder than his hunger. A former teacher at the nursing home where he volunteers calls Jake's mother to share her concerns about his weight, ultimately resulting in placement at an inpatient treatment center called Whispering Pines. A regimented schedule including group therapy, art therapy, and work with a psychologist provide Jake with multiple ways to combat his anorexia. Jake is furious that all treatment is at odds with the voice and refuses to participate. It is heartrending and frustrating to watch Jake take steps forward, and then regress multiple times in his nearly yearlong stay, but this repetition sheds insight into the reality of treatment. It is not until Jake begins to genuinely participate that readers learn Jake's backstory, and the relationship between bullying and his disordered eating. The novel's mid-1990s cultural references may be unfamiliar to young readers, but the multitude of issues Jake is struggling with are evergreen. The novel is written in verse from Jake's perspective, allowing poignant access to his thoughts and feelings. Schu draws on his own experience with anorexia, adding authenticity to the voice. The author clearly cares about his young readers, checking in with them at the end of the book and providing resources about eating disorders. Jake reads as white, as do others in his program. VERDICT Jake's struggle with anorexia isn't easy to read but his ultimate steps toward health provide hope, as does this much-needed and underrepresented male perspective on eating disorders.—Juliet Morefield

MAY 2024 - AudioFile

Jeff Ebner deftly presents this autobiographical story of Jake, who suffers from multiple maladies, including anorexia. Listeners meet the once vibrant 13-year-old, who loves musicals and volunteers to read to nursing home residents--until he hears a vicious inner voice telling him he's worthless and must stop eating. Compellingly rendered chapters convey Jake's experience with inpatient therapy, while the writing-in- verse captures his unsettled mind. Equally moving are Jake's diverse fellow patients and their own punishing battles with eating disorders. Jake's cheerful and encouraging grandmother is Ebner's standout performance. Audio enhances the gratifying conclusion, with author John Schu personally adding further thoughts that will be inspiring for listeners of all ages. S.G.B. © AudioFile 2024, Portland, Maine

Kirkus Reviews

2023-12-06
This coming-of-age novel in verse depicts one boy’s harrowing experiences with his eating disorder in the late 1990s.

Jake Stacey loves rollerblading, Emily Dickinson, Broadway shows, and his grandmother, but he’s not well. Jake has been starving himself since seventh grade—and concerned adults in his life have caught on. They admit Jake against his will to an inpatient program, where he’s treated for anorexia nervosa, depression, and OCD. Jake’s striking first-person voice and the ups and downs of his emotional journey toward healing are centered through a variety of poetic forms and styles, as well as journal entries and confessions Jake makes to an angel statue at a park. Jake experiences grief, gets a feeding tube, confronts horrifying memories of bullying, learns to talk back to “the Voice” of his disorder, befriends another patient, and embraces known and emerging parts of himself without over-explanation or exoticization. The emphasis on internal contradictions and the carefully rendered ending, hinting at hope without promising certainty of recovery, are especially honest and notable. Secondary characters are less well developed, and the middle of the book drags at times. A note from the author, who is white, reveals that Jake’s story is inspired by his own. While Jake, who turns 14 while in treatment, reflects on his emotionally intense tween experiences, his goal setting is relevant to older teens and includes milestones like getting a driver’s license and attending college.

A sensitive, true-to-life narrative that is respectfully and indelibly portrayed. (resources) (Verse fiction. 11-18)

Product Details

BN ID: 2940160308166
Publisher: Penguin Random House
Publication date: 03/19/2024
Edition description: Unabridged
Age Range: 10 - 13 Years

Read an Excerpt

This Notebook Belongs To:
Jake Stacey
 
Grade: 8
 
Year: 1996
 
Favorite Subject: Language Arts
 
Favorite Book: The Giver by Lois Lowry
 
Favorite Movie: Home Alone
 
Favorite Sport: Rollerblading
 
Favorite Food:
 
A Goal: To see a musical on Broadway with Grandma

 
Writing My Name
I write
Jake
in cursive
 
over
 
and
 
over
 
and
 
over.
 
It’s calming.
 
Filling page after page
 
in my notebooks with signatures.
 
Using different colors.
 
Purple.
 
 
Green.
 
 
Blue.
 
It’s soothing.
 
Trying out different styles.
 
Fancy.
 
Plain.
Bold.
 
Experimenting with
 
markers,                highlighters,         pastels.
 
Why is it calming?
 
Why is it soothing?
 
Maybe because
I’m hoping by writing my name over and over,
I’ll
 
figure out who
I
am.
 
Jake
 
Jake
 
Jake
 
 
Jake
 
Jake
 
Jake
 
Jake

 
Nobody?
My stomach
G-R-O-W-L-S.
 
The Voice tells it to
 
S
        T
                O
                        P.
 
I toss the markers inside the top drawer of my desk.
 
I tear out the page and rip it up into little bits,
dropping each
 
piece into the garbage can.
 
I look at a photo of
Emily Dickinson taped to my desk.
 
I know her poem
“I’m Nobody! Who are you?”
by heart.
 
So I run in place,
burning as many calories as I can,
repeating the opening lines
 
I’m Nobody! Who are you?
Are you—Nobody—too?
 
as
FAST
as
I
can.
 
I’m Nobody! Who are you?
Are you—Nobody—too?

I’m Nobody! Who are you?
Are you—Nobody—too?
 
The Voice says,
 
YOU—ARE—REPULSIVE!
 
 
Am I Nobody, Too?
When I can’t run anymore
I sit down again at my 
big brown desk.
 
Mom knocks, knocks, knocks 
on my bedroom door.
 
I ignore her.
 
KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK.
 
I don’t have enough energy to tell her to
GO AWAY—
to leave me alone.
 
I wish everyone
 
would leave me alone—
forever.
 
KNOCK. KNOCK. KNOCK.
 
Worry enters the room.
 
She brings it wherever she goes.
 
You can feel it.
 
Smell it.
 
Mom puts a plate of pretzels and pepperoni on my desk next to me.
 
My stomach
G-R-O-W-L-S
            again.
 
 
The Voice says,
 
DON’T EAT THAT GARBAGE!
 
YOU ALREADY ATE AN APPLE TODAY!
 
YOU DIDN’T EXERCISE ENOUGH!
 
She says,
 
Why haven’t you started your homework?
 
This isn’t like you.
 
What’s going on?
 
I want to say,
 
This isn’t like you.
 
You don’t usually care.
 
I glare at math
 
problems,
wishing
X and Y
would run away.
 
I imagine feeding the garbage disposal pretzels,
pepperoni, and these wretched worksheets,
watching it grind everything into tiny bits.
 
 
The Voice
The negative
Voice inside my head talks nonstop.
 
It has since the middle of seventh grade.
 
It’s louder than
 
the hunger in my stomach.
 
I
weigh myself
10
times per day.
 
Then
15
times per day.
 
Then
20
times per day.
 
The lower the number on the scale goes,
the bigger
I
feel.
 
The bigger
I
feel,
the less
I
eat.
 
The less
 
I
eat,
the less
I
feel.
 
I
make my body smaller and smaller and smaller.
 
I
punish myself day after day.
 
Why?
 
For taking up too much space.
 
For being me.
 
For breathing.
 
 
Clothes
I own two pairs of overalls:
one denim,
one corduroy.
 
I wear a pair every day to school
 
Sometimes
I wear a big sweatshirt over the overalls.
 
Most people think it’s strange.
 
But waistbands,
seams,
fabrics make me feel itchy,
gross.
 
Aware of every inch of my body,
every movement.
 
Aware of how the denim touches my collarbone.
 
Aware of how the corduroy rubs against my thigh.
 
Aware of how my body
 
feels at every moment:
itchy,
gross,
growing.

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