While in her teens Kerry Dashnaw meets a group of conservative Catholic nuns. Enamored by their long habits and mysterious lifestyle she joins the order after graduation from high school. Determined to get close to God she finds that life behind the convent walls is not what she had hoped or expected. Confronted with manipulation, abuse and finally disillusionment, the author relates how she navigated her life into her twenties and early thirties. Through the help of a psychotherapist, she regains a sense of purpose and creates a new life for herself. In this spiritual memoir we experience the vulnerability and emotional journey of a young woman who yearns to be free to make her own choices.